I'm all choked up and you're okay.
You told me it was all a mistake, that your feelings were always true but the words did not match. Everything you said is carved in my mind an I replay them night after night. The pain becomes unbearable and now i'm barely breathing. All you can do is curse and call, attempt to change but never succeeding.
Pushed down and around by someone so heartless, so uncaring and unaware. I'm falling to pieces and you want to talk. Talk talk talk. As if your words have not been heard before, by another unsuspecting like me. I'd have crossed my heart and hoped to die if you'd asked but never did you care for my freedom, for my feelings or for my thoughts. It was all you all over.
If there's one thing I've learned, its not to trust. You've taught me to be weary and scared and insecure. You've taught me no matter what people say there is always an underlying current: a current waiting to drag you down into an endless spiral of guilt and shame.
Next time I'll save myself the hurt. I'll walk away before trust becomes an issue, I'll cry before the words have been said and I'll pretend that all is well. I'll fake a smile better than ever and you'll never know the pain you've caused.
Congratulations, you're bettter than ever and i can't keep from being all choked up and trying to figure out where it all went wrong.
I wrote this while listening to Heartless by Kanye West, Break Even by The Script, Cross my Heart by the Rocket Summer and Run by Snow Patrol.
Pushed down and around by someone so heartless, so uncaring and unaware. I'm falling to pieces and you want to talk. Talk talk talk. As if your words have not been heard before, by another unsuspecting like me. I'd have crossed my heart and hoped to die if you'd asked but never did you care for my freedom, for my feelings or for my thoughts. It was all you all over.
If there's one thing I've learned, its not to trust. You've taught me to be weary and scared and insecure. You've taught me no matter what people say there is always an underlying current: a current waiting to drag you down into an endless spiral of guilt and shame.
Next time I'll save myself the hurt. I'll walk away before trust becomes an issue, I'll cry before the words have been said and I'll pretend that all is well. I'll fake a smile better than ever and you'll never know the pain you've caused.
Congratulations, you're bettter than ever and i can't keep from being all choked up and trying to figure out where it all went wrong.
I wrote this while listening to Heartless by Kanye West, Break Even by The Script, Cross my Heart by the Rocket Summer and Run by Snow Patrol.
is this he who shall not be named?
as much as it doesnt help the situation, the way you wrote this was astounding
i know your feelings are real and raw
but still you make the reader empathise so much
and remember he wasnt worth it
and it'l be a crying shame you change yourself for the worse because of one person
when there's a million and one other people out there
waiting to show you the right way
the way to trust, to believe in yourself, and show you how wonderful a person you are
i love you sarah you cant contain it in words, and im sure alot of other people out there love me as much as I if not more.
so dont give up hope, for our sakes if not your own.
"Tried to take a picture of her
didnt think I'd miss her that much.
I want to fill this new frame
but its empty with out you."
paper heart., December 14th, 2008 at 01:27:37pm
this is beautiful.
Lissie!, December 14th, 2008 at 10:50:08am
:/
I can relate to this so much.
it's beautiful in my eyes.
I love it<3
ily sarah.
*hugs*
hollywood tragedy., December 14th, 2008 at 10:33:39am