Change Is Prosperous.

I feel the need to bring about change. I feel the need to break free of the chains that stop me from chasing after my dreams. I've gotten so tired of living the same inane days, ending in the same boredom. This summer, I want to change, I want to step into high school again, but this time, leave the past right where it belongs and start new. Let go of inhibitions, and just go for everything. This summer, I want to make memories, I want to do insane things, I want to live life each day at a time. Last summer, I probably had the worse summer of my life. This year I started high school, and allowed the memories to haunt my year. This year, I want it to be different. I want to reinvent myself, I'm tired of being who everyone wants me to be, this year, I'm going to be me. I'm going to take the past for what it's worth, and allow it do disintegrate from my life. I will move on, I will find love, I will try harder.

Today, I was sitting in summer school realizing this world is filled with tens of billions of people. Not just the select group I surround myself with. There are so many different groups; there are so many things I can do with my life. There isn't just this crappy town; there aren't these lame people. I want to be someone that my mom will be proud of, not just another average person with an average house in an average neighbourhood. I want to do something extraordinary.

This summer/year I want to:

-Get good marks like I used to.
-Join at least three clubs/teams at my school.
-Dye my hair dark brown.
-Start actually taking care of my skin.
-Let go of the past, and build on the future.
-Learn how to do a cartwheel.
-Actually get some air on my wakeboard.
-Stop biting my nails.
-Start actually communicating my feelings, rather than acting like nothing's wrong all the time.
-Get a job, and start learning to provide for myself.
-Stop taking things for granted, and start realizing I can't always get what I want.
-Stop being so forgiving when people don't deserve it.
-Start getting healthy, and give up junk food.
-Fall crazily in love, note how I said love, not lust.
-Get my bellybutton re-pierced/let the old piercings grow in.
-Earn back Mom's respect and trust, thereby stop lying and start actually listening.

This summer, will be different. This year will be the mark in my life that reminds me just who I am, just who I've always wanted to be, and just who I will be. I see something different in this year, I see it just might be something very different. I'll be sixteen, one year older, one year wiser, a totally new person. I will not break any promises, I will do everything I can to be a better person.

Posted on July 9th, 2008 at 05:21pm


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