Bitch you read my profile!
Those were my exact words today. I found out that my best friend, Flynn, read my INO profile, and she knew for three days!
See, what I did was I joined INO, and then I put stuff about myself on my profile. Well, I forgot that I did that and told my friend to look at my profile. But then as soon as I remembered, I Told her, "WAIT DON'T!" I actually put something on there that said, "but don't tell my bff - she's weird about these kinds of things". I decided to try reverse reverse psychology. The thing with her is, if you make her think that she doesn't want to know something, she'll decide not to ever hear it or go anywhere that she may find out.
So, I urged her to read my profile, knowing that she wouldn't want to if I did that. But then I guess her curiosity got the better of her, because about three days ago she read my profile. Then she told me about it today.
It's not like I don't want anyone to know, it's just that it never came up. Still, I don't want anyone knowing anything about me. I really don't trust people, to the extent of when you know my name, you're on the verge of knowing way too much.
Well, one day we were talking on the phone (big surprise there *sarcasm intended*) and we started talking about my idols and her idols and whatnot. Well, I told her, "Hey, you know what I just realized? About 4 or 5 of my 9 idols are bi!" and she told me "Don't follow their lead" or something like that, to which I paused and responded "No Comment" and she said, "Oh, come on! At least could you lie to me if you are?" and I said no comment again, and that was that.
That's why I didn't want to tell her. So Flynn, if you're reading this, that's why.
Today at lunch, well actually "outside time" cuz we're too old for recess, I asked her what I had in common with any of the members of MCR. She said that I had the most in common with Mikey, Frankie, and Gerard. I asked if there were something that all four of us had in common, and she looked at Kilyssa (who was standing there the whole time) and said, "Go over there." So Kilyssa backed up a bit, and Flynn said, "No, farther! Way over there!" And I said, "Go talk to people over there that's not us for a while." So Kilyssa walked away, and Flynn looked at me and said, "Well, they're all bi." And I gave her this "What-the-fuck-did-you-just-say?" look, and she said, "Yeah, I know your secret." I told her that it's not really a secret, just something that nobody really knows, and she said whatever.
Well, there's a lot of stuff I left out, but I just wrote down the gist of it, pretty much.
Then, during 8th period when she was at art class and I was in chorus, I went to the bathroom and knocked on the window and waved and she came out and we went to the bathroom cuz that's where people go at my school, we don't really question it.
So she said something about how the unsanitary bathrooms disturbed her or something, and I said that her not telling me that she read my profile disturbed me, and she said that she forgot cuz she was sick and her mom kept waking her up at 3 am to tell her to clean her room and whatnot. Then she said "It doesn't change what I think about you. You're still the same goofball you were when I met you 5 years ago. Or wait, sorry, maybe it was six. I don't know, I'm not good with math." and I told her. "No, dip shit, it was 24!" and she said something that I didn't know what it was.
I'm actually shocked that she doesn't care, tbh. Like, all the stuff she's said in the past, and the fact that she's Catholic and they taught her stuff about if you like anyone of the opposite gender at all, you're a terrible person and whatnot.
Still, as much as I don't care what other people think, I'd never tell my parents. My mom specifically said that if I ever liked girls she'd "beat the gay out of me" and that quuote: "I can respect gays and lesbians, but not bisexual people. I mean, come on! Just pick a team!"
So, whatever. Thanks for reading this and whatnot. (lol, I said whatnot a lot. I love that word! Whatnot whatnot whatnot!) You didn't have to. I jsut put stuff where people I don't know can read it a lot. It's weird, I trust people I don't know more than people I do know. But thanks for reading anyways.
See, what I did was I joined INO, and then I put stuff about myself on my profile. Well, I forgot that I did that and told my friend to look at my profile. But then as soon as I remembered, I Told her, "WAIT DON'T!" I actually put something on there that said, "but don't tell my bff - she's weird about these kinds of things". I decided to try reverse reverse psychology. The thing with her is, if you make her think that she doesn't want to know something, she'll decide not to ever hear it or go anywhere that she may find out.
So, I urged her to read my profile, knowing that she wouldn't want to if I did that. But then I guess her curiosity got the better of her, because about three days ago she read my profile. Then she told me about it today.
It's not like I don't want anyone to know, it's just that it never came up. Still, I don't want anyone knowing anything about me. I really don't trust people, to the extent of when you know my name, you're on the verge of knowing way too much.
