I'm Not Crazy, chapter 4
*3 months later*
"So what are we doing tonight?" Jenna said questioningly while twisting the phone cord around her finger.
"Well we could go to a gig, or we could stay in and do whatever." he replied cheekily
"Well I'll meet you at your's cause I got another appointment" she said sitting forward and slouching forward putting her spare hand on her forehead and leaning it on her lap.
"Fuck, that sucks ball Jen." He replied.
"Yea...shit mum's home I'll see you tonight...ok bye." she said slamming down the phone.
"Who was that?" her mum asked kicking the door closed with hands full of shopping bags.
"Ohh ummm it was just umm Nicole." Jenna replied shakily, her father had forbid jenna from seeing or talking to Billie Joe ever since one night.
* FLASH BACK *
"JENNA ELISE LODGE GET YOUR ASS IN HERE NOW!" her father shouted
"Shit" she whispered to Billie Joe as she pushed him off her and straightened up her clothes and cautiously walked down stairs.
"What is it dad?" she asked not really wanting to know the answer.
" You and that no good boy that's what!" he replied with a stern look on his face.
"What?" she asked cocking an eyebrow, slightly confused.
"What is this?!" he said pulling an old cigarette out of his pocket.
"Oh... " she said 'Fuck' she thought
" You're killing yourself Jenna, you know that? You're killing yourself!" he father said, with an increase in volume with every word.
"Dad I am 19 years old, I'm pretty much an adult, if we were back in Australia I would be classed as one. Why do you treat me like a child?" she asked while thinking 'god why do I feel like I'm in a movie.'
"You're still under my roof so you have to go by my rules young lady!" he said rolling the magazine that found it's way into his grip.
"Well you know what dad, if you're gonna treat me this way then I'm leaving, I bet you saw that coming, I bet that's EXACTLY what you wanted me to do! You think I don't know what's going on around me? You think I'm just a dumb girl who has to sit around and not say a word until I'm given permission? Well you know what? I'M NOT AND THIS IS NOT THE FUKING 50'S! She shouted at her father, and with that she stormed out the front door.
Billie Joe must've heard what was happening because he had some how slipped past world war 3 and made his way out on to the front steps, where they had two month's prior shared their first kiss.
"I have a change of clothes for you in my bag, if you want to stay at mine tonight, it's the least I can do after causing that" he said twisting his old black shoes into the ground.
"Thank you" she replied wiping the tear from her eyes.
* END OF FLASHBACK *
(and that's where she has been for the past month, but she's home because of her up coming appointment.)
"It better not have been that Billie Joe boy or else you no what you dad will do." He mother said looking at her like she could see right through her.
"Anyway, how is living with that friend of yours? umm what was her name Jessie yes that's it... are you happy there because you can always come back." her mother queried while take all contents of the shopping backs out of the bags and onto the shelves in the pantry.
"Umm yeh good I'm loving it" Jenna replied scuffing her feet as per usual.
"That doesn't sound to convincing" her mother replied
"I'M FINE OK?? DROP IT!!" Jenna snapped
Her mother jumped at this then her face turned rather angry looking.
"Do not talk to me that way young lady, this is exactly why you need to keep seeing Dr. Arnold, between the day you walked out oh this house a month ago and the last time you ran out of the office you have been fine, you have calmed down. But now you're just angry again." Her mother tilted her head sideways slightly as if she was tryin to figure out ... 24365 x 45362³/9879³-5483⅔... or some other insanely hard maths problem in her head.
"Do you really want to know why I was so happy? And what will make me happy again?" Jenna said looking her mother in the eyes not so nicely.
"Yes of course honey, I just want you to be happy, tell me, tell me what you want."
"I want you and dad to let me live my own life, stop stepping all over me like I'm your door mat and treat me the way you treat my brother. I'm sick and tired of being a burden to this family and I'm sick and tired of being treated like I'm 10 years old. And the only time I don't feel that way is when I'm with Billie Joe. He makes me feel like a real person, he makes me laugh and just makes me... happy." Now she was tearing and the once perfectly applied eyeliner was now running down her cheeks. She took a deep breath wiped her eyes and kept going... " The only way I'm going to stop being angry is if you let me live my live and accept the fact that I'm with Billie Joe and I'm not going to stop seeing him... in fact you know what I'm not living with Jessie, I don't even know someone called Jessie! I'm living with Billie Joe and we're happy you heard me HAPPY." she finished getting all worked up again. "Now what's it going to be mum? Are you going to lose me or accept me for who I am and who I am with?".
