The Young And The Hopeless, chapter 49
~~Tre's POV~~
Billie stormed away from the scene, leaving everyone gaping at Simone and Gerard. I looked at her, shaking my head. I couldn't believe it. I just couldn't. Why would she do that to Billie? She loves him. Doesn't she? It seems like it. Well it did, before everything.
"Why did you have to tell him?" Gerard said after a while.
"Because... I love him and I didn't want him to find out any other way, that would have been worse. And Gerard, it was one time, it didn't mean anything, it just happened,"
"It happened twice actually"
"But I didn't mean for that to happen either! I'd just told you it couldn't happen again when you kissed me!" Simone was shouting. She was never very good at keeping her temper.
"I didn't feel you try to pull away though," Gerard smirked.
Simone was lost for words. Instead, she turned on her heel and also walked away.
Mike was stood looking at Gerard with a look of disgust on his face.
"He's my best friend, how could you do that to him!" Mike shouted.
"I didn't mean-"
"No! You just thought no one would find out! Man that's dumb. In fact, you so dumb, you threw a rock at the ground and it missed!" Mike shouted. Everyone turned to look at him, some people were giggling.
"I bet you were on your way to an airport and there was a sign that said:' airport left' so you turned around and went home," Mike carried on.
"Mike that's enough now!" Leigh said, pulling him back a little.
"No! he's sick! He's so sick, he makes my pet codfish want to puke!"
"Um... Mike, you don't have a pet codfish," Leigh said, looking worried.
"I know, it just felt good to say that," Mike grinned. "I was on a roll, and now you've ruined it," Mike pretended to sulk.
"Alright then... " Leigh said, stepping back again.
Gerard was stood with his mouth open. He had never seen Mike shout at anyone.
He also looked confused, "Uh, Mike, hate to brake it to you, but if I threw a rock at the ground, there is no way it would miss"
"My point exactly! You're so dumb, you can't even figure it out!"
"But neither can I," Leigh said.
"But you have an excuse, you're blond," Mike said.
"Oh yeah... " Leigh said, before stopping and thinking, "Wait, was that an insult?"
"No, I like your hair colour. It's all blond and uh... blond," Mike said, confusing himself a little.
"Aw thank you baby," Leigh said, cuddling up to him.
Mike said nothing, but continued glaring at Gerard. Frank, Mikey, Ray and Bob all seemed speechless.
I felt really bad for Billie. Well, wouldn't you. I wonder where he is now. I think he needs a bit of comfort. I teared my eyes away from Gerard and started to wal away.
"Tre! Where are you going?" mike shouted after me.
"Oh, I'm gonna find Billie. Make sure he doesn't do anything stupid, you know.." I said quickly, before setting off at a fast pace.
I walked out of the school gates.
"Oi! Tre!"
"What?" I snapped wheeling around.
"Why did Simone just run out of school crying?" It was Kerry. Why would she want to know?
"None of your business,"
"Oh, so Billie found out about her and Gerard then?" Kerry said.
"What? How did you know about that?" I asked her.
"Oh, I foundthem getting off with each other behind the science block," Kerry said.
"Well, good luck finding the little slag,"
"says you," I muttered under my breath. I turned back around and ran out of the gates. I countiuned along the streets until I saw a hunched figure sat on a bench. It was Billie Joe.
~~Billie Joe's POV~~
"Hey, Billie, would you like to talk?" I looked up to see Tre. He sat next to me.
I just shrugged.
"Billie, you've got to understand, I didn't mean for that thing in the treehouse to happen,"
"I know! I understand that, it's just I knew that Gerard liked her. we all knew. I didn't think that she had noticed though. She obviously did though," I said, tears running down my cheeks. "What's that freak got that I haven't?" I asked after a while.
"Billie, nothing. He's got nothing. It's you that Simone liked. After you walked away, I heard a little more about what had happened, and Simone had told him it wasn;t to happen again. Then he kissed her. I don't know what else happened," Tre tried to explain, but the words weren't sinking in. All I had was this image of them together.
"And then, I saw Kerry and she said that she knew all about it,"
"Kerry knew?" I asked, jerking out of my thoughts.
"Apparently," Tre said, trying to avoid eye contact with me. I knew he was feeling sorry for me.
"Tre! You've got to help me, I don't know what to do," I said.
"Well, what do you want to do?"
"I don't know. I like her. I think, I don't know Tre!"
"Why don't you talk to her, get the full story?" Tre suggested.
"Ok then, do you know where she is?"
"Kerry said that she had ran out of school,"
"I'll check the park," I said. I don't know why, but the park seemed to be the place where she would go.
Sure enough, when I got to the park, there she was, sitting on the swing, staring at the floor, quietly singing something to herself.
