Even If We Don't Admit It...
This blog is about Regret. Everybody regrets things, even if they're like me and don't admit it. I constantly find myself saying I don't regret things I've done in the past, but I do.
For example, I regret shoplifting when I was twelve, for when I was caught, it was the most horrible experience of my life. No I don't regret getting caught, I regret doing it completely. Because it was the first time I've seen my dad, a man that's been brought up on getting punished for things he's done, cry. I can never forget the look on his face, and that day haunts and will haunt me for the rest of my life. That's not all I regret, but I won't go into that today.
Have you ever had something on your mind so much, that you can't concentrate on anything that's happening in the world around you? Well usually, that has to do with regret too.
For example, let's say that you've finally told the boy/girl that you like them, and are waiting to hear back from them. Days pass and you're wondering if they're freaked out by it or mad about it. You find yourself desperate to just talk to them, or have them look at you without looking away. You quickly feel ashamed and regret that you told them. You think that you should have just kept it bottled up.
You see? Regret. Everybody regrets things, even if they won't admit it. That's the point of where we would wish we could see the future, and what the outcome would be for the things we've done. If only it were that simple. Where would the fun of consequences and punishments be in that? You learn from your mistakes, but what if the mistake you made costs you something.
When I was caught shoplifting, my parents wouldn't trust me for 2 years to go places that didn't have security in them. That about killed me, just them distrusting me. I hated how they wouldn't let me do things, but now I realize they were just as scared as I was. They were scared that it would happen again.
It's one of the most painful things, seeing a parent's look in their eyes when you've done something bad. And for them, knowing that they haven't taught you right from wrong well enough. It kills you both. Nothing is worse than that, you might think there is, but then you probably haven't experienced it.
That's why you regret, because there's that constant reminder of something you've done wrong, even in you think you've done nothing wrong and you may not have, but someone eventually will think different. What you've done keeps eating away at you. It doesn't matter if it's far in the past, you're still never going to forget it. And you can't help but think, What if I hadn't done it?
For example, I regret shoplifting when I was twelve, for when I was caught, it was the most horrible experience of my life. No I don't regret getting caught, I regret doing it completely. Because it was the first time I've seen my dad, a man that's been brought up on getting punished for things he's done, cry. I can never forget the look on his face, and that day haunts and will haunt me for the rest of my life. That's not all I regret, but I won't go into that today.
Have you ever had something on your mind so much, that you can't concentrate on anything that's happening in the world around you? Well usually, that has to do with regret too.
For example, let's say that you've finally told the boy/girl that you like them, and are waiting to hear back from them. Days pass and you're wondering if they're freaked out by it or mad about it. You find yourself desperate to just talk to them, or have them look at you without looking away. You quickly feel ashamed and regret that you told them. You think that you should have just kept it bottled up.
You see? Regret. Everybody regrets things, even if they won't admit it. That's the point of where we would wish we could see the future, and what the outcome would be for the things we've done. If only it were that simple. Where would the fun of consequences and punishments be in that? You learn from your mistakes, but what if the mistake you made costs you something.
When I was caught shoplifting, my parents wouldn't trust me for 2 years to go places that didn't have security in them. That about killed me, just them distrusting me. I hated how they wouldn't let me do things, but now I realize they were just as scared as I was. They were scared that it would happen again.
It's one of the most painful things, seeing a parent's look in their eyes when you've done something bad. And for them, knowing that they haven't taught you right from wrong well enough. It kills you both. Nothing is worse than that, you might think there is, but then you probably haven't experienced it.
That's why you regret, because there's that constant reminder of something you've done wrong, even in you think you've done nothing wrong and you may not have, but someone eventually will think different. What you've done keeps eating away at you. It doesn't matter if it's far in the past, you're still never going to forget it. And you can't help but think, What if I hadn't done it?
It's weird, but I don't regret what I've done so far in my life. I know the mistakes I've made only taught me what's wrong and what's right, so for them I am thankful.
There are some times I would wonder what it would be like if I had done something, or went somewhere, but all in all, I'm happy with the way things are and know regretting what happened in the past wont make things better.
:] Good blog though.
Hello, My Name Is Asshole, September 27th, 2007 at 08:34:57pm
I regret so many things I've done that it wouldn't fit into the comment box.
Wonderful blog Em.
Mr. Teatime, September 27th, 2007 at 06:55:33pm
This is true.
I find myself thinking alot about things that Ive done, or things that I havent, and just wondering what could of been if things happened differently.
waiting_a_long_time, September 27th, 2007 at 02:16:31pm
To be honest I don't regret anything anymore, in the past I have but now I don't regret a single thing. Whether its taking drugs, getting into fights, stealing. It doesn't matter, we only have one life and we may as well live it the way we want it before its too late. Its the same with tattoos, they are on you forever, thats why they were invented to be on you forever. I don't regret any of my tattoos.
schooldropout, September 27th, 2007 at 10:30:08am
I regret a lot of things...
Great blog :]
Joshua Gayward., September 26th, 2007 at 10:54:30pm
I dunno, there's good and bad in my life of course, and when I do something stupid I have temporary regret, but as of right now, I have no permanent regrets. I'm where I am now for all that I've done, and I like my life very much, so I don't really have any regrets.
But good blog ^_^
Miley Cyrus, September 26th, 2007 at 10:53:47pm
Slappy regrets lots of things.
Mhmm.
captain america, September 26th, 2007 at 10:42:49pm
Yea i feel Regret a lot sometimes...
Good blog ^^
Rain, September 26th, 2007 at 10:42:29pm