I don't know what to do anymore.
I just feel horrible, like I can't win. I'm not sure if it was my birth control or not, it can cause mood swings. so I've stopped taking it.
I just feel miserable. I can't stay in a good mood for more than like 30 minutes TOPS. If I'm lucky. I just always want to cry or yell. I can't talk to anyone either, cause I feel like its my job to take care of them. I shouldn't dump problems on anyone either.
And this is so making me a hypocrite, cause its dumping problems on you guys.
I just don't know what to do any more....suddenly if someone says something that annoys me I'll get extremely ticked off and yell.
The other night I tossed my binder because I was mad. SO I got in trouble.
I'm almost scared to talk to people at this point, that they'll blow up at me or something. I'm just terrified. But I don't want to talk to my school counselor, they just tell me "Don't worry. Be a kid. You worry too much. Things won't get better. Its always gong to be like this, there's nothing you can do.".
I feel like I'm almost hopeless. I just I don't know how much more stuff I can take.
I just feel miserable. I can't stay in a good mood for more than like 30 minutes TOPS. If I'm lucky. I just always want to cry or yell. I can't talk to anyone either, cause I feel like its my job to take care of them. I shouldn't dump problems on anyone either.
And this is so making me a hypocrite, cause its dumping problems on you guys.
I just don't know what to do any more....suddenly if someone says something that annoys me I'll get extremely ticked off and yell.
The other night I tossed my binder because I was mad. SO I got in trouble.
I'm almost scared to talk to people at this point, that they'll blow up at me or something. I'm just terrified. But I don't want to talk to my school counselor, they just tell me "Don't worry. Be a kid. You worry too much. Things won't get better. Its always gong to be like this, there's nothing you can do.".
I feel like I'm almost hopeless. I just I don't know how much more stuff I can take.
I do have a counselor...or at least did. I couldn't open to her. I couldn't tell her things.
I don't know if I can trust anyone to really know is the thing.
Heroin Bob, January 15th, 2009 at 11:35:17am
I had the exact same problem... I still sorta do, but I have to take medicine for it so it's less of a problem. I guess just don't be afraid to cry, because it's not good to hold it in. And try to tell just one person at least; somebody has to know. Somebody that can help you and talk to you and be physically there. You can get through it, I know it.
In My Insanity, January 15th, 2009 at 09:28:50am
I know what you're feeling. I'm like that at the moment to.
maybe get a councillor that isn't in your school and try to talk to them.
You know I'm always here if you need to talk. but no one can help
you if you don't open up. I know how hard that is, trust me.
I have a councillor and I lie to her and limit what I tell her even. I don't talk to any of my friends anything. and i hate it. but please, hang in there. you can get through this just like you've gotten through so much already.
Bubble Wrap., January 14th, 2009 at 11:41:39pm
Yea, people tell me to shut up, that my life is basically perfect...people who don't even KNOW whats going on.
I've been like this for a few years.
Heroin Bob, January 14th, 2009 at 07:01:47pm
..I've been the same way for the passed year ._.
I figure it'll just pass.
and I don't like to talk about it because then people say I'm complaining :)
so I figure I'll keep it all to myself or just write it in some kind of poem.
I honestly don't know what to tell you, sorry :/
hollywood tragedy., January 14th, 2009 at 06:53:21pm