"Hold on, if you feel like letting go, Hold on, it is better than you know,"
"I didn't know you liked Good Charlotte," I said, sitting on the swing next to her.
"I don't, it's just that song," she said. But then she looked up at me. I saw her face stained with tears.
"Billie Joe. I'm really sorry. God, I know there's nothing to say that will make you forgive me and I can understand. I'm such a stupid slut. I should have never been born and the world would be a much happier place,"
"Hey, that's a little harsh. There's plenty of people who like you,"
"Not anymore. Not now everyone knows,"
"Simone, I don't know if I'm ever going to be able to forgive you, and I like you so much, it's unbelieveable, but I don't think I can forgive this,"
"I understand you," She said. I saw a tear drop from her face and land on the floor.
"Hey, now cheer up. There's someone out there for everybody," I said.
She nodded. I didn't know what to say.
"I was hoping you would tell me what happened though. Because I would like to forgive you. I really would," I said, stuttering occasionally.
"Ok, I suppose. Well, as you know, we were in your cupboard and I noticed he was smiling and he said it was because we were stuck in a cupboard together. I looked away for a while, and we didn't talk after that. I looked back at him to ask him where you guys were and he kissed me. Like the stupid idiot that I am, I kissed him back,"
That was the part that I didn't want to hear. Tears were still rolling down her face and she kept tripping over her words.
"Well, after a while, I came to my senses and pushed him away," She looked at me and I nodded, telling her to carry on. Was she lying about pushing him away or did she really do it?
"Anyway, I was on my own on Monday and he came over to me. I told him that what happened on Friday couldn't happen again. I said that we could still be friends and gave him a hug. Then I don't know how it happened, but I found that we were kissing again. I was about to pull away, when Kerry came and found us. She said that she wouldn't tell you, I didn't know whether to believe her or not, but she didn't tell you. And then today, we were having the same conversation about how I didn't want it to happen again. And I gave him a hug saying we could still be friends and then he kissed me on the cheek. That's the part you saw. Nothing else has happened. And I don't want it to, because I love you Billie and I don't want to have to let you go, but I guess I have to because I've been such an idiot," I listened to her the whole time. I didn't know what to say or how I was meant to feel about all this.
She looked down at her feet. "I'm sorry," she mumbled again.
I just watched her. her dark brown hair was hanging over her face so I couldn't quite make out her expression.
"Maybe, we should just call it quits. I can't be trusted," Simone said, still looking down at her feet.
I sighed, "Yeah, I suppose. I would like to say we could still be friends, but I guess it will be weir," I said.
"Yeah. Well, we probably will still have to hang out with each other becaue of Leigh, Tre and Mike. So shall we just try to act mature about this?" she said.
"Yes and then maybe, if we get close enough again, maybe we could try it out again,"
"Maybe," she repeated.
"Okay then," I said.
~~Leigh's POV~~
Gerard, Frank, Mikey, Ray and Bob had all left to go to their form room. I couldn't quite believe what I had just seen.
Tre came back around the corner as the bell went. We started walking back to the form room together.
"So, did you find him?" Mike asked, breaking the uneasy silence between us.
"Yeah, he's gone to find her and talk," Tre said.
Would he find her? Would everything be ok between them? They seem happy together. But then again... No! Simone isn't usually like that. I can't believe she's done a thing like that.
I hope they're both ok. I don't think either of them would do anything stupid.
The last lessons seemed to drag on when all I wanted to do was get home so I could call Simone to make sure she was ok.
The end bell finally rang and the class was dismissed. I walked home instead of catching the bus. I think I was probably hoping that I would run into Simone or Billie. They would have probably gone home by now though.
I got home and walked in the door to find my mum home already.
"Why aren't you at wor I asked.
"I have something to tell you, Leigh," she said. Oh god. I prepared myself for the worst.
"What is it?" I asked.
"We're moving house,"
"Oh, right. Is it far?" I asked. I didn't want to leave all my friends.
"I'm afraid it is,"
"Will I be able to see Simone or Mike or Tre or Billie very often,"
"I daresay, that if they were allowed that they could visit during school holidays,"
"Where are we going?"
"We're moving to California,"
"Oh my God!" I shouted. I had always wanted to go there and now that I was going to be living there, I didn't want to go.
"What?" I shouted.
"We're moving to California," my mu repeated quietly.
"I'll never see my friends again!" I said, "You've got to be joking!"
"No, I'm not. We leave on Friday,"
"What? Friday? As in this Friday?"
"Yes this Friday,"
"Oh my God! I've got to call Simone. And the Mike," I muttered, running up to my room.
What was I going to say to them. "Simone, I'd love to come round and cheer you up, but I'm packing. What? Oh, no I'm moving and I'll never see you again," Fuck! There was no way that we could move. Not now. And what about Mike? What would I say to him? I'd have to break up with him. Oh, shit.
