I really need help with this one...
Ok I know it seems like I'm always trying to get with some new guy...lol. But the last blog wasn't really about wanting the guy. And I think I've been away from Chris long enough to start considering other options...
Well here's an old interest that faded...Ryan.
I have been talking to him more and more and he always leads me on and then IDK whats going on with us ever. Its kind of weird...cause the last time we hung out was a really long time ago...January to be exact. The very beginning. And I was really really drunk...I invited him over when I was drunk...and ended up making out with him. Which has never been part of our relationship, all we do is hang out and watch movies. He's been wanting to hang out again since then and I just keep saying no or canceling plans...I'm nervous to be around him again...We haven't talked about the making out thing except for once. I apologized for it. He's just so awkward about that kind of stuff...and I'm always afraid to talk about it...Idk, its weird. Like I'd talk about that stuff with Chris and it never bothered me. But Ryan is so quiet and stuff...Its so weird. If you go to his Myspace he has tons and tons of girls he talks to but he never dates anyone cause he refuses to ask girls out. So once again I'm sitting here wondering if he likes me or not. Yesterday we were talking about our favorite places to be. I said on roller coasters and in the forest. He listed a bunch of things like on a beach, forest, and the desert (he's been to all of those cause he's been to a lot of places on vacations and such). Then he added "with you" to the list. He sometimes starts conversations with "Hi <3" and randomly puts hearts throughout our conversations. Oh and btw he's 21 but doesn't really act like it...well at least he doesn't act like Chris who's the same age.
Idk. Idk what to do. He's told me he will never ask a girl out no matter what and I can tell cause he never has a girlfriend. He could get girls so easily too, he's gorgeous. There's a billion girls on his profile saying he's cute and hot and all this other stuff. But I know he'll never try to get with them...So what should I do? Once again it is strange, he drives 20 minutes to my dorm to hang out with me any time he can and I want him there. He used to come 2-3 times a week. He says things like he likes hanging out with me and all he ever does is play video games or hang out with me when he's not working. (IDK if I believe that one...he has a lot of good guy friends)...of course he sends me the little heart things...And we kissed. A lot. That night...but I was drunk...the thing is, though, he wasn't drinking. He doesn't drink. I've made out with plenty of people while I was drunk and they were drunk and I know it means nothing, but he wasn't drinking. So IDK if it meant something to him or not. He's hard to read. I don't want to ask him out, I have been shot down so many times this year. But I'm tired of waiting for him. He used to not even talk to me unless I talked to him first, he'd never text me unless I'd text him first, he said it was all part of the "I don't make the first move thing"...But now he talks to me pretty much every time I'm online.
Oh and he kept trying to get me to actually go out to the movies with him but I never did cause I'm chicken and I didn't know if it was a date or not.
Anyway, what should I do? We're going to get dinner on Thursday...that's never happened before either. But I don't know how to bring this stuff up without getting crushed and embarrassed when he says he doesn't like me...
And please, no comments about all the different guys. Just give me advice on what to do next time I talk to him, please.
Well here's an old interest that faded...Ryan.
I have been talking to him more and more and he always leads me on and then IDK whats going on with us ever. Its kind of weird...cause the last time we hung out was a really long time ago...January to be exact. The very beginning. And I was really really drunk...I invited him over when I was drunk...and ended up making out with him. Which has never been part of our relationship, all we do is hang out and watch movies. He's been wanting to hang out again since then and I just keep saying no or canceling plans...I'm nervous to be around him again...We haven't talked about the making out thing except for once. I apologized for it. He's just so awkward about that kind of stuff...and I'm always afraid to talk about it...Idk, its weird. Like I'd talk about that stuff with Chris and it never bothered me. But Ryan is so quiet and stuff...Its so weird. If you go to his Myspace he has tons and tons of girls he talks to but he never dates anyone cause he refuses to ask girls out. So once again I'm sitting here wondering if he likes me or not. Yesterday we were talking about our favorite places to be. I said on roller coasters and in the forest. He listed a bunch of things like on a beach, forest, and the desert (he's been to all of those cause he's been to a lot of places on vacations and such). Then he added "with you" to the list. He sometimes starts conversations with "Hi <3" and randomly puts hearts throughout our conversations. Oh and btw he's 21 but doesn't really act like it...well at least he doesn't act like Chris who's the same age.
Idk. Idk what to do. He's told me he will never ask a girl out no matter what and I can tell cause he never has a girlfriend. He could get girls so easily too, he's gorgeous. There's a billion girls on his profile saying he's cute and hot and all this other stuff. But I know he'll never try to get with them...So what should I do? Once again it is strange, he drives 20 minutes to my dorm to hang out with me any time he can and I want him there. He used to come 2-3 times a week. He says things like he likes hanging out with me and all he ever does is play video games or hang out with me when he's not working. (IDK if I believe that one...he has a lot of good guy friends)...of course he sends me the little heart things...And we kissed. A lot. That night...but I was drunk...the thing is, though, he wasn't drinking. He doesn't drink. I've made out with plenty of people while I was drunk and they were drunk and I know it means nothing, but he wasn't drinking. So IDK if it meant something to him or not. He's hard to read. I don't want to ask him out, I have been shot down so many times this year. But I'm tired of waiting for him. He used to not even talk to me unless I talked to him first, he'd never text me unless I'd text him first, he said it was all part of the "I don't make the first move thing"...But now he talks to me pretty much every time I'm online.
Oh and he kept trying to get me to actually go out to the movies with him but I never did cause I'm chicken and I didn't know if it was a date or not.
Anyway, what should I do? We're going to get dinner on Thursday...that's never happened before either. But I don't know how to bring this stuff up without getting crushed and embarrassed when he says he doesn't like me...
And please, no comments about all the different guys. Just give me advice on what to do next time I talk to him, please.
