A day in the life
Okay... once again I don't journal well, so I'll try to blog again. I need to provide myself with an outlet to what goes on inside my head.
Right now my illness is raging. I have a hard time thinking let alone trying to type something. My head is so scrambled with what's going on that half the time I mistype something.
Like tonight I'm trying to write a new chapter in my story, but I'm having trouble with the basic writing. When i type, I think what words I'm typing as I type. So it's frustrating when I think of one thing and it comes outon the screen as something else entirely. *sigh* And then people get on my ass about writing and they don't understand how hard it is for me now.
If that isn't bad enough my facial tics are out in force. Yesterday I couldn't see correctly becuase the tics under my eyes were going 100 million miles a minute and I could see the actual tic in my field of vision. That's not including the one by my cheek that throbs so much that it hurts.
My major depression is bad and it sucks that the meds I'm taking haven't kicked in yet... 2 months which means maybe by my birthday I'll start to feel better. I wish it was now. I ahte feeling like this.. like a blob which barely moves.
Right now my illness is raging. I have a hard time thinking let alone trying to type something. My head is so scrambled with what's going on that half the time I mistype something.
Like tonight I'm trying to write a new chapter in my story, but I'm having trouble with the basic writing. When i type, I think what words I'm typing as I type. So it's frustrating when I think of one thing and it comes outon the screen as something else entirely. *sigh* And then people get on my ass about writing and they don't understand how hard it is for me now.
If that isn't bad enough my facial tics are out in force. Yesterday I couldn't see correctly becuase the tics under my eyes were going 100 million miles a minute and I could see the actual tic in my field of vision. That's not including the one by my cheek that throbs so much that it hurts.
My major depression is bad and it sucks that the meds I'm taking haven't kicked in yet... 2 months which means maybe by my birthday I'll start to feel better. I wish it was now. I ahte feeling like this.. like a blob which barely moves.
If you are having trouble with writing and you aren't into it, you need to just take a break from it. Tell whom ever reads your story that you just have some things going on right now and you need a short break. They will understand and when you do feel like returning to it, you should come back full force!
TMTCR, January 19th, 2007 at 10:34:19pm
Im sorry to hear you're feeling so terribly, but at least you have your birthday to look foward to!
Kurtni, January 19th, 2007 at 09:24:16pm
awww. c'mere *hugs you*
waiting_a_long_time, January 19th, 2007 at 06:21:52am