Billie stormed away from the scene, leaving everyone gaping at Simone and Gerard. I looked at her, shaking my head. I couldn't believe it. I just couldn't. Why would she do that to Billie? She loves him. Doesn't she? It seems like it. Well it did, before everything.
"Why did you have to tell him?" Gerard said after a while.
"Because... I love him and I didn't want him to find out any other way, that would have been worse. And Gerard, it was one time, it didn't mean anything, it just happened,"
"It happened twice actually"
"But I didn't mean for that to happen either! I'd just told you it couldn't happen again when you kissed me!" Simone was shouting. She was never very good at keeping her temper.
"I didn't feel you try to pull away though," Gerard smirked.
Simone was lost for words. Instead, she turned on her heel and also walked away.
Mike was stood looking at Gerard with a look of disgust on his face.
"He's my best friend, how could you do that to him!" Mike shouted.
"I didn't mean-"
"No! You just thought no one would find out! Man that's dumb. In fact, you so dumb, you threw a rock at the ground and it missed!" Mike shouted. Everyone turned to look at him, some people were giggling.
"I bet you were on your way to an airport and there was a sign that said:' airport left' so you turned around and went home," Mike carried on.
"Mike that's enough now!" Leigh said, pulling him back a little.
"No! he's sick! He's so sick, he makes my pet codfish want to puke!"
"Um... Mike, you don't have a pet codfish," Leigh said, looking worried.
"I know, it just felt good to say that," Mike grinned. "I was on a roll, and now you've ruined it," Mike pretended to sulk.
"Alright then... " Leigh said, stepping back again.
Gerard was stood with his mouth open. He had never seen Mike shout at anyone.
He also looked confused, "Uh, Mike, hate to brake it to you, but if I threw a rock at the ground, there is no way it would miss"
"My point exactly! You're so dumb, you can't even figure it out!"
"But neither can I," Leigh said.
"But you have an excuse, you're blond," Mike said.
"Oh yeah... " Leigh said, before stopping and thinking, "Wait, was that an insult?"
"No, I like your hair colour. It's all blond and uh... blond," Mike said, confusing himself a little.
"Aw thank you baby," Leigh said, cuddling up to him.
Mike said nothing, but continued glaring at Gerard. Frank, Mikey, Ray and Bob all seemed speechless.
I felt really bad for Billie. Well, wouldn't you. I wonder where he is now. I think he needs a bit of comfort. I teared my eyes away from Gerard and started to wal away.
"Tre! Where are you going?" mike shouted after me.
"Oh, I'm gonna find Billie. Make sure he doesn't do anything stupid, you know.." I said quickly, before setting off at a fast pace.
I walked out of the school gates.
"Oi! Tre!"
"What?" I snapped wheeling around.
"Why did Simone just run out of school crying?" It was Kerry. Why would she want to know?
"None of your business,"
"Oh, so Billie found out about her and Gerard then?" Kerry said.
"What? How did you know about that?" I asked her.
"Oh, I foundthem getting off with each other behind the science block," Kerry said.
"Well, good luck finding the little slag,"
"says you," I muttered under my breath. I turned back around and ran out of the gates. I countiuned along the streets until I saw a hunched figure sat on a bench. It was Billie Joe.
~~Billie Joe's POV~~
"Hey, Billie, would you like to talk?" I looked up to see Tre. He sat next to me.
I just shrugged.
"Billie, you've got to understand, I didn't mean for that thing in the treehouse to happen,"
"I know! I understand that, it's just I knew that Gerard liked her. we all knew. I didn't think that she had noticed though. She obviously did though," I said, tears running down my cheeks. "What's that freak got that I haven't?" I asked after a while.
"Billie, nothing. He's got nothing. It's you that Simone liked. After you walked away, I heard a little more about what had happened, and Simone had told him it wasn;t to happen again. Then he kissed her. I don't know what else happened," Tre tried to explain, but the words weren't sinking in. All I had was this image of them together.
"And then, I saw Kerry and she said that she knew all about it,"
"Kerry knew?" I asked, jerking out of my thoughts.
"Apparently," Tre said, trying to avoid eye contact with me. I knew he was feeling sorry for me.
"Tre! You've got to help me, I don't know what to do," I said.
"Well, what do you want to do?"
"I don't know. I like her. I think, I don't know Tre!"
"Why don't you talk to her, get the full story?" Tre suggested.
"Ok then, do you know where she is?"
"Kerry said that she had ran out of school,"
"I'll check the park," I said. I don't know why, but the park seemed to be the place where she would go.
Sure enough, when I got to the park, there she was, sitting on the swing, staring at the floor, quietly singing something to herself.
"Hold on, if you feel like letting go, Hold on, it is better than you know,"
"I didn't know you liked Good Charlotte," I said, sitting on the swing next to her.
