No I'm Not Allowed To Be Happy
Of course i'm not allowed to be happy. Becuase god forbid Andrea finds joy in her life. I am now being ignored by that other "friend". All becuase i seem to have upset my ex. Okay really, what the hell! She tells me she doesnt know if she even wants to be my friend anymore, and i should feel guilty becuase of that?
I didn't do anything except ask her why she didn't know and if she still wanted to be my friend. Which by the way, she didn't anwser becuase she "didn't have an anwser" and "Had to think about it". I haven't even talked to her since and everything was fine with the guy until today and i guess yesterday. I asked why i was being ignored today and he said I "Upset a friend". Ok thanks alot, thought i was a friend as well and that you shouldn't take sides.
And of course i'm not allowed to be upset over this too. There's no way i could be upset after finding out that my ex, who i have romantic feelings for stiil even though i have a boy friend, might not want to be friends with me anymore. There's no way i could be upset becuase of that. There's no way that i might have cried over getting in that fight with her. There's no way that i might have needed to talk to him about this. There's no way that i wanted to give her space but then apologize to her about this. Becuase there's just no way Andrea can feel this. It's always poor Hayley whose upset and it's always Hayley whose the victim here.
Yes i did make her upset over asking why she didn't want to be my friend but she made me upset as well. And i really hope you could hear the sarcasm in that last paragraph.
I didn't do anything except ask her why she didn't know and if she still wanted to be my friend. Which by the way, she didn't anwser becuase she "didn't have an anwser" and "Had to think about it". I haven't even talked to her since and everything was fine with the guy until today and i guess yesterday. I asked why i was being ignored today and he said I "Upset a friend". Ok thanks alot, thought i was a friend as well and that you shouldn't take sides.
And of course i'm not allowed to be upset over this too. There's no way i could be upset after finding out that my ex, who i have romantic feelings for stiil even though i have a boy friend, might not want to be friends with me anymore. There's no way i could be upset becuase of that. There's no way that i might have cried over getting in that fight with her. There's no way that i might have needed to talk to him about this. There's no way that i wanted to give her space but then apologize to her about this. Becuase there's just no way Andrea can feel this. It's always poor Hayley whose upset and it's always Hayley whose the victim here.
Yes i did make her upset over asking why she didn't want to be my friend but she made me upset as well. And i really hope you could hear the sarcasm in that last paragraph.
