Burnt Out.
I put this into school, even though I go to university. I didn't know where else to put it.
End of semester. Exam time. Burn out time.
I've never felt like this, but this semester I feel like I can't handle it. It's too much. I have one exam on Thuesday, and two on Wednesday...and some more coming the next weeks. I've handled more than that in past semesters, but I don't think I can this semster.
I'm studying my butt off, I really am. But no matter how long, how often, how intense I study, I just can't remember it for long.
I'm burnt out. Nothing's working anymore.
I have this weird pulsation below my right chest. My mom says it's stress.
It's just too much. Too much of senseless blah blah about theories, too much of things no one will ever get, too much of pressure of having to know it anyway. Too many big words that I can't remember. Too much of everything.
I'm at the state where you have no idea with what to start learning first. Sociology theories? Gender theories and laws? Or Cultural Studies of England?
I'll get through this somehow, with good or bad results, maybe both. I hope it'll be over soon. It will sooner or later. I hope sooner. And I hope I have the strength to get through it. I need hope and a belief in myself. I know I can do it.
I can, I want, and I will.
End of semester. Exam time. Burn out time.
I've never felt like this, but this semester I feel like I can't handle it. It's too much. I have one exam on Thuesday, and two on Wednesday...and some more coming the next weeks. I've handled more than that in past semesters, but I don't think I can this semster.
I'm studying my butt off, I really am. But no matter how long, how often, how intense I study, I just can't remember it for long.
I'm burnt out. Nothing's working anymore.
I have this weird pulsation below my right chest. My mom says it's stress.
It's just too much. Too much of senseless blah blah about theories, too much of things no one will ever get, too much of pressure of having to know it anyway. Too many big words that I can't remember. Too much of everything.
I'm at the state where you have no idea with what to start learning first. Sociology theories? Gender theories and laws? Or Cultural Studies of England?
I'll get through this somehow, with good or bad results, maybe both. I hope it'll be over soon. It will sooner or later. I hope sooner. And I hope I have the strength to get through it. I need hope and a belief in myself. I know I can do it.
I can, I want, and I will.
thank you
Love, July 2nd, 2007 at 02:47:28am
Yes the pulsing sensation is caused by stress, it is your physical indication. When it happens you will know it is time to step back a little and relax.
I am quite surprised at the amount of reading you have to do for exams, we had nothing approaching that, but having a friend who went through PhD in Germany, yes he said it was challenging. Do the chapters have summaries? Maybe you could concentrate on those. You cannot be expected to remember everything, that is impossible. In the real world you do not need to know it all, you can research when required.
Mind mapping is a technique I used once, and it worked! If factual info is what you need to remember, put those facts into that silly kids song "Knick Knack Paddy Whack Give The Dog A Bone". For example if you need to remember the year 1795 and the name John Smith, you could visualise the year and name emblazoned across the drum. The visualisation need not be so simple, you can wind a whole story into it. Silly as it seems it does work. The brain retains and recalls visual information better. Post-it notes with random facts all over the house can help too.
But what is most important is for you to relax somehow. Studying full-time and not taking a break to allow the mind to relax won't be beneficial to you. It needs down-time. Go for a walk, watch some mindless t.v. anything that takes you away from that stress. I wish you all the best with exams, I am sure you will do well.
Grandma, July 1st, 2007 at 06:45:26pm
i'm sorry to hear, really!
Hugs (virtually and tomorrow you will get some real ones...)....I try what I can do to help you, promised :)
soudain, July 1st, 2007 at 03:27:36pm
no it's not that
i hope o.o
Love, July 1st, 2007 at 02:07:38pm
I deal with pressure horribly, just in a different way. Rather than worrying about what's going to happen, I put off studying completely and don't even think about school at the end of term. I know that's really bad, especially that I'm going into tenth grade, but I have trouble concentrating anyways.
That pressure, it is stress. It's not an ulcer, is it? My mom gets 'em a lot, and my doctor said I had one last year. Ulcers suck.
Funky Platypus, July 1st, 2007 at 01:49:53pm
No problem =)
Chrissi, July 1st, 2007 at 01:48:13pm
thank you <33
Love, July 1st, 2007 at 01:44:59pm
You could do that as well lol. Well I hope it goes well for you.
Chrissi, July 1st, 2007 at 01:44:45pm
well...I just won't read them and try to get through it without havning read them :/
Love, July 1st, 2007 at 01:40:21pm
I know how you feel. Usually I like reading but my philosophy books are so so heavy going I feel burnt out. My advice would be take them slowly.
Chrissi, July 1st, 2007 at 01:36:14pm
i have thousand pages to read for my exams
probably even more
and 4 books
i cant do that all
its impossible
i just cant
._.
Love, July 1st, 2007 at 01:26:14pm
I hope things get better for you. I know how it feels, the amount of work I have had to do this semester is unreal. Glad it's the holidays but been given 2 philosophy books to read over the summer. It's endless. Good luck.
Chrissi, July 1st, 2007 at 01:25:14pm