Harmless Little Comments...
"Go fuck yourself."
"Go cut yourself."
"Damn, you're back? I'd hoped you died."
"Why don't you just kill yourself and do the world a favor?"
"Go cry emo kid!"
"Nobody wants you around."
"We all hate you; why are you still here?"
"Why do you have to be alive?"
"You're a waste of fucking space."
"You worthless, ungratefull, good-for-nothing little bitch!"
"It's not like anyone cares about you."
"You can't do anything."
"You're all alone."
"Just do us a favor and die already!"
Those are the things I hear every day. From my family. Mostly from people I don't even know or never even met. Sometimes even from people I once thought were my friends.
They say not to judge a book by its cover. They say to believe none of what you hear and half of what you read. They say that everyone matters.
Apparently I'm the exception.
I've been pushed down the stairs, punched in nearly every place imaginable, kicked, pushed off hte swings, pushed down the slide, pushed out of the bus, spit on, ostracized. I've had so many rumors started about me you'd spend an infinite number of lifetimes counting a fraction of it. I've been shoved out of my seat more times than you've said "the" and called worthless nearly every day of my life.
And when I go to tell someone about it?
"I can't do anything about it."
"It's not my problem."
"Just ignore it."
"It's just a harmless little comment."
"Maybe you shouldn't be so different then."
"Deal with it yourself; I'm busy."
I've only met one adult who's ever really done anything about it, and only one kid who's really cared.
And when I get a higher authority involved on the adults?
"I had no idea this was going on."
"She never told me."
"I had no idea it was happening at this magnetude."
"I thought it was nothing."
"She brought it upon herself."
How did I bring it upon myself if people I've never even met come up to me and abuse me for no reason?
If I try to retaliate I get in trouble. If I stand up for myself I'm the one who gets shit.
What did I do to deserve shit like this?
Ever since I was six years old this has been happening, and it's only gotten worse.
Every year.
Every month.
Every week.
Every day.
Every hour on the hour.
Every. Five. Fucking. Minutes.
I tried ignoring it. I tried involving adults. I tried talking it out. I tried violence and I tried peace. I tried diplomacy and war. I tried courage and fear. I tried stopping it and keeping it going. I tried a truce. I tried giving up in every sense of the word. I tried authorities and legal action. I tried evidence. I tried recordings. I. Tried. EVERYTHING.
I took the class where they tell you what to do when this happens.
Too bad there's no class for when none of that works.
What is a girl supposed to do?
"Go cut yourself."
"Damn, you're back? I'd hoped you died."
"Why don't you just kill yourself and do the world a favor?"
"Go cry emo kid!"
"Nobody wants you around."
"We all hate you; why are you still here?"
"Why do you have to be alive?"
"You're a waste of fucking space."
"You worthless, ungratefull, good-for-nothing little bitch!"
"It's not like anyone cares about you."
"You can't do anything."
"You're all alone."
"Just do us a favor and die already!"
Those are the things I hear every day. From my family. Mostly from people I don't even know or never even met. Sometimes even from people I once thought were my friends.
They say not to judge a book by its cover. They say to believe none of what you hear and half of what you read. They say that everyone matters.
Apparently I'm the exception.
I've been pushed down the stairs, punched in nearly every place imaginable, kicked, pushed off hte swings, pushed down the slide, pushed out of the bus, spit on, ostracized. I've had so many rumors started about me you'd spend an infinite number of lifetimes counting a fraction of it. I've been shoved out of my seat more times than you've said "the" and called worthless nearly every day of my life.
And when I go to tell someone about it?
"I can't do anything about it."
"It's not my problem."
"Just ignore it."
"It's just a harmless little comment."
"Maybe you shouldn't be so different then."
"Deal with it yourself; I'm busy."
I've only met one adult who's ever really done anything about it, and only one kid who's really cared.
And when I get a higher authority involved on the adults?
"I had no idea this was going on."
"She never told me."
"I had no idea it was happening at this magnetude."
"I thought it was nothing."
"She brought it upon herself."
How did I bring it upon myself if people I've never even met come up to me and abuse me for no reason?
If I try to retaliate I get in trouble. If I stand up for myself I'm the one who gets shit.
What did I do to deserve shit like this?
