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we laughed hysterically because he was about to shuffle two decks of cards together. i forget what he said, but we kept laughing and repeating it, even when stupid dallas kept trying to tell chris something we kept bursting into laughter, making dallas so angry.
a random memory, one of the best i have had with him...it was one of those laughs that made you feel sooo good, one of those TRUE laughs. it was beautiful because we were laughing for no reason, just something that both of us found hilarious that no one else would understand...
i've had lots of fun or sweet moments with Chris. i love kissing him..talking to him...laying in his arms with my head on his chest...waking up to a kiss.
but those are moments that are in most relationships and produce the same feeling. this one stupid, childish moment, the card shuffling...well it was different. it was at that moment i decided, i really want to be with him. he is so different than anyone else. because who else would say something stupid that would make me laugh like that? and here we are, an 18 year old and a 21 year old, both college students, both adults, laughing hysterically cause of something stupid. the best part was dallas and dorian didn't get it. only us. and theres been times when someone i like says something stupid so i laugh, you know like flirting..but this wasn't it, truly understood the comedy in whatever it was that was funny. the only reason i don't remember what he said was cause it was 5 in the morning and he hadn't slept for more than an hour in the past two days...but it wasn't something that was actually funny, it was something that only the two of us understood just for that moment, together...
i want him so bad it hurts. i'm afraid next time i see him will be over a month from now. i can't do that, i'm going to die...
a random memory, one of the best i have had with him...it was one of those laughs that made you feel sooo good, one of those TRUE laughs. it was beautiful because we were laughing for no reason, just something that both of us found hilarious that no one else would understand...
i've had lots of fun or sweet moments with Chris. i love kissing him..talking to him...laying in his arms with my head on his chest...waking up to a kiss.
but those are moments that are in most relationships and produce the same feeling. this one stupid, childish moment, the card shuffling...well it was different. it was at that moment i decided, i really want to be with him. he is so different than anyone else. because who else would say something stupid that would make me laugh like that? and here we are, an 18 year old and a 21 year old, both college students, both adults, laughing hysterically cause of something stupid. the best part was dallas and dorian didn't get it. only us. and theres been times when someone i like says something stupid so i laugh, you know like flirting..but this wasn't it, truly understood the comedy in whatever it was that was funny. the only reason i don't remember what he said was cause it was 5 in the morning and he hadn't slept for more than an hour in the past two days...but it wasn't something that was actually funny, it was something that only the two of us understood just for that moment, together...
i want him so bad it hurts. i'm afraid next time i see him will be over a month from now. i can't do that, i'm going to die...