Well, one day we were talking on the phone (big surprise there *sarcasm intended*) and we started talking about my idols and her idols and whatnot. Well, I told her, "Hey, you know what I just realized? About 4 or 5 of my 9 idols are bi!" and she told me "Don't follow their lead" or something like that, to which I paused and responded "No Comment" and she said, "Oh, come on! At least could you lie to me if you are?" and I said no comment again, and that was that.
That's why I didn't want to tell her. So Flynn, if you're reading this, that's why.
Today at lunch, well actually "outside time" cuz we're too old for recess, I asked her what I had in common with any of the members of MCR. She said that I had the most in common with Mikey, Frankie, and Gerard. I asked if there were something that all four of us had in common, and she looked at Kilyssa (who was standing there the whole time) and said, "Go over there." So Kilyssa backed up a bit, and Flynn said, "No, farther! Way over there!" And I said, "Go talk to people over there that's not us for a while." So Kilyssa walked away, and Flynn looked at me and said, "Well, they're all bi." And I gave her this "What-the-fuck-did-you-just-say?" look, and she said, "Yeah, I know your secret." I told her that it's not really a secret, just something that nobody really knows, and she said whatever.
Well, there's a lot of stuff I left out, but I just wrote down the gist of it, pretty much.
Then, during 8th period when she was at art class and I was in chorus, I went to the bathroom and knocked on the window and waved and she came out and we went to the bathroom cuz that's where people go at my school, we don't really question it.
So she said something about how the unsanitary bathrooms disturbed her or something, and I said that her not telling me that she read my profile disturbed me, and she said that she forgot cuz she was sick and her mom kept waking her up at 3 am to tell her to clean her room and whatnot. Then she said "It doesn't change what I think about you. You're still the same goofball you were when I met you 5 years ago. Or wait, sorry, maybe it was six. I don't know, I'm not good with math." and I told her. "No, dip shit, it was 24!" and she said something that I didn't know what it was.
I'm actually shocked that she doesn't care, tbh. Like, all the stuff she's said in the past, and the fact that she's Catholic and they taught her stuff about if you like anyone of the opposite gender at all, you're a terrible person and whatnot.
Still, as much as I don't care what other people think, I'd never tell my parents. My mom specifically said that if I ever liked girls she'd "beat the gay out of me" and that quuote: "I can respect gays and lesbians, but not bisexual people. I mean, come on! Just pick a team!"
So, whatever. Thanks for reading this and whatnot. (lol, I said whatnot a lot. I love that word! Whatnot whatnot whatnot!) You didn't have to. I jsut put stuff where people I don't know can read it a lot. It's weird, I trust people I don't know more than people I do know. But thanks for reading anyways.
My mum thinks bi people are greedy...
I think they're awsome.
padfoot, December 11th, 2008 at 12:58:31pm
hey! my mum hates the 'undecideds' as well!
=] but its cool your friend doesn't mind, yeah.
banquo, November 8th, 2008 at 04:10:10am
OMFG
WE HAVE ANOTHER f*ckING THING IN COMMON.
what a suprise.
Spider Billie, November 6th, 2008 at 07:42:55pm
I remember when I came out as bi to my best friend.
She was like "I know you're bi, if you're straight, you're doing a good job at hiding it"
IDK I think it's easier if people are so open about it
Joshua Gayward., November 4th, 2008 at 12:19:30pm
Still, I don't want anyone knowing anything about me.
It's not very clever to write things about yourself on the internet that you don't want anyone to know. You may think not telling anyone you have an account on this or that site would help you hide it, but it won't. It's possible to track 99.9 % (if not more ;D) of people's activity on the internet.
Lissie!, November 4th, 2008 at 07:46:25am
She may be Catholic and raised with certain beliefs, like homosexuality and bisexuality are bad, but the reality is she has just been confronted by it in the form of a person she cares about and her own self-developed value system might not be as rigid as her faith dictates. I think that you are very lucky that she has reacted the way she has and is accepting of your orientation. It's nice to know not all 'churchies' are so unaccepting.
Grandma, November 4th, 2008 at 02:06:34am
ahahahaha yes, i never tell my real life friends i have GSB cuz they know what my username would be and they would look for me and find things they wouldn't know bout me that's i'd rather not tell 'em.
icegirl., November 4th, 2008 at 01:29:54am