Ever since I was six years old this has been happening, and it's only gotten worse.
Every year.
Every month.
Every week.
Every day.
Every hour on the hour.
Every. Five. Fucking. Minutes.
I tried ignoring it. I tried involving adults. I tried talking it out. I tried violence and I tried peace. I tried diplomacy and war. I tried courage and fear. I tried stopping it and keeping it going. I tried a truce. I tried giving up in every sense of the word. I tried authorities and legal action. I tried evidence. I tried recordings. I. Tried. EVERYTHING.
I took the class where they tell you what to do when this happens.
Too bad there's no class for when none of that works.
What is a girl supposed to do?
I'm sorry you go through that I think your school an my school should get together an go bowling! If you try CPS you'll regret it trust me you will! I just got kicked out of my parents house so the physical abuse stoped an then I had to move in with my ant an the verbal abuse started, then something really bad happen to my friend so I living with her an her mom so it has completly stoped!
If u feel week an have no were to go, go to some friend you trust an if you can't I'm sorry to say I REALLY am but you'll have to go through it, I'm SORRY, But have you tried getting emancipated, its were you divorce your parnts.
Meli!, February 17th, 2009 at 06:02:01pm
I'll be honest with you, I'd probably end up getting in a fight. -_- If people started saying sh*t like that to me, I wouldn't just sit there and take it, and I know that's bad, but that's unacceptable. I'm really sorry you have to go through this every day; it disgusts me. If you ever wanna talk about it, you can PM me or whatevs, maybe I can help somehow.
I'm not saying get into a fight or anything, but maybe stand up for yourself a little. Even if you do get in trouble by teachers or whatever, what are they going to do about it? Start kicking you too? No, cause then you get them fired and fck up their life too.
Your family starts hitting you? Call child services and get the fck out of there. There are ways to get away from this. (: Don't give up.
Hello, My Name Is Asshole, February 11th, 2009 at 05:08:26pm
You're in a public school aren't you ? You don't get that crap in private (:
icegirl., February 11th, 2009 at 01:35:17am
Hmm. Some people are so idiotic that they find fun in hurting people verbally. They wouldn't like it if it happened to them would they? No. They wouldn't. They'd feel the pain.
Let's hope they stop some time, I've had it on a minimal scale. And even that hurts.
padfoot, February 9th, 2009 at 02:55:59pm
I'm really sorry, I get what you mean though. People say things like that without even thinking about how it effects the other person. I really don't know what to say to but I hope they leave you alone and don't let them get to you.
Devils wear Givenchy, February 9th, 2009 at 02:28:23pm
take a gun an shoot them.
don't really!
maybe try swiching schools...?
or something
fruit_baskets, February 9th, 2009 at 11:28:17am
I am soo sorry.
I know what you mean, I went through the same thing. I am not sure what to say... when I had this problem it just went away on its own.
pm if you want to talk.
again sorry. D:
superfly, February 9th, 2009 at 11:27:54am
im so sorry hun, thats happened to me before, though i get called worse names.
like c*nt, and oh my all time favorite.
"why dont you just go jump off a bridge you poor, worthless, unruley, bisexual little hor3. no one cares anymore about your personal pitty party, so go die"
oh that one was oh so much fun
so i totally know where you are coming from, and if you ever need help with anything, you just feel free to Pm me, ill help any way i can.
things'll get better, and people will start to pull their heads out of their asses soon enough to find that you are awesome. they just have to look beyond the cover.
like no one ever does any more, they just sit back and judge, but get pissy when THEY themselves are judged. its totally funny to me.
im here for you though, hun.
Pretty Rave Girl, February 9th, 2009 at 03:40:16am
MMM, maybe don't get defensive, just pretend you love it. Idk, I'd have to be there.
icegirl., February 9th, 2009 at 01:35:07am
I'm very sorry you have to go through this crap from people, especially if they have no clue who you are as a person. Sadly people are arseholes and will put you down to make themselves feel better.
Grandma, February 9th, 2009 at 01:07:36am
I'm so sorry.
I don't know what to say, except that I hope that this will all stop soon, and that someday you'll find somebody that really cares.
In My Insanity, February 8th, 2009 at 10:54:47pm