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hey guys,

Mum's just called me the Midnight moroder! ha ha ha no idea what it means but i do feel like one coz im here and everyone is in bed, god dam this late finish,

jeez again missed so much,

Ali nice one on the car, you can drive up here and come see marilyn manson with me tuesday seen as all my mates have bailed and can;t go with me, theres a road trip for ya! What did barney say about March? he cool with it?

Mads I can't believe your getting your tattoo done so soon! thats wicked, don;t be nervous you'll be fine, like Ali said it is a perfect first tattoo and it looks so good where you've chosen! £35 is a total steal get in there! mihgt pay your mate a visit next time im gettin one!

just for the record i love eastenders to....... but i do think it's worse for you than heroin!

Can you believe i am now off work till wednesday?? awesome!!!!!

I am awake

Ahhhh I'll definitely come see you Lou!! I have ZERO money though haha.

I'm at work now, working at East tomorrow too. I'm a little bit nervous... I hope I remember everything

Yeah, Barney's alright with March haha. I think he'll worry a bit when it actually happens but just about me looking after myself. I think he thinks I'm an idiot - I lived in a trailer park when I was a kid (albeit a really nice one ), I'm TOUGH.

Hahaha. I lie, I'm not at all.

My new car is amazing. Basically, I can't wait for March to drive so far in it! Haha.

How are you going to get to Leeds in March Lou?

The Dr Martens are here

I LOVE them.

Yay !!!
I tried wearing my "vegetarian shoe" DMs today, they are waayy to small. They are like vegan ones, not that im a vegan. I got them for £3 in a charity shop.

AH, really? £3?!

Crikey.

I'll take a picture tonight. With a picture of the blazer (which I'm keeping), the car and the lace thing that I still haven't decided about.

BAH.

Shopping.

Lots of photos then

Ok, after Christmas, we both need to help each other with our spending addiction

I KNOW.

I need a belt. To wear with these jeans...

I never wear belts and I'm STUCK.

My jeans are reallly lose on my. Thats a good thing.

I just got angry at the 21 guns video, when BJ does that Billy Idol thing with his mouth.. it makes me angry. I dont know why.

I bought mine in a 12, my very favourite River Island ones, so they sit super low on my hips

Sometimes the tiniest bit too low

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We're all doing no work today. HAPPY FRIDAY.

^^ Ah, , I forgot to reply to that haha!

The lip curl annoys me too... as did the American Idiot gurns but I always want to do them when I listen to the song

I've seen that website before, i'm looking at it now, making me tooooo hungry!!

HAPPY FRIDAY
Doing any thing tonight?

Barney 'shit boyfriend' Crawford has done it again.

I really don't know why I bother sometimes...

Whats wrong? xx

I just ran into our friend from sixth form that Barney goes to college with (the one we were supposed to go for curry with last week) and he was like "oh, we all went for Pizza Hut for lunch, dunno why Barney didn't invite you!"

It's depressing. I already spend every lunchtime on my own, except for the occasional Monday when Barney does work experience in my office for the graphic design people.

Also, he already has no money for Christmas and apparently their bill was £91. So, there goes my Christmas present too. No birthday, no Christmas... seeing a pattern.

He's said before that he doesn't see why I should be friends with his college friends but I don't really want to be - it'd just be nice to be included once!

I text him and said "ohhh, you're a bastard. I love you lots x" and he replied "?! why? I love you lots x", so I just said something along the lines of:

"You know why" Just because I'm not friends with all of them doesn't mean you can't include me just once..."

Make him take you out!! That's really harsh that they didn't even tell you

I'll take you to pizza hut?

Well I wouldn't expect his college friends to bother... it'd just be nice if he tried to include me, just once?

He's even said that one girl (one that seems to like him a bit too much... paranoid much??) wants to meet me... so what's the issue?

, let's do it.

ARGH.

How many of them went?? Why couldn't you just go?

I dunno, a bunch it sounds like.

He's said before he doesn't want me to be friends with his college friends but I dunno why. It's not that I even want to be friends with them... I just would've gone and seen him and maybe had a bit of a chat.

I already know two of the boys he goes to college with, as we both went to sixth form with them. So it isn't even like I'd be completely unknown

I dunno what to do. It's weird.

He didn't reply to the text so I called him because Mum needed to know if he was coming to ours for tea and he didn't mention it.

And he just deleted a comment that I left him on Facebook from his wall thing... so I deleted the rest of my posts on his wall to make a point haha.

I feel so blah.

Whats the problem with you being friends with them? Why doesn't he want you to know?

He propbs wont need any tea after all that pizza!



Ohhh please dont be sad!

I don't even know why I'm sad. Like, if he's not worth it, why do I keep bothering?

Last night was really nice... after I finally got him to pay attention to me instead of the TV.

I don't know. Something's not quite right... my work is one street over from Pizza Hut.

I know what he's going to say: I didn't know if you could come/Thought you'd already had lunch/It was last minute/We weren't there long

So why didn't he text me and say something like 'I dunno if you can come, but we're in Pizza Hut if you wanna come say hi?'

I just want to cry this is stupid.

I dunno why he doesn't want me to be friends with them - one girl, he said she'd asked him about me and he said she was nice so I sent her a message on FB saying something like 'Hi, Barney said you're lovely so I thought I'd say hi '

At that point, he'd promised he'd take me for lunch at college one day. So I was trying to get to know at least one person, so I wouldn't feel so weird going to college with him.

But she thought it was stupid and told him it was stupid.