Suppressing feelings, holding back tears....gsb help?
I hate the internet. I feel like it is full of lies. You can so easily hide yourself on here. And its so easy to be someone you are not. I feel like crying right now. For the stupidest reason ever.
I met this guy online. His name is Justin. I added him on myyearbook (the website that has wrecked and ruined things for me over and over again) a few months ago, before I moved to Sandusky to work at Cedar Point. I added him because he looked interesting (his display pic was him firebreathing...it is awesome) and he happened to live in Sandusky. I never talked to him though. Then I move back to my hometown...and he starts talking to me. And now we talk a lot. For hours. And never, ever run out of things to say. Of course now that I don't live in his town we talk. And I am captivated, shocked, and depressed. He seems so perfect. We like a lot of the same things. He quotes Longfellow, I quote Pope (Henry Wadsworth and Alexander, respectively).He has read my favorite poem, "Eloisa to Abelard" (by Alexander Pope). And he gets it. We like the same music. And if I haven't heard a song he likes I go listen to it and I like it. Do you understand why I am upset? Yeah I don't either. This is what I do know.
I do know he is 21. Last time I checked he was applying for a job at Qdoba in Sandusky. He rides his bike everywhere. His hair is very curly when its grown out a bit. He breathes fire, juggles, and can ride a unicycle. He likes to smoke weed. He smokes Marlboro Milds but he is currently smoking Pall Mall due to the difference and price and the fact that he can't stand smoking more than half so it prevents him from smoking a lot. He likes video games. He went to OU for a year then dropped out because college wasn't right for him. He was in OU's marching band (amazingness). He reads (obviously). He downloaded MSN for one specific reason- to talk to me. He loves the lake (as do I). When he starts up a convo with me on yearbook he says "Hola senorita" and he said the night before last "I hope you have sweet dreams". He has not had sex nor has he had very many girlfriends, his relationships haven't lasted longer than a few weeks. He says its the girls who break up with him, not the other way around.
Maybe he doesn't sound great to you but to me he is near perfect. Which is what is making me so sad. First of all he lives 2 1/2 hours away. Second, I'm sure he would never like me back. He's too good for me. And I'm just a girl on the internet. We were going to meet up this coming weekend because I was going up to Cedar Point to work for a couple more days before processing out...but idk if I can go up now...I'm so nervous about meeting him. But it has to happen. We talk so much...He said he was thinking about coming down here to see me...I don't know what to think of that. Idk about any of this. Idk if he would like me if he met me. Idk if we are the same people as we are online...and I am not the girl to meet strangers off the internet. Especially guys. I've done it once before but my room mate knew the guy personally, she was good friends with his sister. This is different. No one knows him. And I will be alone. I won't have anyone up there with me to meet him..but he did mention coming to see me at work. Which would be safe. Idkkk. Have any of you met someone you met online?...and if anyone has any thoughts on this I'd really appreciate it. Thank you so much for reading.
I met this guy online. His name is Justin. I added him on myyearbook (the website that has wrecked and ruined things for me over and over again) a few months ago, before I moved to Sandusky to work at Cedar Point. I added him because he looked interesting (his display pic was him firebreathing...it is awesome) and he happened to live in Sandusky. I never talked to him though. Then I move back to my hometown...and he starts talking to me. And now we talk a lot. For hours. And never, ever run out of things to say. Of course now that I don't live in his town we talk. And I am captivated, shocked, and depressed. He seems so perfect. We like a lot of the same things. He quotes Longfellow, I quote Pope (Henry Wadsworth and Alexander, respectively).He has read my favorite poem, "Eloisa to Abelard" (by Alexander Pope). And he gets it. We like the same music. And if I haven't heard a song he likes I go listen to it and I like it. Do you understand why I am upset? Yeah I don't either. This is what I do know.
I do know he is 21. Last time I checked he was applying for a job at Qdoba in Sandusky. He rides his bike everywhere. His hair is very curly when its grown out a bit. He breathes fire, juggles, and can ride a unicycle. He likes to smoke weed. He smokes Marlboro Milds but he is currently smoking Pall Mall due to the difference and price and the fact that he can't stand smoking more than half so it prevents him from smoking a lot. He likes video games. He went to OU for a year then dropped out because college wasn't right for him. He was in OU's marching band (amazingness). He reads (obviously). He downloaded MSN for one specific reason- to talk to me. He loves the lake (as do I). When he starts up a convo with me on yearbook he says "Hola senorita" and he said the night before last "I hope you have sweet dreams". He has not had sex nor has he had very many girlfriends, his relationships haven't lasted longer than a few weeks. He says its the girls who break up with him, not the other way around.
Maybe he doesn't sound great to you but to me he is near perfect. Which is what is making me so sad. First of all he lives 2 1/2 hours away. Second, I'm sure he would never like me back. He's too good for me. And I'm just a girl on the internet. We were going to meet up this coming weekend because I was going up to Cedar Point to work for a couple more days before processing out...but idk if I can go up now...I'm so nervous about meeting him. But it has to happen. We talk so much...He said he was thinking about coming down here to see me...I don't know what to think of that. Idk about any of this. Idk if he would like me if he met me. Idk if we are the same people as we are online...and I am not the girl to meet strangers off the internet. Especially guys. I've done it once before but my room mate knew the guy personally, she was good friends with his sister. This is different. No one knows him. And I will be alone. I won't have anyone up there with me to meet him..but he did mention coming to see me at work. Which would be safe. Idkkk. Have any of you met someone you met online?...and if anyone has any thoughts on this I'd really appreciate it. Thank you so much for reading.
All I say is: be careful. He could pretend being anyone. You don't know that person. If you feel like you HAVE to meet him, take someone with you, or if you can't then meet at a public place. And make sure when you part he leaves before you, so that he can't follow you.
I have met an ex boyfriend of mine on GSB. It all went good, but you never know. I have also met a girl irl that i met on myspace. it also was cool. But ya, you don't seem like you know him pretty much, so be careful.
Love, October 7th, 2009 at 11:12:38am
I've actually met a GSBian before, a fair few years back now, and we'd known each other for years, which gave a good foundation. When I met up with her, I had my brother come along with me, just incase, you know? It's much safer if you have someone with you.
Trusty Chords., October 6th, 2009 at 05:53:08am
i think you should just be calm and tell someone so if you go missing (NOT SAYING YOUA RE OR SOMETHING) they can just call him or something .but I think it will be okay...just do what your heart tells you to do.
Aylin's Inferno!, October 5th, 2009 at 06:09:58pm
Hmm, I've never had experience with this kind of thing, but I suppose the only thing I could suggest is be careful...
Riot!, October 5th, 2009 at 04:05:48pm