I was all happy like..ten minutes ago.
Then I log into the FOBR messageboards.
You wouldn't believe the stuff I can find out on there.
I'm crying now.
"Friday, January 12, 2007
only fools rush in...
There was a moment when the last good part of me died.
It was not angry or rebellious.
It was not mean spirited.
It was not even dramatic.
It kind of just coughed, sputtered and then died in its sleep.
A collective effort in giving up.
Cursed.
If anyone ever really knew me, they'd string me up and leave me as a sign of what not to become.
How not to turn out.
My head in my hands with my fingers tight over my eyes pretending that none of this is happening.
The volume is loud but the screen isn't on. Just so noone can hear me thinking.
There isn't a goddamned thing that sparkles in my eyes anymore. There isn't magic in there.
Can't even put a sentence together.
My chest feels full of sulfur and ash.
I can't stop shaking.
Who can I call?
Hurt the ones you love. Love the ones you hurt.
Funny thing about how it all works out. When I saw you lying there blood spilled slipping and sliding in that bathtub I knew how I loved you. I saw you without makeup. Without your hair perfect. Without the words you bend to make me see you a certain way. I saw you alone and scared and knew I had to be careful with how I held you. Hope is a fragile thing. But it sticks in the back of your head. It pulses through your legs and can make you run up the stairs instead of taking the elevator. I knew I had to meet you in an aisle on a sunday morning. I knew I had to wake up to the biggest eyes I have ever seen for the rest of my life.
And its just not real.
Its shadows of life.
Daydreams of love.
They beg for an inch and take a mile.
We all become parodies of ourselves.
If you looked inside you'd see artifacts that'd proved I once gave a fuck.
There is a reason my real smile doesn't show up too much anymore.
There is a name for it.
'Fuck your futures'.
abc25 King For A Couple Of Days Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 2365
January 17th, 2007 at 08:20pm
in ur m3ss4gebo4rdz:
I was all happy like..ten minutes ago.
Then I log into the FOBR messageboards.
You wouldn't believe the stuff I can find out on there.
I'm crying now.
"Friday, January 12, 2007
only fools rush in...
There was a moment when the last good part of me died.
It was not angry or rebellious.
It was not mean spirited.
It was not even dramatic.
It kind of just coughed, sputtered and then died in its sleep.
A collective effort in giving up.
Cursed.
If anyone ever really knew me, they'd string me up and leave me as a sign of what not to become.
How not to turn out.
My head in my hands with my fingers tight over my eyes pretending that none of this is happening.
The volume is loud but the screen isn't on. Just so noone can hear me thinking.
There isn't a goddamned thing that sparkles in my eyes anymore. There isn't magic in there.
Can't even put a sentence together.
My chest feels full of sulfur and ash.
I can't stop shaking.
Who can I call?
Hurt the ones you love. Love the ones you hurt.
Funny thing about how it all works out. When I saw you lying there blood spilled slipping and sliding in that bathtub I knew how I loved you. I saw you without makeup. Without your hair perfect. Without the words you bend to make me see you a certain way. I saw you alone and scared and knew I had to be careful with how I held you. Hope is a fragile thing. But it sticks in the back of your head. It pulses through your legs and can make you run up the stairs instead of taking the elevator. I knew I had to meet you in an aisle on a sunday morning. I knew I had to wake up to the biggest eyes I have ever seen for the rest of my life.
And its just not real.
Its shadows of life.
Daydreams of love.
They beg for an inch and take a mile.
We all become parodies of ourselves.
If you looked inside you'd see artifacts that'd proved I once gave a fuck.
There is a reason my real smile doesn't show up too much anymore.
There is a name for it.
'Fuck your futures'.
posted by xo @ 1:15 AM"
I thought that was all metaphors.
RIP Asian Dave.
ohh pete gawsh this makes me cry!!!!!! do you think we should have a good-bye thread even though its on here?
I was all happy like..ten minutes ago.
Then I log into the FOBR messageboards.
You wouldn't believe the stuff I can find out on there.
I'm crying now.
"Friday, January 12, 2007
only fools rush in...
There was a moment when the last good part of me died.
It was not angry or rebellious.
It was not mean spirited.
It was not even dramatic.
It kind of just coughed, sputtered and then died in its sleep.
A collective effort in giving up.
Cursed.
If anyone ever really knew me, they'd string me up and leave me as a sign of what not to become.
How not to turn out.
My head in my hands with my fingers tight over my eyes pretending that none of this is happening.
The volume is loud but the screen isn't on. Just so noone can hear me thinking.
There isn't a goddamned thing that sparkles in my eyes anymore. There isn't magic in there.
Can't even put a sentence together.
My chest feels full of sulfur and ash.
I can't stop shaking.
Who can I call?
Hurt the ones you love. Love the ones you hurt.
Funny thing about how it all works out. When I saw you lying there blood spilled slipping and sliding in that bathtub I knew how I loved you. I saw you without makeup. Without your hair perfect. Without the words you bend to make me see you a certain way. I saw you alone and scared and knew I had to be careful with how I held you. Hope is a fragile thing. But it sticks in the back of your head. It pulses through your legs and can make you run up the stairs instead of taking the elevator. I knew I had to meet you in an aisle on a sunday morning. I knew I had to wake up to the biggest eyes I have ever seen for the rest of my life.
And its just not real.
Its shadows of life.
Daydreams of love.
They beg for an inch and take a mile.
We all become parodies of ourselves.
If you looked inside you'd see artifacts that'd proved I once gave a fuck.
There is a reason my real smile doesn't show up too much anymore.
There is a name for it.
'Fuck your futures'.
posted by xo @ 1:15 AM"
I thought that was all metaphors.
RIP Asian Dave.
ohh pete gawsh this makes me cry!!!!!! do you think we should have a good-bye thread even though its on here?
I want to make a card for Pete, is anyone going to the show anytime soon? I can't cause they didn't plan a show in dallas for foe cause they did a special show for christmas...which I wen to
We should make a card, all us gsbians that like him sign it, then someone print it out and give it to him. anyone agree?
abc25 King For A Couple Of Days Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 2365
Okay, pay attention if you wanna be in Pete's card!
What I'm planning on doing is making a large card on photoshop with the Claustine heart as the backround, and in the middle of the heart we have a song lyric (you guys can decide what lyric) then I'll post it on here, then each of us gsbians (on this thread and the other FOB pic thread) will take the card and put a picture of ourselves, then we write a short note to him seeing that only a couple of us are doing this. So tonight or tomorrow, take a picture of yourself (I'm going to wear my FOB shirt) and upload it to photobucket or something. I'll tomorrow (time depends on if i have school or not because of the snow) post the card, then someone will take it, put their picture and message on a part of the card then reload it to photobucket and paste it on here, then the next person does it. This continues till we have all done it.
If anyone is going to an FOB show soon, please contact me, because you may be the person that prints the card out and can give it to him at a meet and greet.
Does anyone else approve of this idea? if you have any questions, PM me.
I'm also going to put the site's name on it too, so he cn know that even Green Day fans are FOB fans too.
