Ana? What the??? /RANT

I was just cruzing around GSB quite happily before i ran into a profile (no names mentioned).
on it it states things like anorexia not being a mental disorder; but a "lifestyle".
i, quite understandable considering circumstances which i will explain later, saw red.
How can people honestly believe its a lifestyle?
i am quite aware that as it is a disorder people who suffer from it tend to deny/cannot tell they have a problem; but sprouting absolute crap like (direct quote)
"1. If you aren't thin you aren't attractive.
2. Being thin is more important than being healthy.
3. You must buy clothes, cut your hair, take laxatives, starve yourself, do anything to make yourself look thinner. " Etc.

How can people BELIEVE this garbage. How can people tell others that garbage,. it makes me want to cry in all honesty.
Im curretly in hospital as ive mentioned before, but im in here being treated for, yep, you guessed it, anorexia nervosa. im being treated against my will, as as much as im aware of the consequinces ive lost control of it. it now control me. yet i would never ever ever say that to anyone, because its simply not true.
what is happening to this world??
And more so why do people believe that?
My female idolisation of beauty is Marilyn Monroe. She was Glamour personified. But she was that at a volumptous size 12-14-16(varied over the years)
She was beautiful.
Looking like a skeleton, a catatonic one (from lack of nutrients) at that is not beautiful.
i know this.
yet im the one in here being treated for it. ironic how the world works.
Thing is im suffering consequinces for this "lifestyle"; i may never have kids, ive weakened my heart; my internal organs are fucked from a long time of mal-nourishment, ive permanatly aged my bones, my hair falls out easy, im an emotional wreck who now has symptoms of psychosis, depression and OCD.
Yeah, this "lifestyle" is fab -_-
Posted on May 20th, 2007 at 10:38am


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