and here we go again

so i have these two friends right? and they hate eachother...really hate eachother. and one of them....*we'll call her, Ray* has to make me choose inbetween them. and i really dont like that. Ray hates *we'll call the other one Dawny* Dawny for some stupid reason. Dawny and my sis were all...yea....at the movies one time and Ray walked out cuz she didnt like that cuz she liked my sis. but it really had nothing to do w/ anything. cuz Ray had a gf and my sis and Ray werent dating or ne thing...so yea. Dawny only hates Ray cuz Ray talks shit about her...but anyways, they hate eachother. and since i love them both, i'm stuck in the middle of it. but lately i've been having to lean more on Dawny's side cuz Ray refused to tell me that she broke up w/ my other best friend Hazelwood, for my sis. and that pissed me off. i mean me and Ray were suppose to be best friends....and she couldnt even tell me that cuz she thought i was gonna stop being friends w/ her....WHY THE HELL WOULD I?!?!?! i mean i have been really jealous whenever Ray and my sis flirted or sumthing but i got over that. its just...Ray pissed me off so i was hanging out w/ Dawny more. well Ray thought that i was just ditching her so she stopped talking to me. but since my sis and Ray broke up, Ray has been talking to me nonstop and we became really close friends again. and i loved it. she understood that i loved Dawny too and so she stopped talking about her. same w/ Dawny. i was really happy. and i know this sounds evil but i was also happy that my sis and Ray weren't talking. and i dunno wat it was that made me feel that way. i wont feel ashamed of my feelings tho. i'm human, and i'm gonna feel a certain way about things all the time. i cant help it. but today, Ray just went off cuz Dawny and Tre *another friend* were at my house. i dont know why she went off but she did. she got pissed and hung up on me everytime i called her back to see what was wrong. and i'm really pissed!! i mean we were doing so good and then she's just gonna get mad about some stupid shit like that!!! i mean what the hell?!?!? and it just seemed like every damn emotion that i've felt for the past month just hit me all at once. and the thing that made it come was that my sis and Ray were talking!! JUST FUCKING TALKING!!!!!!!!! why the hell did i get so hurt over that??? me and Ray have a rough past...we've been through a lot of fights. and she doesnt even know that i like her. its not really a good time to tell ANYBODY! i'm not bi or gay so that would really confuse a lot of stuff....idk...my friend Jessie called me bi curious but i dunno...but i do like Ray and all my sis and her did was talk....do you think that it was because i've gotten so close to Ray again that i think that my sis will steal her away from me yet again??? it hurt so badly when i FOUND OUT they were going out...neither one of them even told me. i told them i knew....but i really am stuck here. i dont know what to do....i love Ray, i love Dawny, and i Love my sis. Ray started talking shit about Dawny again and i've already had a fight with her about it. Danwy is keeping away from thinking that it's all her fault me and Ray are having rough times, and this is the time i really need her. my sis is still heartbroken over the whole break up shit and i'm stuck liking Ray when her and my sis just broke up, getting really jealous just cuz they were talking, and inbetween dawny and Ray's fights.......im just so frustrated....