why?
okay so, this is my relationship blog, about relationship problems. It's not like a really terrible one, just... confusing to me.
Anyway.
My boyfriend didn't want me to talk to my ex, Kevin. (for more background, I moved to Missouri, used to live in Wyoming, which is where Kevin lives, Kevin and I are about 900 miles away)
But I still liked Kevin as a friend, and I wanted to talk to him, because I just think him and our relationship ended so fast, it was just weird. Taylor, (the current boyfriend) didn't want me talking to him, so it was kinda messy... Well, I needed to add that for background, because now Kevin and I talk. And that's fine with Taylor. We both had a jealousy problem, but I'm pretty sure it's passed.
Now, I find myself thinking about Kevin. A lot. I really don't know why. I feel like he might still have feelings for me. Maybe I'm naive, but I get this feeling that everytime we talk, he's just doing it cuz he still likes me.
We both reminisce about our past, stuff we did, how dumb we were, etc. Which is always nice.
I have this feeling, deep down inside, that I would cheat on Taylor with Kevin. Which I'm always afraid might happen if Kevin and I ever hang out. I mean, on Kevin's part, like Kevin initiating it, like him trying to kiss me or something.
I want to hang out with Kevin though. I mean, I'm REALLY hoping he doesn't try to pull anything over on me, but then I'm afraid that if he doesn't, there will be strange feelings floating between us. And I'm afraid I would react somehow. In the bad sense. For instance, if Kevin didn't pull anything, I would. I don't even want to!! I really don't! This whole blog probably makes me sound like a cheating whore, but I've never done it, and not even thought of it.
So why am I thinking of it now? That would be so ridiculous, too.
I need help.
Anyway.
My boyfriend didn't want me to talk to my ex, Kevin. (for more background, I moved to Missouri, used to live in Wyoming, which is where Kevin lives, Kevin and I are about 900 miles away)
But I still liked Kevin as a friend, and I wanted to talk to him, because I just think him and our relationship ended so fast, it was just weird. Taylor, (the current boyfriend) didn't want me talking to him, so it was kinda messy... Well, I needed to add that for background, because now Kevin and I talk. And that's fine with Taylor. We both had a jealousy problem, but I'm pretty sure it's passed.
Now, I find myself thinking about Kevin. A lot. I really don't know why. I feel like he might still have feelings for me. Maybe I'm naive, but I get this feeling that everytime we talk, he's just doing it cuz he still likes me.
We both reminisce about our past, stuff we did, how dumb we were, etc. Which is always nice.
I have this feeling, deep down inside, that I would cheat on Taylor with Kevin. Which I'm always afraid might happen if Kevin and I ever hang out. I mean, on Kevin's part, like Kevin initiating it, like him trying to kiss me or something.
I want to hang out with Kevin though. I mean, I'm REALLY hoping he doesn't try to pull anything over on me, but then I'm afraid that if he doesn't, there will be strange feelings floating between us. And I'm afraid I would react somehow. In the bad sense. For instance, if Kevin didn't pull anything, I would. I don't even want to!! I really don't! This whole blog probably makes me sound like a cheating whore, but I've never done it, and not even thought of it.
So why am I thinking of it now? That would be so ridiculous, too.
I need help.
