something else then saturday night's drunken dreams

2 more days till easterbreak...

I'm glad that it's finally there..2 weeks off...

This week, I hit rock bottom...
I'm so sick of school..

It's not like I want to drop out, because I want to go to university next year, so I'm not sick of the fact that I have to learn...

but I'm sick of the way they treat me... I'm not a kid anymore...
I am 18!! This week I got my first taxpaper, I don't have to pay yet.. but I already got one... so... I'm an adult now...

But everyone is always pretending like we are still kids...
and they always keep seeing "But wait till next year."
and they all pretend to care and pretend to be preparing us for next year.. but in fact.. they don't....

they don't prepare us at all... they just hold our hand till the day we walk out the door.

Same for my parents... they let me go out and stuff.. and they trust me..
but they just do these little things that bug me...

When me and my sister were young, when we went off to bed my mom would always say, don't forget to go to the toilet... so we wouldn't pee in our bed...

today... when I am 18... she still says "Don't forget to pee!" when I go to bed...

for christ sake... I AM 18!!! I can get up by myself at night to go to the loo if it's necesary... I'm not gonna pee in my bed..

and they do little things like...

But this easterbreak, I'm away from home for a week and away from school for 2 weeks.. so that's good...

and then after easterbreak.. it will go fast I think...

I'm going to london, we have a a lot of days off, I'm going to sicily, I have my hundred days, I have to go search for a dorm in the city....

I will be busy... and I like that.... I can't wait till the exams of june start...
and I never thought I would ever say that