I'm Sorry.
Okay, so this is kind of an apology to myself. And something I wish I could tell someone to their face, but am too embarassed to do so. Don't make fun of me.
i'm sorry that you hate me now. i'm sorry that i made you feel uncomfortable. it's not my fault i cared about you. i didn't want you to end up hurting yourself even more, or killing yourself. i needed you to be here with me, so that i could think everything was going to be okay after what happened last year. i'm better now, and obviously you aren't. i miss being around you, and hearing you say that you love me. honestly, i still love you and think about you constantly even though i tell everyone i hate you. this is just the way i deal. you can go out and drink and smoke, but the next time you need someone, no one is going to care like i did. you're going to kill yourself, andin the end i will still think it's my fault. i'm sorry that i wanted you to be happy the way you are.
Thanks for reading?
i'm sorry that you hate me now. i'm sorry that i made you feel uncomfortable. it's not my fault i cared about you. i didn't want you to end up hurting yourself even more, or killing yourself. i needed you to be here with me, so that i could think everything was going to be okay after what happened last year. i'm better now, and obviously you aren't. i miss being around you, and hearing you say that you love me. honestly, i still love you and think about you constantly even though i tell everyone i hate you. this is just the way i deal. you can go out and drink and smoke, but the next time you need someone, no one is going to care like i did. you're going to kill yourself, andin the end i will still think it's my fault. i'm sorry that i wanted you to be happy the way you are.
Thanks for reading?
D8
AWW!
*hugs*
TessicaT.Kirk, June 14th, 2008 at 11:11:15pm
*hugs*
get famous, May 25th, 2008 at 12:45:24am
=\ awh..*hugs*
I'm always here if you wanna talk.
Bubble Wrap., May 23rd, 2008 at 07:29:55pm