Change
When you change, is it supposed to be drastic? Should someone notice the next morning? Or should it be modest and incognito? If you pulled a dictionary off your shelf right now, it’d come up with something along the lines of to become altered or modified. I myself have made the promise to others and myself that I would ‘change’. But right now, I realized that I was never too sure of how I was going to change. Then when I was told, by more then one person, I realized I would be a totally different person if I changed.
Everyone has unique qualities, good and bad. Mine are mostly bad, but hey I deal with it. Unfortunately, the people around me sometimes can’t, and is it unfair to them to make them have too? Yea. But, they too have to understand that if I fix every fault I have, more will come, and I won’t be myself anymore. If they don’t want someone, who can’t fix every single thing about them, then maybe they don’t want me.
Unfortunately, I have changed. A lot. The worst part is they don’t notice. I had a drinking problem. I stopped; I’ve been sober for more then two-hundred days. But, that’s not the thing I need to fix anymore. There’s something new, and it seems like there’s something new everyday. No one’s perfect. At least as far as I know, and if you can honestly say, “I’ve never done anything wrong in my entire life,” then you need to be on the next FOX news or something. I just wish, people would take the blinders off, because they aren’t a race horse. I’m more then everything I screw up at, I have changed, I’m not the person I was July 21, 2006.
Everyone has unique qualities, good and bad. Mine are mostly bad, but hey I deal with it. Unfortunately, the people around me sometimes can’t, and is it unfair to them to make them have too? Yea. But, they too have to understand that if I fix every fault I have, more will come, and I won’t be myself anymore. If they don’t want someone, who can’t fix every single thing about them, then maybe they don’t want me.
Unfortunately, I have changed. A lot. The worst part is they don’t notice. I had a drinking problem. I stopped; I’ve been sober for more then two-hundred days. But, that’s not the thing I need to fix anymore. There’s something new, and it seems like there’s something new everyday. No one’s perfect. At least as far as I know, and if you can honestly say, “I’ve never done anything wrong in my entire life,” then you need to be on the next FOX news or something. I just wish, people would take the blinders off, because they aren’t a race horse. I’m more then everything I screw up at, I have changed, I’m not the person I was July 21, 2006.
In five years you will be different than you are now, growing/changing/evolving is something we do throughout our lives. It never stops. Andria is right when she says the only reason to change is for you. Remember none of your friends are perfect either, and it's easier for us all to see fault in others but not in ourselves.
Grandma, April 20th, 2008 at 01:38:12am
you don't neeeeed to change anything about yourself. I personally HATE my thighs and wish errrryday that I would get off my rump and do something about it.. But I never do.
Its up to you what you change. You can always reverse it if you feel that you're being untrue to yourself.
ROSLYNN, April 19th, 2008 at 10:45:10pm
in a way i know exactly what you're talking about, because people want me
to change to, so i can understand you in that aspect.
but, in a way i can't relate to you because i've never had a drinking problem.
but here's what i think. i think that if you're going to change, you should
only change for you. and i don't even know, but i'm happy that you've been
sober. that must've been so hard to overcome, and i hope you think that
it was well worth it. =]
get famous, April 19th, 2008 at 07:32:16pm