I Wrote This For You
“I’ve never had two kids in the same class that have the potential to change the world like you two.”
I have the potential to change the world, but all I can wonder is “when?” and “how?” I have no idea how I could change the world, ever. I think so lowly of myself that I don’t see it in me. But other people do. People see in me what I would never imagine about myself. When people look at me, they see strength, when I look at me, all I see is a girl who could have done better. When people look at me, they see someone to be proud of. Someone who’s made a difference. But honestly, I can’t say that I’ve made a difference in a life, but others would be glad to disagree with me.
“You deserve everything and everything else.”
No, I don’t. I don’t deserve anything. I don’t even deserve people to say something like that about me. But yet there’s something about me that people can say that. There’s something about me that people talk to me. There’s something about me that has people convinced that I deserve good things. Maybe I do, maybe I just can’t see it. Maybe I’ll get it. Maybe I need to stop waiting, and start going after what I deserve. Maybe I need to stop saying “maybe” and start saying “for sure.” Who knows? Apparently everyone but me.
A certain person in my life has recently made me realise that I can do so much better, that I deserve so much better, and that I’m worth so much more. I don’t believe in God, because I believe in myself. I’ve believed in myself enough to know that I can save myself. Maybe I can save someone else. Maybe I really CAN be something, I can be a saviour. I know that I’ve at least impacted his life, and knowing that makes me realise that maybe I really can do something for other people. So instead of hating myself, I can help people. Because I know that I can do that now. He’s made me remember why I changed. He’s made me remember why I don’t talk to certain people anymore. Most of all, He’s made me remember that even if I have no one else on my side, I’m always going to have him, and that’s good enough for me.
From now on I want to at least try, try to live. Try to help people out. Try to be a better Stephanie. I want to try to be everything I can be.
I really just want to try to change the world.
I have the potential to change the world, but all I can wonder is “when?” and “how?” I have no idea how I could change the world, ever. I think so lowly of myself that I don’t see it in me. But other people do. People see in me what I would never imagine about myself. When people look at me, they see strength, when I look at me, all I see is a girl who could have done better. When people look at me, they see someone to be proud of. Someone who’s made a difference. But honestly, I can’t say that I’ve made a difference in a life, but others would be glad to disagree with me.
“You deserve everything and everything else.”
No, I don’t. I don’t deserve anything. I don’t even deserve people to say something like that about me. But yet there’s something about me that people can say that. There’s something about me that people talk to me. There’s something about me that has people convinced that I deserve good things. Maybe I do, maybe I just can’t see it. Maybe I’ll get it. Maybe I need to stop waiting, and start going after what I deserve. Maybe I need to stop saying “maybe” and start saying “for sure.” Who knows? Apparently everyone but me.
A certain person in my life has recently made me realise that I can do so much better, that I deserve so much better, and that I’m worth so much more. I don’t believe in God, because I believe in myself. I’ve believed in myself enough to know that I can save myself. Maybe I can save someone else. Maybe I really CAN be something, I can be a saviour. I know that I’ve at least impacted his life, and knowing that makes me realise that maybe I really can do something for other people. So instead of hating myself, I can help people. Because I know that I can do that now. He’s made me remember why I changed. He’s made me remember why I don’t talk to certain people anymore. Most of all, He’s made me remember that even if I have no one else on my side, I’m always going to have him, and that’s good enough for me.
From now on I want to at least try, try to live. Try to help people out. Try to be a better Stephanie. I want to try to be everything I can be.
I really just want to try to change the world.
I don’t believe in God, because I believe in myself.
^^
I love that.
waiting_a_long_time, August 7th, 2009 at 05:00:11am
steph.
wow.
i know, that you have it in you to do something great.
i really do. and maybe you don't know what now, but you're young.
you have time to think of something. that's the point of being young, or more a young adult. it's your time to not only sit back and relax, but it's your head start on life. that's when you start to realize and learn things that you didn't know when you were younger~
and you deserve everything you get. good or bad, and i'm not saying that in a mean way, but that's how you learn. you deserve the bad things through karma, you do something bad something happens to you, you deserve it. and you learn from those mistakes.
but honestly, i could not in a million years point out something that you've done that was bad.
and steph i wuv yew
and if this doesn't make sense im sorry
Fallop!an Cwac Cwac., July 31st, 2009 at 12:53:02pm
i'm getting that way with inspire.
like ever since nathan said that i inspire him
i'm just like jahdslfjdshafsjldf. all up ~in~ that word.
and i wouldn't forget you.
i couldn't forget you, rissriss.
deus ex obstreperous, July 31st, 2009 at 03:33:36am
Omg Steph, I get this :/
I've been told the same things, but feel the same way you do.
And I've also started to realise that if I want something better, I'm not going to wait for it. It's taken me sixteen years to figure this out, and I'm going for it.
You know how alex is all about 'inspire' well in april I started to become that way with 'experience' and yeah. Experience life/Live through experiences; that's my way of thinking. You're amazing, you need to know this. Absolutely, I hope you do change the world. I have faith that you will. Just don't forget me when you do(:
I love you stephadoodle.
If that didn't make sense, sorrrrry.
sleepy marissa.
hollywood tragedy., July 31st, 2009 at 03:22:48am