First blog...a decision

Well I used to have this blog on opendiary.com. It was so addicting. But i quit because that site is kind of crappy. I really miss blogging though so i thought i'd move my rants to here. This website is all about my favorite band so i'm hoping those who may stumble across this blog can somehow relate to me and my values which are similar to my taste in music of course. First of all, music is my life. I'm not one of those scene kids who just say that, music really is my life. I devote my time mainly to my school's bands: marching band, concert band, pep band, and clarinet chior. I play clarinet and i am devoted to it. i've taken years of private lessons. but playing music isn't what makes music part of my life, listening to music and the lyrics of my favorite songs, analyzing the lyrics, writing my own lyrics, really feeling the music, that is why music is my life. i play guitar also and theres nothing more gratifying than learning my favorite green day song and acutally playing it and singing it (although my voice is terrible). Now i've come to a point in my life: what do i want to do in college, what do i want to do in my life. i've thought very hard about this while trying to chose which major to write on my college application and i came down to two things that i love. music and writing. i am a passionate person and i have found the only way to express your feelings is to write about it or play it. music and literature go hand in hand, they mean the same thing to me. by writing i can release all feelings, by listening to music i can relate to the song and feel hope that i am not the only one with bad or even good feelings. looking at that question that was asking me what my future would be i wrote down the word English and moved on. it wasn't a hard decision, i love to write. but it has created a conflict in my thoughts. i can't abandon music. i have strived my whole life to become a great music player and a great understander of music, i can't leave that all behind and become a new person. so i'm stuck with a hard decision. should i major in music and leave my dreams of writing behind? or should i keep my major in English and leave my music behind. i've come to a conclusion: major in English and minor in Music. I dont' know how this will turn out. i love both so much i feel guilty for putting music second. but to tell you the truth, there is very few music jobs and many English jobs. i guess i'll see which subject i excel more in when i finally get into college. i'm not sure, maybe i will switch majors. but for right now i am fine, i am getting to study the two things i love. look me up someday if i'm a famous writer. or give me some change if i'm stuck preforming on the street. as long as i'm happy i think i'll be just fine.