I'm Not Growing Up

I came to realize a few moments ago, that everything I like right now, I have liked since I was little. Yes, I am becoming more mature, but I would rather watch an episode of Pokemon than go to a club in Turkey, where I am legally allowed to drink and smoke.

I never wanted to get older, hell, getting old is my greatest fear in the world. My personality has changed, I am more responsible, but I'm still the same person I was when I was 6. I still listen to the same music, watch the same T.V. channels, I watch kids movies religiously and I act basically like a kid. I like it this way.

I don't drink, not because I don't want to (even though I really don't) but because it makes me realize that I am old enough to. I refuse that. When I was 12 I wanted nothing more than to be older. I drank a lot, smoked whatever I could get my hands on. It was a waste. Now, being 18, I want nothing more than to go back in time and slap myself across the face for even thinking of those things.

People spend their entire lives wanting to be older and able to drive, smoke, drink, get a job, go to college, get a career and have a family. Once their finished doing all of these things, what do they have to look forward to? Just because you're old enough to do them, doesn't mean you have to. People look back on their life and think "where did my youth go?" You lose it trying to grow up too fast. I don't want that.

For now, I'm good with being a kid. I am an adult, but I don't act like one. You have all your life to be an adult. The kid part of your life is too short to waste, so I'm going to stretch mine out as far as I can before I have to face growing up. I'll continue to watch Pokemon and listen to my shitty music that everyone else around me hate. For all I know, I'm living in my own Neverland.

Here's to being young and reckless. Here's to not growing up. Here's to being a kid and doing what kids do. Having fun.