Jenna sat on the curb crying and cling on the red and throbbing side of her face. She really thought that her mum would accept it, but she didn't. Instead she hit her daughter and told her to never show her face in the house again. Her mother wasn't concerned with Jenna's feelings, only her own, and because Jenna lied her mother freaked out.
While jenna was sitting there a car pulled up in front of her.
"What's wrong sweetheart?" came a familiar voice. Although this familiar wasn't good. It brought bad thought's to her head. She shot a look at this figure in the drivers seat.
"Just as I thought" she said sniffing, wiping her eyes and retreating to her feet, " Chris." She said in an unimpressed tone.
"What no hugs and kisses?" He said turning of the engine and undoing his seat belt.
"Don't you fucking dare asshole." She warned
"Why not I just want to comfort you" he said opening the door while Jenna took a step backwards.
"Yeah, that's wat you sed last time then you ended up almost fucking raping me, which I'm still going to take you to court by the way." she said still taking a few steps backwards.
"It wasn't rape" he replied looking her up and down biting his lip." you wanted me secretly didn't you."
"HEY" called a voice. Jenna was now pinned against a wall when she turned to see billie joe running down the street.
"And who's this you little skinny ass boyfriend." Chris said to jenna edging closer
"Yes he is my boyfriend so fuck off." she said as tough as she could manage
"Get the FUCK off my girlfriend." Billie Joe shouted now storming towards this unknown stranger.
"Hey man I don't want any trouble" Chris said backing away from ejnna and holdin his arms out.
"Well you shoulda thought about that b4 you came with in one metre of MY girlfriend" Billie Joe exclaimed and with that punched Chris in the nose.
"OUCH, fuck that really does hurt." said Billie Joe holding his red throbbing hand.
"FUCK OFF CHRIS OR YOUR FUCKING DEAD." Jenna shouted as Chris stumbled back into his car.
"Thank you, I don't know what I would've done if you weren't there" Jenna said kssing Billie Joe.
"Yeah well you'd best make it up to me cause my hand fucking hurts, it looks so much easier in the movies!!" he said with a chuckle...
"So what are we doing tonight?" Jenna said questioningly while twisting the phone cord around her finger.
"Well we could go to a gig, or we could stay in and do whatever." he replied cheekily
"Well I'll meet you at your's cause I got another appointment" she said sitting forward and slouching forward putting her spare hand on her forehead and leaning it on her lap.
"Fuck, that sucks ball Jen." He replied.
"Yea...shit mum's home I'll see you tonight...ok bye." she said slamming down the phone.
"Who was that?" her mum asked kicking the door closed with hands full of shopping bags.
"Ohh ummm it was just umm Nicole." Jenna replied shakily, her father had forbid jenna from seeing or talking to Billie Joe ever since one night.
* FLASH BACK *
"JENNA ELISE LODGE GET YOUR ASS IN HERE NOW!" her father shouted
"Shit" she whispered to Billie Joe as she pushed him off her and straightened up her clothes and cautiously walked down stairs.
"What is it dad?" she asked not really wanting to know the answer.
" You and that no good boy that's what!" he replied with a stern look on his face.
"What?" she asked cocking an eyebrow, slightly confused.
"What is this?!" he said pulling an old cigarette out of his pocket.
"Oh... " she said 'Fuck' she thought
" You're killing yourself Jenna, you know that? You're killing yourself!" he father said, with an increase in volume with every word.
"Dad I am 19 years old, I'm pretty much an adult, if we were back in Australia I would be classed as one. Why do you treat me like a child?" she asked while thinking 'god why do I feel like I'm in a movie.'
"You're still under my roof so you have to go by my rules young lady!" he said rolling the magazine that found it's way into his grip.
"Well you know what dad, if you're gonna treat me this way then I'm leaving, I bet you saw that coming, I bet that's EXACTLY what you wanted me to do! You think I don't know what's going on around me? You think I'm just a dumb girl who has to sit around and not say a word until I'm given permission? Well you know what? I'M NOT AND THIS IS NOT THE FUKING 50'S! She shouted at her father, and with that she stormed out the front door.
Billie Joe must've heard what was happening because he had some how slipped past world war 3 and made his way out on to the front steps, where they had two month's prior shared their first kiss.
