Born. This. Way.

I'm beautiful in my way cause God makes no mistakes, I'm on the right track baby I was born this way. Don't hide yourself in regret just love yourself and you're set, I'm on the right track baby i was born this way...

What defines beauty? People have spent so much time trying to answer this question. When we look in the mirror, when we pick out our clothes, when we walk up to some one we think is good looking; each time we are trying to define beauty. The world tries to define beauty for us, but in the end its up to you to decide what is beautiful.

With billions of people living, who is to say that only a select few are beautiful? I'm personally getting fed up with the struggle of trying to fit in. I'm sick of looking in the mirror and wishing I wasn't me. What makes me ugly? Is it because I am fat? Is it because my hair is flaming red? Is it because I would rather wear a tshirt and jeans than a dress?

For years I have tried to be someone else. It started in high school when I began to wear clothes because the other girls wore them, not because I thought they looked nice. Then in college I dyed my hair every color trying to find the one that would make me fit in. I could never except my red hair, I couldn't stand not fitting in with everyone else. But something strange happened. Even though my clothes were the popular ones and my hair was just plain brown, I still didn't fit in. I still wasn't popular, I didn't have any more or less friends, nothing had changed. Nothing at all.

I began to realize that it didn't matter what I looked like, my looks weren't what set me apart. It was just who I was. I wasn't meant to be one of the sheep, I was meant to be different. The reason I didn't fit in was much deeper than my appearance. It is me. It is my personality, who I am. My core beliefs and values. What I stand for, how I behave. Everything I love about myself, everything that makes me who I am. That is why I don't fit in. And then I was overwhelmed. How could I ever fit in if I had to change who I am to do it?

I then realized something very important. I don't want to change. I am who I am, and deep down inside I love myself. I may hate what I look like sometimes, but I love myself. I am a unique individual, and becoming just like them would completely ruin me. I would lose the value of my individuality, and I would lose everything interesting I add to the world.

I still wish I was skinny. But I'm learning to love my red hair. Its bright and frizzy and often very annoying. But I am the only one I have ever met who has this particular color of hair. How can I go on hiding that? I spent a lot of time trying to be unique and fit in at the same time. I realize now that its foolish to have such a unique personality and try to hide it with a "normal" appearance. My hair makes me just as unique as my quirky personality.

In the end, it doesn't matter what I look like. Trust me, I'm all for showers and at least wearing clothes that fit and look decent. Other than that, what else matters? I will always be judged. It doesn't matter whether they are judging me for having bright red hair or for voicing my opinion when it is drastically different, in the end I will be judged. And in the end those who judge me are seriously missing out. I may look strange, I may even act strange, but I am empathetic, compassionate, and kind. I am creative and smart. I am interesting and I never turn down a good conversation.

I am who I am. This is how I was born, this is what cannot be changed without compromising my core being. No matter what color I dye my hair my roots will always grow in red. No matter what clothes I wear, I will always stick out because I have a knack for saying something weird or inappropriate. But in the end, I love who I am. And in the words of the great Lady Gaga-

I'm beautiful in my way cause God makes no mistakes, I'm on the right track baby I was born this way. Don't hide yourself in regret just love yourself and you're set, I'm on the right track baby i was born this way...
Posted on May 2nd, 2011 at 08:52pm

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