you stole my heart and then you kicked it aside.

I feel so stupid.

I was hoping you liked me back. I really thought you did. I really liked you. I guess maybe I still do. I just can't take feeling like I'm not good enough...and that's how I always felt when I was with you.

You are pretty amazing. Super sweet when you want to be...you don't know how good it felt when you called me hun...idk what you were thinking, but I was wondering why I ever deserved that. Maybe you thought I was something I wasn't. Every little heart or smile you sent brightened my day. I still wonder what I did to make you stop. You are amazingly gorgeous. I never thought I deserved you, and I suppose I still don't. You are something I thought I'd never have since the day I met you.

I remember when we first met and we hung out like two or three times that week. I liked you from the instant I met you and heard your voice and you made me so happy when you hugged me. Of course I'm sure you do that to every girl you hang out with...

You used to tell me you loved hanging out with me. One time you said one of your favorite places to be was with me...I guess you were probably just joking or something...but thats one of the biggest reasons I decided to tell you after all this time that I like you. We've known each other for over half a year...it doesn't seem like its been that long. But I guess it has. I wish I would have told you how I felt sooner. Before I got with Chris would have been great...but you liked someone else. I wish you would have just liked me.

I know I'm weird...I'm sorry. I don't think you realize what you are missing though. I may be weird, but I care about my friends and family more than my life. I care about you a whole lot. I think if you got to know me a bit more you'd figure out how I really am. I've been confused about this whole mess...so of course I seem weird...and I know I'm not normal, but believe me when I say I'm not as weird as you think. I know I'm not your typical girl...but I don't know how else to be other than myself. I think you are right now, we should have just got to know each other better. But I always try to rush things...

I want you to know I have meant every nice word I've said about you. You are sweet. At least you used to be. And I know you are still sweet to others. I just don't understand you, though. Why have I never been in your top friends? We used to talk for hours every night and hang out once a week, at least. Even before all the stuff about liking each other happened I considered you one of my good friends. I've watched as so many girls cycle through your top friends. I guess all of them are prettier than me...And maybe they've meant more to you than I have...I am so jealous, I just want to be one of them.

The girl you have right now...I don't know who she is but she seems to like you a lot. Are you dating her? If so, thats really cruel. You told me the time wasn't right for you to date, but I think that I'm just not good enough. To you its fine to like me and kiss me and sweet talk me...but not to call me yours. Its not fine with me, thats why I broke it off. Is it really that selfish to wish for you to like me the way I like you?

I am sorry for the things I've done. I'm sorry for all the plans I never followed through. I'm sorry for the times I hated talking to you, even though you never knew. I'm sorry for everything. But most of all I'm sorry I rushed you. And I'm sorry for every kiss, every embrace...Maybe you'd see me in a different light if you knew all along that I wanted to be with you, not just mess around.

I never thought I could feel this way because of you. You aren't like Chris. You don't manipulate.But I guess like any guy you are still capable of breaking my heart.