"I have a change of clothes for you in my bag, if you want to stay at mine tonight, it's the least I can do after causing that" he said twisting his old black shoes into the ground.
"Thank you" she replied wiping the tear from her eyes.
* END OF FLASHBACK *
(and that's where she has been for the past month, but she's home because of her up coming appointment.)
"It better not have been that Billie Joe boy or else you no what you dad will do." He mother said looking at her like she could see right through her.
"Anyway, how is living with that friend of yours? umm what was her name Jessie yes that's it... are you happy there because you can always come back." her mother queried while take all contents of the shopping backs out of the bags and onto the shelves in the pantry.
"Umm yeh good I'm loving it" Jenna replied scuffing her feet as per usual.
"That doesn't sound to convincing" her mother replied
"I'M FINE OK?? DROP IT!!" Jenna snapped
Her mother jumped at this then her face turned rather angry looking.
"Do not talk to me that way young lady, this is exactly why you need to keep seeing Dr. Arnold, between the day you walked out oh this house a month ago and the last time you ran out of the office you have been fine, you have calmed down. But now you're just angry again." Her mother tilted her head sideways slightly as if she was tryin to figure out ... 24365 x 45362³/9879³-5483⅔... or some other insanely hard maths problem in her head.
"Do you really want to know why I was so happy? And what will make me happy again?" Jenna said looking her mother in the eyes not so nicely.
"Yes of course honey, I just want you to be happy, tell me, tell me what you want."
"I want you and dad to let me live my own life, stop stepping all over me like I'm your door mat and treat me the way you treat my brother. I'm sick and tired of being a burden to this family and I'm sick and tired of being treated like I'm 10 years old. And the only time I don't feel that way is when I'm with Billie Joe. He makes me feel like a real person, he makes me laugh and just makes me... happy." Now she was tearing and the once perfectly applied eyeliner was now running down her cheeks. She took a deep breath wiped her eyes and kept going... " The only way I'm going to stop being angry is if you let me live my live and accept the fact that I'm with Billie Joe and I'm not going to stop seeing him... in fact you know what I'm not living with Jessie, I don't even know someone called Jessie! I'm living with Billie Joe and we're happy you heard me HAPPY." she finished getting all worked up again. "Now what's it going to be mum? Are you going to lose me or accept me for who I am and who I am with?".
Jenna sat on the curb crying and cling on the red and throbbing side of her face. She really thought that her mum would accept it, but she didn't. Instead she hit her daughter and told her to never show her face in the house again. Her mother wasn't concerned with Jenna's feelings, only her own, and because Jenna lied her mother freaked out.
While jenna was sitting there a car pulled up in front of her.
"What's wrong sweetheart?" came a familiar voice. Although this familiar wasn't good. It brought bad thought's to her head. She shot a look at this figure in the drivers seat.
"Just as I thought" she said sniffing, wiping her eyes and retreating to her feet, " Chris." She said in an unimpressed tone.
"What no hugs and kisses?" He said turning of the engine and undoing his seat belt.
"Don't you fucking dare asshole." She warned
"Why not I just want to comfort you" he said opening the door while Jenna took a step backwards.
"Yeah, that's wat you sed last time then you ended up almost fucking raping me, which I'm still going to take you to court by the way." she said still taking a few steps backwards.
"It wasn't rape" he replied looking her up and down biting his lip." you wanted me secretly didn't you."
"HEY" called a voice. Jenna was now pinned against a wall when she turned to see billie joe running down the street.
"And who's this you little skinny ass boyfriend." Chris said to jenna edging closer
"Yes he is my boyfriend so fuck off." she said as tough as she could manage
"Get the FUCK off my girlfriend." Billie Joe shouted now storming towards this unknown stranger.
"Hey man I don't want any trouble" Chris said backing away from ejnna and holdin his arms out.
"Well you shoulda thought about that b4 you came with in one metre of MY girlfriend" Billie Joe exclaimed and with that punched Chris in the nose.
"OUCH, fuck that really does hurt." said Billie Joe holding his red throbbing hand.
"FUCK OFF CHRIS OR YOUR FUCKING DEAD." Jenna shouted as Chris stumbled back into his car.
"Thank you, I don't know what I would've done if you weren't there" Jenna said kssing Billie Joe.
"Yeah well you'd best make it up to me cause my hand fucking hurts, it looks so much easier in the movies!!" he said with a chuckle...