"I don't, it's just that song," she said. But then she looked up at me. I saw her face stained with tears.
"Billie Joe. I'm really sorry. God, I know there's nothing to say that will make you forgive me and I can understand. I'm such a stupid slut. I should have never been born and the world would be a much happier place,"
"Hey, that's a little harsh. There's plenty of people who like you,"
"Not anymore. Not now everyone knows,"
"Simone, I don't know if I'm ever going to be able to forgive you, and I like you so much, it's unbelieveable, but I don't think I can forgive this,"
"I understand you," She said. I saw a tear drop from her face and land on the floor.
"Hey, now cheer up. There's someone out there for everybody," I said.
She nodded. I didn't know what to say.
"I was hoping you would tell me what happened though. Because I would like to forgive you. I really would," I said, stuttering occasionally.
"Ok, I suppose. Well, as you know, we were in your cupboard and I noticed he was smiling and he said it was because we were stuck in a cupboard together. I looked away for a while, and we didn't talk after that. I looked back at him to ask him where you guys were and he kissed me. Like the stupid idiot that I am, I kissed him back,"
That was the part that I didn't want to hear. Tears were still rolling down her face and she kept tripping over her words.
"Well, after a while, I came to my senses and pushed him away," She looked at me and I nodded, telling her to carry on. Was she lying about pushing him away or did she really do it?
"Anyway, I was on my own on Monday and he came over to me. I told him that what happened on Friday couldn't happen again. I said that we could still be friends and gave him a hug. Then I don't know how it happened, but I found that we were kissing again. I was about to pull away, when Kerry came and found us. She said that she wouldn't tell you, I didn't know whether to believe her or not, but she didn't tell you. And then today, we were having the same conversation about how I didn't want it to happen again. And I gave him a hug saying we could still be friends and then he kissed me on the cheek. That's the part you saw. Nothing else has happened. And I don't want it to, because I love you Billie and I don't want to have to let you go, but I guess I have to because I've been such an idiot," I listened to her the whole time. I didn't know what to say or how I was meant to feel about all this.
She looked down at her feet. "I'm sorry," she mumbled again.
I just watched her. her dark brown hair was hanging over her face so I couldn't quite make out her expression.
"Maybe, we should just call it quits. I can't be trusted," Simone said, still looking down at her feet.
I sighed, "Yeah, I suppose. I would like to say we could still be friends, but I guess it will be weir," I said.
"Yeah. Well, we probably will still have to hang out with each other becaue of Leigh, Tre and Mike. So shall we just try to act mature about this?" she said.
"Yes and then maybe, if we get close enough again, maybe we could try it out again,"
"Maybe," she repeated.
"Okay then," I said.
~~Leigh's POV~~
Gerard, Frank, Mikey, Ray and Bob had all left to go to their form room. I couldn't quite believe what I had just seen.
Tre came back around the corner as the bell went. We started walking back to the form room together.
"So, did you find him?" Mike asked, breaking the uneasy silence between us.
"Yeah, he's gone to find her and talk," Tre said.
Would he find her? Would everything be ok between them? They seem happy together. But then again... No! Simone isn't usually like that. I can't believe she's done a thing like that.
I hope they're both ok. I don't think either of them would do anything stupid.
The last lessons seemed to drag on when all I wanted to do was get home so I could call Simone to make sure she was ok.
The end bell finally rang and the class was dismissed. I walked home instead of catching the bus. I think I was probably hoping that I would run into Simone or Billie. They would have probably gone home by now though.
I got home and walked in the door to find my mum home already.
"Why aren't you at wor I asked.
"I have something to tell you, Leigh," she said. Oh god. I prepared myself for the worst.
"What is it?" I asked.
"We're moving house,"
"Oh, right. Is it far?" I asked. I didn't want to leave all my friends.
"I'm afraid it is,"
"Will I be able to see Simone or Mike or Tre or Billie very often,"
"I daresay, that if they were allowed that they could visit during school holidays,"
"Where are we going?"
"We're moving to California,"
"Oh my God!" I shouted. I had always wanted to go there and now that I was going to be living there, I didn't want to go.
"What?" I shouted.
"We're moving to California," my mu repeated quietly.
"I'll never see my friends again!" I said, "You've got to be joking!"
"No, I'm not. We leave on Friday,"
"What? Friday? As in this Friday?"
"Yes this Friday,"
"Oh my God! I've got to call Simone. And the Mike," I muttered, running up to my room.
What was I going to say to them. "Simone, I'd love to come round and cheer you up, but I'm packing. What? Oh, no I'm moving and I'll never see you again," Fuck! There was no way that we could move. Not now. And what about Mike? What would I say to him? I'd have to break up with him. Oh, shit.
