left breathless...
this is sudden.
and i think that is what makes it even more amazing.
on monday i got to know this incredibly amazing guy. we started talking and couldn't stop until the next day..literally...and it was well into the next day.
his name is twitch, well really chris. everyone calls him twitch because he is kind of fidgety..lol.
he is a senior at my university. i think hes 21. like ryan. but the maturity level is WAY different.
he is best friends with my good friend eric. but he is a commuter so he doesn't really hang out in our group that often. well really never. he lives 25 minutes away. but for some reason he ended up at UU at 11 o clock. and i just happened to be around. and we just happened to play magic together...and we ended up staying up together allll night. literally. we fell asleep around 7 or 8...it was absolutely amazing. the funny thing is, we did the exact same thing tuesday night.
he is incredible. a true gentleman, won't even walk through a door before a woman, holds the door open. he is sweet. and extremely intelligent, he was valedictorian in high school even. and he talks soo much. which is such a relief from the silence i always shared with ryan...chris is very funny. he makes me truly laugh, not polite or fake laughter, real laughter, real smiles. he gives me this feeling that i haven't felt before, a great happiness and connection when i am with him. we both agree that we like each other. and we've kissed a few times...now i'm just waiting till he can take me on a few dates...and hopefully i'll soon be calling him my boyfriend. he is perfect. except for one flaw, at least in my parent's eyes. one MAJOR downfall, one major complication.
he was married. and he has a two year old son.
he is divorced now, his exwife cheated on him. she is pregnant, and it might be his but since she was cheating he is almost certain it is not his. he is very responsible. he has two jobs AND goes to school full time. he works for walmart distributing, i think. and he is also a youth pastor for his church, something i greatly admire.
if i get serious with him, things will be tough. i'll have to grow up quite a bit. i'm only 18 and i'm not so sure if i am ready to deal with his ex wife and his son. but i know i'll have to, its unavoidable. he loves his son, i can tell that much. and his ex wife goes to school here...she is going to find out about it and hate me...but i think chris is worth it. my parents are upset because they are afraid that it will be bad since he has already been married and has a kid, if we get to that point it won't be new or exciting. but i don't care right now. how can i pass this up? how can i ignore the fact that me and chris are getting along so well, how can i ignore the fact that i adore him, how can i ignore the fact that i think i might like him better than my ex boyfriend who i dated for two years...
a person like chris is straight out of a book or a movie. hes perfect. i don't want to give him up. he treats me so good. i am excited for the future and hoping so very much that we will be dating soon. he is truly amazing. i could care less if this isn't new for him. just because the situation won't be new doesn't mean the feeling won't be. he already told me that i am one of only three girls who has ever understood him and understood all of his jokes and stuff. he is very different than all the other guys i know. i can't stop thinking about him.
i'm known to be boy crazy. and i over react and often jump the gun and get my hopes up. i'm hoping that thats not what is going on here. it doesn't feel like it. it feels much more serious. the feeling i get when i am with him is indescribable. this is different, i know. its moved so very fast but it all feels right for once. dangerous and reckless, but somehow right. when i'm with him i feel right. i feel like eventually i'll be able to be myself. i'll be able to talk and not feel bad. chris and i are alike but different enough for things to be interesting. i hope very soon i'll be writing a blog telling about how chris and i are dating...but nothing is ever certain. i just know that so far he has been good for me. and i am for once happy and hopeful.
i just hope it doesn't end in heartbreak.
and i think that is what makes it even more amazing.
on monday i got to know this incredibly amazing guy. we started talking and couldn't stop until the next day..literally...and it was well into the next day.
his name is twitch, well really chris. everyone calls him twitch because he is kind of fidgety..lol.
he is a senior at my university. i think hes 21. like ryan. but the maturity level is WAY different.
he is best friends with my good friend eric. but he is a commuter so he doesn't really hang out in our group that often. well really never. he lives 25 minutes away. but for some reason he ended up at UU at 11 o clock. and i just happened to be around. and we just happened to play magic together...and we ended up staying up together allll night. literally. we fell asleep around 7 or 8...it was absolutely amazing. the funny thing is, we did the exact same thing tuesday night.
he is incredible. a true gentleman, won't even walk through a door before a woman, holds the door open. he is sweet. and extremely intelligent, he was valedictorian in high school even. and he talks soo much. which is such a relief from the silence i always shared with ryan...chris is very funny. he makes me truly laugh, not polite or fake laughter, real laughter, real smiles. he gives me this feeling that i haven't felt before, a great happiness and connection when i am with him. we both agree that we like each other. and we've kissed a few times...now i'm just waiting till he can take me on a few dates...and hopefully i'll soon be calling him my boyfriend. he is perfect. except for one flaw, at least in my parent's eyes. one MAJOR downfall, one major complication.
he was married. and he has a two year old son.
he is divorced now, his exwife cheated on him. she is pregnant, and it might be his but since she was cheating he is almost certain it is not his. he is very responsible. he has two jobs AND goes to school full time. he works for walmart distributing, i think. and he is also a youth pastor for his church, something i greatly admire.
if i get serious with him, things will be tough. i'll have to grow up quite a bit. i'm only 18 and i'm not so sure if i am ready to deal with his ex wife and his son. but i know i'll have to, its unavoidable. he loves his son, i can tell that much. and his ex wife goes to school here...she is going to find out about it and hate me...but i think chris is worth it. my parents are upset because they are afraid that it will be bad since he has already been married and has a kid, if we get to that point it won't be new or exciting. but i don't care right now. how can i pass this up? how can i ignore the fact that me and chris are getting along so well, how can i ignore the fact that i adore him, how can i ignore the fact that i think i might like him better than my ex boyfriend who i dated for two years...
a person like chris is straight out of a book or a movie. hes perfect. i don't want to give him up. he treats me so good. i am excited for the future and hoping so very much that we will be dating soon. he is truly amazing. i could care less if this isn't new for him. just because the situation won't be new doesn't mean the feeling won't be. he already told me that i am one of only three girls who has ever understood him and understood all of his jokes and stuff. he is very different than all the other guys i know. i can't stop thinking about him.
i'm known to be boy crazy. and i over react and often jump the gun and get my hopes up. i'm hoping that thats not what is going on here. it doesn't feel like it. it feels much more serious. the feeling i get when i am with him is indescribable. this is different, i know. its moved so very fast but it all feels right for once. dangerous and reckless, but somehow right. when i'm with him i feel right. i feel like eventually i'll be able to be myself. i'll be able to talk and not feel bad. chris and i are alike but different enough for things to be interesting. i hope very soon i'll be writing a blog telling about how chris and i are dating...but nothing is ever certain. i just know that so far he has been good for me. and i am for once happy and hopeful.
i just hope it doesn't end in heartbreak.
i wish i had someone to... no
i wish i had someone that felt that way about me... *sniffle*
17 and never dated... depresing
fruit_baskets, December 18th, 2008 at 11:13:07am
i hope not =]
i think chris is awesome. i think it will be ok. the more i think about it the more i think it will work out. its a good sign that we get along so well already =]
suburban.zombie, November 15th, 2008 at 04:19:31pm
I have a friend. Hes 22, hes been married and divorced, and he also has a 2 year old son. He turned out okay. I'm not an expert, but there may be nothing to fear.
Blarg!, November 15th, 2008 at 10:34:54am