Perfect.
For a while I had this sick thought in my head that I was never going to be smart enough, or pretty enough, or strong enough for this world.
So many times I would try my hardest in school, to come out on top. Yet it seemed the harder I tried, the more I would let myself down. I wanted to be perfect at everything I did because it seemed like everyone around me was, and I should be too. It was so hard to see those kids who hardly tried, and yet were always the smartest in the class. Everything just came to them so easily.
God if I could get a dollar for how many times I complain about my appearance in a day. I hate almost everything about what I look like. I am so jealous of those girls who have the perfect bodies, perfect hair, perfect skin, perfect everything. Its enough to drive me insane. I hated it when my friends were always hit on by guys because it was obvious that there physical features were much more pretty than mine.
I am really a weak person when it comes to how I feel. Deaths are the hardest for me, I completely fall apart. I cry too much in my opinion. I have these emotional breakdowns where I can’t just wake up in the morning, where I don’t want to wake up in the morning. Sometimes I just need a break from everything and everyone, to put it all on hold. My friends, my family, my schoolwork, my life. But I can’t. Life doesn’t have a pause button, I can’t just slow it all down and figure it out and than just press “play” and know what I’m doing.
But this one person changed all of that.
He fell for me because of something I said that was smart. We agree on everything.
He tells me I’m beautiful, he swears I’m much better looking than all his friends.
He keeps me strong. He is that one person that I can just fall back on and that one shoulder that I can always cry on.
His name is Jamie Scott Naylor,
And I have to wipe my pillow dry every night
Because just thinking about him with me makes me cry.
He makes it feel like everything is actually perfect for once in my life.
So many times I would try my hardest in school, to come out on top. Yet it seemed the harder I tried, the more I would let myself down. I wanted to be perfect at everything I did because it seemed like everyone around me was, and I should be too. It was so hard to see those kids who hardly tried, and yet were always the smartest in the class. Everything just came to them so easily.
God if I could get a dollar for how many times I complain about my appearance in a day. I hate almost everything about what I look like. I am so jealous of those girls who have the perfect bodies, perfect hair, perfect skin, perfect everything. Its enough to drive me insane. I hated it when my friends were always hit on by guys because it was obvious that there physical features were much more pretty than mine.
I am really a weak person when it comes to how I feel. Deaths are the hardest for me, I completely fall apart. I cry too much in my opinion. I have these emotional breakdowns where I can’t just wake up in the morning, where I don’t want to wake up in the morning. Sometimes I just need a break from everything and everyone, to put it all on hold. My friends, my family, my schoolwork, my life. But I can’t. Life doesn’t have a pause button, I can’t just slow it all down and figure it out and than just press “play” and know what I’m doing.
But this one person changed all of that.
He fell for me because of something I said that was smart. We agree on everything.
He tells me I’m beautiful, he swears I’m much better looking than all his friends.
He keeps me strong. He is that one person that I can just fall back on and that one shoulder that I can always cry on.
His name is Jamie Scott Naylor,
And I have to wipe my pillow dry every night
Because just thinking about him with me makes me cry.
He makes it feel like everything is actually perfect for once in my life.
waiting_a_long_time, the font is black so you have to highlight it if you have a black background like me.
Anyway, it's great that you've found someone like this, but remember that he's not just saying these things, he actually thinks you are beautiful and therefore you must be. So if ever you have to be parted, don't fall apart: you can be smart and beautiful without anyone telling you that.
Miley Cyrus, October 16th, 2007 at 11:22:59pm
aww cute :D
honest eyes., October 16th, 2007 at 07:21:07pm
It was so hard to see those kids who hardly tried, and yet were always the smartest in the class.
that makes me really mad
alot of the kids in my school
are like that
but no one is perfect and no one should expect anyone to be perfect
Fallop!an Cwac Cwac., October 15th, 2007 at 09:50:47pm
Nobody is perfect and everyone might expect you to be, but you are who you are.
schooldropout, October 15th, 2007 at 03:24:15pm
I think there is something wrong here... as it says the page is fully loaded, but there is NOTHING in that blog..
waiting_a_long_time, October 15th, 2007 at 02:12:31pm
"God if I could get a dollar for how many times I complain about my appearance in a day. I hate almost everything about what I look like."
"I am really a weak person when it comes to how I feel. Deaths are the hardest for me, I completely fall apart. I cry too much in my opinion. I have these emotional breakdowns where I can’t just wake up in the morning, where I don’t want to wake up in the morning. Sometimes I just need a break from everything and everyone, to put it all on hold. My friends, my family, my schoolwork, my life. But I can’t. Life doesn’t have a pause button, I can’t just slow it all down and figure it out and than just press “play” and know what I’m doing. "
oh gosh do I ever know how that feels.
I wish you two the best of luck, and I'm glad you found someone like that!=)
I have found a guy that I KNOW is perfect..but..let's just say it'll never happen=\
Bubble Wrap., October 15th, 2007 at 06:58:18am