The Loneliest I've Ever Been...
"...god gave rock and roll to you, gave rock and roll to you, put it in the soul of everyone..."
-KISS
I probably got those lyrics wrong, but whatever, I can't think straight right now...
All I know is that I'm feeling real lonely right now. Those days after my dad passed, people close to our family both blood related and friend, came to comfort me and my family. There were many that I didn't know, only my father knew them well and then their were those that I've always known, the ones that had moved away but when they came back you feel so happy to see them again! I felt comfort knowing that their are people always there for you in times of great need, especially those closest to you. When my aunt came, when my sisters boyfriend came, when my father's best friend came, etc...it was all happiness and cheers. But, when they left our home to go back to their everyday lives it was like my heart sank into a black hole, my heart needed someone to just to be their. Of course we can't always be their, we have lives; we go to school, work, other family related issues, etc. I don't wanna come off sounding all whiny and what-not, its just that, I go back to my studies and learning crap tommorrow and in a few days I have to go back to work...its not going to be the same. To be honest, I don't usually keep many close friends, I'm fine the way I am but now its different. I just wish there was someone around, always, to talk to, lean on..whatever! I know I'm not the only one who's ever felt this way, we can't always help it. We can't get rid of it, we just have to hold our heads high and hope for the best! So far the only thing that keeps me going besides my family, is my movies, games and most of all my music!
"...all you need is love"
-the beatles
-KISS
I probably got those lyrics wrong, but whatever, I can't think straight right now...
All I know is that I'm feeling real lonely right now. Those days after my dad passed, people close to our family both blood related and friend, came to comfort me and my family. There were many that I didn't know, only my father knew them well and then their were those that I've always known, the ones that had moved away but when they came back you feel so happy to see them again! I felt comfort knowing that their are people always there for you in times of great need, especially those closest to you. When my aunt came, when my sisters boyfriend came, when my father's best friend came, etc...it was all happiness and cheers. But, when they left our home to go back to their everyday lives it was like my heart sank into a black hole, my heart needed someone to just to be their. Of course we can't always be their, we have lives; we go to school, work, other family related issues, etc. I don't wanna come off sounding all whiny and what-not, its just that, I go back to my studies and learning crap tommorrow and in a few days I have to go back to work...its not going to be the same. To be honest, I don't usually keep many close friends, I'm fine the way I am but now its different. I just wish there was someone around, always, to talk to, lean on..whatever! I know I'm not the only one who's ever felt this way, we can't always help it. We can't get rid of it, we just have to hold our heads high and hope for the best! So far the only thing that keeps me going besides my family, is my movies, games and most of all my music!
"...all you need is love"
-the beatles
I don't know if you are wanting an anonymous conversation to just vent, but try calling the Kids Help Phone- 1 800 668 6868. Personally, I've never called.. But its worth a try.
Hope it'll get better soon. I'm sure billions of people have told you that they're sorry for your loss, etc. Its kind of sh*tty, and all. Just keep strong.
ROSLYNN, March 31st, 2008 at 08:44:16pm
I hazard to guess that a lot of the people you know from college and work are most likely around your age and as of yet haven't really been touched by death the way you have. It can be difficult for them to express themselves to you especially if they are uncertain how you will react to talking about it. If you can find one friend to talk to do so. If not, talk to a relative or keep in touch with those you haven't seen in a while.
Grandma, March 31st, 2008 at 05:49:50am