1'000'000 Times Before

You say, “It’s not my fault. You know we have to do this.” Well you know what? I don’t want to hear it! I’ve heard it before. I’ve heard it to many times before. Yet the strange thing is, I’ve heard something else before, too… A Lie! A lie saying we’re not going to move, and then a few years later; after I make all of my friends and start to actually get a life, we go all the way across the f*cking country because “There’s nothing here for us.”

This s*it hole I live in now may not be Buckingham Palace, but it holds all of my friends that I hold dear to me. I remember a time in my life where I had to say goodbye. Goodbye to my child hood friends, to my home, to my life. And now you’re making me do it all again!

Not only do I have to let go of those I love, but also my chance to grow up. It seems that every time my life starts to look up, when I start to mature and figure out who I am. You Crash it! I am at the age now that I need to learn how to take care of myself. I turned in a job application to a respectable work place where I was more than likely to get accepted. I am ready to start training for my drivers permit. Things are looking up. Then I find out we’re moving.

I get an Email saying that I am 1 of the ones that they chose personally, out of the 100 who applied who gets a second chance at the job. I have to apologize and say I can’t make it. I have to put learning how to drive on hold so that I can get my permit in the new state. Things are now looking down. If we could have waited just a little bit longer, I could have gotten a job, had a little bit of money at least, and had a better chance of getting a new job there. I could have at least learned something about driving, so that I have a better chance of passing the test. But no. You decide to move at what could be the Worst time that anyone could ever imagine. If someone was trying there hardest to make me miserable they couldn’t do it.

You say we have to move because we have no money. Well I have news for you. Get a job that actually has money in it!