So this is the youth of America?
I am sick of being judged. Some of you reading this will know the feeling, the never wanting to leave home, the feeling like you should just change, conform to what is 'normal'. I was nearly ready too. I was so worn out. Everytime I stepped out of my home it felt as if the people whom surrouded me were laughing. I was just another person that could be a pawn in there little 'game'. Just a person to laugh at. But that's just it! I am nothing more than a person. I have feelings, I can cry. Why should I instantly be disliked? Is it for how I dress? For some the answer is yes. As I walk down the street or wait in the gorcery store, I get disgusted head shakes from the person next to me. And at school, all the whispers in the halls. The teachers who just sadly shake their heads and ask themselves "is this what the youth of America have come to?". Well I'm afraid to say that the answer is yes. I am sorry that I do not meet the 'standards' for an average, normal person. But I wasn't always like that. I used to walk down the halls, appearing apathetic to everything and everyone. I just wanted to blend in, but knew that I couldn't. Whether I changed my clothes and took off the eyeliner, I'm still not what you would say is 'normal'. I act differently, and I speak my mind. For you that might not seem odd, but for some people it is. They were taught to conceal their thoughts and beliefs. I was taught the opposite. My life was a hell hole, that I had created. I felt like I couldn't escape it. I had many other things going on in my life at the time. All this negative judging just added to it. I began to think that I should just shed this girl, Laci, and begin anew. I never did though. I started thinking, "is that really what I want? It goes against what I believe!" And my thoughts soon became words and words soon were actions. I never changed Laci, she just got more mature with age. I am now active in my school and community to try and help kids feel more at ease with themselves. I used to think that being myself was the worst thing, now I realise it is the greatest.
Wow, you're smart.
nimrodidiot, January 18th, 2007 at 05:17:42pm
your right...and next time i start feeling that way...ill remember what you wrote...hell people at school have made me so scared to even wear my hair out, cause im terrified they're gonna give me a mouthful or just say sh*t behind my back...
as much as i love all the people i dont really know on GSB...i hate to admit that they're the only people that know how i really feel inside, and i trust them the most...
clearly its a Green Day thing...they've made us stronger with their music...i have to remember that as well...
thanks! and...hopefully i get to talk to you some more =)
>>nimrod<<, January 18th, 2007 at 04:25:24am
I'll consider that!
TMTCR, January 17th, 2007 at 08:14:55pm
Always be yourslef. don't lety anyone judge you because of the way you dress, look, your race, or the way you think. like i said in one of yourother blogs, you should become a politician. ^_^
Steph:DonaNobisPacem, January 17th, 2007 at 07:38:39pm
I hang out with people that don't go to my school, and they never judged me.
The Hippy, January 17th, 2007 at 04:40:55pm
Good for you! No matter what, you should always be yourself. If people don't like you for that reason then they're not worth your time.
whyamIstillhere?, January 17th, 2007 at 07:57:37am
There are good and bad people in any generation, may it be the youth, or the elderly.
Kurtni, January 16th, 2007 at 10:12:02pm
Uh, heh, this totally sounds cheesy and all, but what's on the INSIDE that counts. XD
Seriously, people can live however we want and we can express ourselves however we want (as long as it's not over-the-top - you know what I mean!). Appearance speaks nothing about our character.
Funky Platypus, January 16th, 2007 at 09:59:34pm
I relate with the whole thing about the judging and everything.
eh?, January 16th, 2007 at 09:52:40pm
:D That's the spirit. There's nothing wrong with the youth of America, or where ever you are. Whether you dress in black and wear eyeliner doesn't make you any more different than the people who wear Abercrombie and Hollister and stuff like that. Clothing has nothing to do with what people are capable of accomplishing.
Hello, My Name Is Asshole, January 16th, 2007 at 09:48:02pm