Chris.
Chris
When I think about Chris i think about these things:
- His nickname is Twitch because he is constantly twitching. He can't sit still, he is always moving. He can't even lie still.
- His hair is black...and for some reason surprisingly soft.
- He never stops talking. Even at 4 in the morning when we are both tired and when we both have class in the morning. He continues talking, mumbling, to me or even to himself. He even started talking in the middle of making out with me, lol. He has almost too much energy, the way he never shuts up closely relates to his constant movement.
- He gives me butterflies in my stomach
- His clothes were originally expensive but now worn out. Like his sweatshirt from Aeropostle that has three little holes in it.
- He is insanely smart. And quite conceited when it comes to that. If he is not lying, he has an astonishing IQ of 158. I believe him 100% when he tells me he was valedictorian of his high school. He is like me when it comes to dating people- he wants someone who is intelligent. Luckily, I am. That is one thing I am also conceited about. But he has more of a reason to be, I am only conceited because I can effortlessly get B's, without studying for one second. And I can effortlessly write a paper in an hour or so that will earn me an A. His cockiness about his intelligence does not bother me. Cockiness of anything else would.
- I'm head over heels falling for him. And it scare the shit out of me.
- Although his life could easily be called difficult, even a mess, he seems to pull it off effortlessly. He has two jobs, lives on his own, and takes care of his son every other week. And is honest and upfront about the fact that dating him will not be easy. But he is also honest when he tells me he will treat me right, he is good at dating. I am not worried, but excited. Looking forward to how this story will play out.
- He is cute. In all ways.
- Even though he has his life together and is adult about everything, he still has time to be a kid every once in awhile. He plays Magic the Gathering (nerdy, I know, but I play too...so not so nerdy...lol). And he has even played Pokemon with me. lol.
- He is religious. Very religious. Normally, this would bug me to death. But for some reason I find this comforting, safe, good for me. I need some stabilization, some faith, something Storm never had.
- He didn't sign his name after using his card at Walmart. Instead, he signed something along the lines of "Jesus Saves". Which is funny. But he means it. Which is admirable.
I know that this might not make sense. But to me it does. These are the little things that make me want him in my life so much. The little things that are telling me he might be someone I can love. I am fearless even though there is so much to fear about this. With him I feel incredibly safe, which scares me. I know better than to trust boys...but Chris is a man, not a boy. And I finding myself more and more prepared to fall hard, maybe even fall in love again...
When I think about Chris i think about these things:
- His nickname is Twitch because he is constantly twitching. He can't sit still, he is always moving. He can't even lie still.
- His hair is black...and for some reason surprisingly soft.
- He never stops talking. Even at 4 in the morning when we are both tired and when we both have class in the morning. He continues talking, mumbling, to me or even to himself. He even started talking in the middle of making out with me, lol. He has almost too much energy, the way he never shuts up closely relates to his constant movement.
- He gives me butterflies in my stomach
- His clothes were originally expensive but now worn out. Like his sweatshirt from Aeropostle that has three little holes in it.
- He is insanely smart. And quite conceited when it comes to that. If he is not lying, he has an astonishing IQ of 158. I believe him 100% when he tells me he was valedictorian of his high school. He is like me when it comes to dating people- he wants someone who is intelligent. Luckily, I am. That is one thing I am also conceited about. But he has more of a reason to be, I am only conceited because I can effortlessly get B's, without studying for one second. And I can effortlessly write a paper in an hour or so that will earn me an A. His cockiness about his intelligence does not bother me. Cockiness of anything else would.
- I'm head over heels falling for him. And it scare the shit out of me.
- Although his life could easily be called difficult, even a mess, he seems to pull it off effortlessly. He has two jobs, lives on his own, and takes care of his son every other week. And is honest and upfront about the fact that dating him will not be easy. But he is also honest when he tells me he will treat me right, he is good at dating. I am not worried, but excited. Looking forward to how this story will play out.
- He is cute. In all ways.
- Even though he has his life together and is adult about everything, he still has time to be a kid every once in awhile. He plays Magic the Gathering (nerdy, I know, but I play too...so not so nerdy...lol). And he has even played Pokemon with me. lol.
- He is religious. Very religious. Normally, this would bug me to death. But for some reason I find this comforting, safe, good for me. I need some stabilization, some faith, something Storm never had.
- He didn't sign his name after using his card at Walmart. Instead, he signed something along the lines of "Jesus Saves". Which is funny. But he means it. Which is admirable.
I know that this might not make sense. But to me it does. These are the little things that make me want him in my life so much. The little things that are telling me he might be someone I can love. I am fearless even though there is so much to fear about this. With him I feel incredibly safe, which scares me. I know better than to trust boys...but Chris is a man, not a boy. And I finding myself more and more prepared to fall hard, maybe even fall in love again...
aw (:
toybox trash, November 18th, 2008 at 11:19:51am