happy..?
with everything that been going on recently, i've kept my heart guarded.
i don't fall for guys as fast anymore.
i try not to fall at all.
but this time, its really hard not to...
i met ryan online. ironic because i got on myyearbook.com to see why austin liked the internet girls more than me and i ended up meeting ryan. but unlike austin's girls, ryan lives near me, 15 minutes away in the town next to mine.
but i wasn't really thinking of dating him or anything like that. i just added him cause i thought he was hot..lol. but we started talking. and he turned out to be this really really sweet guy. but i thought it was too good to be true. i added someone, on the internet, because i thought he was attractive and it turns out he is sweet and likes talking to me? too good to be true, lol. but it hasn't been. we've been talking for a few weeks, without mention of meeting up. which seemed to me like he didn't really want to be more than a friend to chat with. which was fine because hes just a person i met on the internet.
but yesterday i was bored, and he was bored. so i jokingly said he should come hang out with me. and he actually did. at 11:00 at night he came to the city where i live to hang out with me. and we had so much fun =] we talked a lot and watched a scary movie. it was really awesome. of course the little thoughts about maybe liking him turned into real feelings. he was right there in front of me. it was ok to like him. but was it? he hugged me goodbye. a simple hug...but still...
today. we're talking again. bored. but then we start talking about last night. and we both agree that it needs to happen again. so of course i'm pretty happy. thinking maybe he does like me after all...maybe i could let my guard down just a bit and start liking him a bit more. its 10:30 at night this time. and he tells me to pick another time to hang out. and i say he should pick since hes the one who has to drive all the way from where he lives and he has an actual job. i've noticed hes not great at making decisions. but then he says he wants to come see me tonight! i thought he had to be kidding...it was late again...this time he wanted to watch 2 movies...so he actually comes over. we watch two movies...i get a hug hello and a hug goodbye this time...and of course lots of smiles in between.
so now i'm thinking, could this be happening? could he actually like me? i mean he did drive here for two nights in a row just for me...and if he does like me...he's doing everything right.
i'm not used to guys who take things slow. and hopefully that whats happening with us. because i'm savoring every minute of this. the slower the better, really. i just want to be happy again. and i've found out that quick physical relationships don't cut it. it be amazing if i actually found a guy who would treat me right, do things right.
its amazing that it all started with the internet and has become much more.
i hope it goes even further, i hope he wants to be with me...
but is it all just too good to be true?
i don't fall for guys as fast anymore.
i try not to fall at all.
but this time, its really hard not to...
i met ryan online. ironic because i got on myyearbook.com to see why austin liked the internet girls more than me and i ended up meeting ryan. but unlike austin's girls, ryan lives near me, 15 minutes away in the town next to mine.
but i wasn't really thinking of dating him or anything like that. i just added him cause i thought he was hot..lol. but we started talking. and he turned out to be this really really sweet guy. but i thought it was too good to be true. i added someone, on the internet, because i thought he was attractive and it turns out he is sweet and likes talking to me? too good to be true, lol. but it hasn't been. we've been talking for a few weeks, without mention of meeting up. which seemed to me like he didn't really want to be more than a friend to chat with. which was fine because hes just a person i met on the internet.
but yesterday i was bored, and he was bored. so i jokingly said he should come hang out with me. and he actually did. at 11:00 at night he came to the city where i live to hang out with me. and we had so much fun =] we talked a lot and watched a scary movie. it was really awesome. of course the little thoughts about maybe liking him turned into real feelings. he was right there in front of me. it was ok to like him. but was it? he hugged me goodbye. a simple hug...but still...
today. we're talking again. bored. but then we start talking about last night. and we both agree that it needs to happen again. so of course i'm pretty happy. thinking maybe he does like me after all...maybe i could let my guard down just a bit and start liking him a bit more. its 10:30 at night this time. and he tells me to pick another time to hang out. and i say he should pick since hes the one who has to drive all the way from where he lives and he has an actual job. i've noticed hes not great at making decisions. but then he says he wants to come see me tonight! i thought he had to be kidding...it was late again...this time he wanted to watch 2 movies...so he actually comes over. we watch two movies...i get a hug hello and a hug goodbye this time...and of course lots of smiles in between.
so now i'm thinking, could this be happening? could he actually like me? i mean he did drive here for two nights in a row just for me...and if he does like me...he's doing everything right.
i'm not used to guys who take things slow. and hopefully that whats happening with us. because i'm savoring every minute of this. the slower the better, really. i just want to be happy again. and i've found out that quick physical relationships don't cut it. it be amazing if i actually found a guy who would treat me right, do things right.
its amazing that it all started with the internet and has become much more.
i hope it goes even further, i hope he wants to be with me...
but is it all just too good to be true?
this is the same guy as my bleeding love blog.
i haven't really liked anyone since stupid austin like a month ago.
suburban.zombie, October 15th, 2008 at 06:03:46pm
woah you seem to jump fast from one guy to another xD
remember to be careful, other than that, good luck =)
Love, October 15th, 2008 at 12:34:08pm
i'm not too worried about ryan turning out to be fake.
my ex room mate is good friends with his sister. she told me he was a nice guy before i met him and everything.
but i'm not expecting much. that way i won't be disappointed if things don't go well and i'll be pleasantly surprised if things turn out good. =]
suburban.zombie, October 13th, 2008 at 08:42:39pm
guys on the internet are totally fake.
the act all sweet & then you meet them & they're d*ckheads.
it's happened a few times to me before.
toybox trash, October 13th, 2008 at 04:10:47pm
I'd just go along and see how things happen, but don't assume anything too quickly. He seems like a really nice guy but you can never be sure, sorry to say. Just enjoy every time you're together and hope for the best. I hope everything turns out the way you want it. :]
In My Insanity, October 13th, 2008 at 08:56:05am