Why don't I belive?
People are always speaking about god. 'God saved me' 'Lord help me' 'Praise the lord'
Since I was a little girl, I have been going to church. I rember while all the other children were getting into it, Singing, Praying Listening to sermons, I would always be on the balcony, In the way back, buried in a book.
People talk about this special warm feeling they get. People memorize the bible. People belive.
I have never In my life felt that warm embrace of god. I've had the suposed 'Body and Blood' of christ enter my body, And I always wince at the bitter wine and the dry bread. People savor it. They turn around and venerate [kiss] The icons [pictures of saints, jesus, theotokos, ect] They have their hands over their hearts, Their eyes closed. Basking in the warmth of god.
I've always wondered, Why I didn't ever feel anything. I always dreded comming to church, With all the Religious people and their secret affairs with god.
I kind of feel like a child left out in the cold rain. While the people of my church laugh, Smile, Warm with the love of god.
Every time I come near my church, Every time I hear a mention of god, one question comes to mind.
Why don't I belive?
Since I was a little girl, I have been going to church. I rember while all the other children were getting into it, Singing, Praying Listening to sermons, I would always be on the balcony, In the way back, buried in a book.
People talk about this special warm feeling they get. People memorize the bible. People belive.
I have never In my life felt that warm embrace of god. I've had the suposed 'Body and Blood' of christ enter my body, And I always wince at the bitter wine and the dry bread. People savor it. They turn around and venerate [kiss] The icons [pictures of saints, jesus, theotokos, ect] They have their hands over their hearts, Their eyes closed. Basking in the warmth of god.
I've always wondered, Why I didn't ever feel anything. I always dreded comming to church, With all the Religious people and their secret affairs with god.
I kind of feel like a child left out in the cold rain. While the people of my church laugh, Smile, Warm with the love of god.
Every time I come near my church, Every time I hear a mention of god, one question comes to mind.
Why don't I belive?
Religeous belief is inheritted (sorry im not the best a spelling though i hope it make some sense) soo maybe that has somthing to do with it? That what i put my non belief down to my mother is very anti-religion though my father is very into it soo thats odd.
BANG!, July 5th, 2007 at 03:39:28am
You don't believe probably because you're open-minded.
greenday1386, July 4th, 2007 at 04:29:02pm
Well... Thats something only you can answer. I felt like you when I go to Church (and that was a looooong time ago, I stopped) and I felt a bit ashamed how they feel so much love and I feel....nothing. But I do believe in God and everything I just have never felt good at Church. Its something for you to find out yourself.
worn-out astronaut., July 4th, 2007 at 07:54:39am
For me it is because I am aware of the history of religion. If you consider how long humankind has walked the earth, and the relatively short time institutionalised religion in their current forms have existed, the creationist theories put forward do not, in my opinion, contain any viable credibility. I also come from a science background, this is at odds with religious ideology; consider dinosaurs for example. If you mapped the time of the geologic earth against the time of the bible, how could dinosaurs have existed, but we have scientific proof they did. One Bishop waved this off with the statement that God made it to appear that way. According to him the world came into being about 4004BC. I could provide a number of other examples but I don't want to bore you.
For those who do believe, it is not about proof, it is faith. Faith that there is a God, an afterlife etc. I guess it gives them something to help them through hard times.
I imagine a large number of people look around at this world we live in with it's poverty, disease, not to mention wars based on religion, and question whether religion in itself is a good thing. How could God allow this? Maybe reality is why they don't believe. Maybe they just do not want to believe.
Grandma, July 4th, 2007 at 01:28:19am
Maybe you're much more in touch with reality than they are. I don't want to offend anyones religious beliefs... but maybe you don't believe because there truely isn't anything to believe in..
Kurtni, July 4th, 2007 at 01:06:37am
great blog, the same thing happened to me when i was a kid too, being dragged to church, not really understanding much, but i just went alon with it.
The reason, for me, why i dont feel 'embraced' by god is because i have him shoved down my throat 24/7 at school, and thats a good enoguh reason for me.
Vegemite, July 4th, 2007 at 12:42:50am
good question D:
I don't believe either
but I know why
Rage, July 4th, 2007 at 12:37:59am