Love and Life.

It's a pretty understandable and lonely feeling, this "existence." What I mean is, most of what we do is fueled towards the goal of either A:Success and recognition or B:To love and to be loved. I think both are pretty common in their own. There's the hard working school addict yearning for that medical degree, long uncomfortable nights spent up and studying (figure A). On the rebound, there's the lovely waitress who spends all night sitting up with her boyfriend waiting for his cat to come home (figure B).

But its all the same person, really. We're two people, in this life, hell some of us are three or four. There's the realistic part of us that wants what we're expected to want. Money, or luxury, or anything like that. Then there's our secret self. The one we don't like to expose.

Secretly, it's this figure B sort of behavior we want, I believe. The reason we don't like to show people this side, this trusting, loving side that just want acceptence, is because of the repercussions. We don't want to love because we're afraid of lose. We don't want to be loved because we are afraid to trust.

There are those rare little occasions of happiness of course, that we basically live for.

Figure A is much less complicated. We want something for ourselves, we want to give something to the world, or for our own benefit. So we either work, or wait for opportunity. It's either achieved or failed, simple enough, because we have many many alternatives.

But we don't get so many alternatives with figure B. We love who we love, and are loved by who we are loved by. It's torture and loneliness. You never know if you're right or wrong.

So thats why we have our figure A, For safety and reliability.We are a scared, scared