gooey lovey crap..lol.
Chris =]
Chris called me. I was so happy to hear his voice...the week is sooo long. I only see him Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday...so when he called i was happy. He was tired, and he sounded like it. Its funny though cause he isn't quiet when he's tired, he's still his normal talkative self...he just talks in a weirder voice and rambles on about stupid things. lol. but he didn't really talk about stupid things. we talked about going home. how my room is trashed cause my parents and brother destroyed it when the switched my room with my brothers. and how he doesn't even have a room anymore cause his room belongs to his niece. then when i said i was mad about my room being destroyed he said not to be mad at my family because they are the best thing in the world. sometimes i feel really dumb around him cause i'll be complaining or saying something stupid that my friends would complain about with me...but he's more adult, he sees through it and sees whats right...and that kinda scares me, i'm afraid i'm not smart enough for him. but then again...hes so nice...when we play magic i make mistakes a lot and he just says thats ok, you'll know better next time. =]
i want to be with him more than anything. something is drawing me to him, i can't help it, can't stop thinking of him. i want him so bad. i barely know him but i feel like we are meant to be. i know i sound completely insane right now, but these feelings are so real feeling! i feel like i did when i was with storm but even better! Chris makes me smile, his voice, his face, his hands, his words, how freaking smart he is...he is so perfect...so i ask God...Do i deserve him? Do i deserve to be happy?..Do i deserve Chris, someone who follows you and has more faith in you than most people?
i never felt this way. i never felt like i needed to bring God into a stupid relationship that isn't even started yet. well its not official, at least. but i feel like i need everything, i want to put EVERYTHING into this. i want to put my heart, soul, faith, everything into making things work with Chris, i want him so bad, he can make me happy again, i know he can....
so please God, please let this work for me, for Chris. we are both sad, we are both hurt from our past relationships. we both area wary and think this has a good chance at failing...but let us prove that wrong, help us to prove that wrong. Don't you see, we both need happiness, and i think we could give it to each other. If i have Chris, i think everything else will just fall neatly into place. Thank you God for bringing him to me, now please keep him here...
Chris called me. I was so happy to hear his voice...the week is sooo long. I only see him Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday...so when he called i was happy. He was tired, and he sounded like it. Its funny though cause he isn't quiet when he's tired, he's still his normal talkative self...he just talks in a weirder voice and rambles on about stupid things. lol. but he didn't really talk about stupid things. we talked about going home. how my room is trashed cause my parents and brother destroyed it when the switched my room with my brothers. and how he doesn't even have a room anymore cause his room belongs to his niece. then when i said i was mad about my room being destroyed he said not to be mad at my family because they are the best thing in the world. sometimes i feel really dumb around him cause i'll be complaining or saying something stupid that my friends would complain about with me...but he's more adult, he sees through it and sees whats right...and that kinda scares me, i'm afraid i'm not smart enough for him. but then again...hes so nice...when we play magic i make mistakes a lot and he just says thats ok, you'll know better next time. =]
i want to be with him more than anything. something is drawing me to him, i can't help it, can't stop thinking of him. i want him so bad. i barely know him but i feel like we are meant to be. i know i sound completely insane right now, but these feelings are so real feeling! i feel like i did when i was with storm but even better! Chris makes me smile, his voice, his face, his hands, his words, how freaking smart he is...he is so perfect...so i ask God...Do i deserve him? Do i deserve to be happy?..Do i deserve Chris, someone who follows you and has more faith in you than most people?
i never felt this way. i never felt like i needed to bring God into a stupid relationship that isn't even started yet. well its not official, at least. but i feel like i need everything, i want to put EVERYTHING into this. i want to put my heart, soul, faith, everything into making things work with Chris, i want him so bad, he can make me happy again, i know he can....
so please God, please let this work for me, for Chris. we are both sad, we are both hurt from our past relationships. we both area wary and think this has a good chance at failing...but let us prove that wrong, help us to prove that wrong. Don't you see, we both need happiness, and i think we could give it to each other. If i have Chris, i think everything else will just fall neatly into place. Thank you God for bringing him to me, now please keep him here...
