Don't Do This...., chapter 9
When Billie Joe got home that night he felt like shit. He was depressed and a bit drunk. He shouldn't of slept with Claire last night. So fucking stupid.
He walked upstairs and headed for his bedroom.
He quickly stripped down to his underwear and got a little knife out of his bedside
Locker.
He walked over and sat on his window ledge before pulling up the leg of his under wear so his whole thigh was showing.
He looked at the old and faded scars that were already there and a tear fell from his eye. Thank God it was dark last night or Claire would of seen the marks he thought and gently put the knife down on his thigh.
It ripped through his skin and he winced with the pain. The blood poured out but Billie Joe quickly wiped it away with a napkin. He made a few small cuts and then stopped. He let out a sigh of relief. He felt like all the shit that happened the night before was gone.
He wiped the tears from his eyes and threw the napkin in the trash can beside him.
He put the knife back and sat on the edge of his bed with his head in his hands.
He quietly sobbed and rocked back and forth.
Why did he have to cut? He didn't want to but he couldn't help it...
Later on that night he tossed and turned in his bed. He couldn't sleep. He needed to talk to someone or do anything.
He was shaking in his bed.. Must of been the pills I took earlier he thought.
Still shaking he stood up. He opened the door and went to walk out of the room when he jumped.
Claire was just coming out of her room also and she jumped when she saw Billie.
"You ok?" She said when she saw him shaking. "What... Yeah I'm great, Why are you up? He asked and she rested against the wall.
"Couldn't sleep."
"Me neither."
The two of them stood in silence for another few minutes until Billie Joe spoke.
"About last night... I'm sorry if you didn't want it but I thought it was great" He said still slightly shaking.
Claire let out a little smile and looked at her feet. "We shouldnt have don't it but yeah it was great" She said and Billie Joe smiled once again.
"I think we can make it better" He said and walked over to where Claire was standing. "Billie we cant" She started but he put his finger against her lips.
He put one hand around the back of her neck and one resting on the back of her thigh just below her butt.
She couldn't resist those eyes anymore. When he leant down and kissed her she didn't even have the energy to pull away. When he kissed her it was as if her brain shut down and all she could do was kiss her back.
Billie Joe loved the feeling of kissing someone again. It had been so long since he had and these days he loved to be in control.
He moaned against Claires lips and she moved her hands down to rest on Billie Joe'sbutt. "I want you so bad" Billie Joe whispered into her ear and she smiled and bit down on his neck.
Billie Joe pulled off her top and kissed the top of her breast. He then proceeded to take of her pants until she was naked. Soon Billie Joe was naked also and they were still making out in the hall.
"I... Gotta... Go... Get... Something" He said through the kisses. He disappeared into his room.
And what he brought out made Claire smile even more...
He walked upstairs and headed for his bedroom.
He quickly stripped down to his underwear and got a little knife out of his bedside
Locker.
He walked over and sat on his window ledge before pulling up the leg of his under wear so his whole thigh was showing.
He looked at the old and faded scars that were already there and a tear fell from his eye. Thank God it was dark last night or Claire would of seen the marks he thought and gently put the knife down on his thigh.
It ripped through his skin and he winced with the pain. The blood poured out but Billie Joe quickly wiped it away with a napkin. He made a few small cuts and then stopped. He let out a sigh of relief. He felt like all the shit that happened the night before was gone.
He wiped the tears from his eyes and threw the napkin in the trash can beside him.
He put the knife back and sat on the edge of his bed with his head in his hands.
He quietly sobbed and rocked back and forth.
Why did he have to cut? He didn't want to but he couldn't help it...
Later on that night he tossed and turned in his bed. He couldn't sleep. He needed to talk to someone or do anything.
He was shaking in his bed.. Must of been the pills I took earlier he thought.
Still shaking he stood up. He opened the door and went to walk out of the room when he jumped.
Claire was just coming out of her room also and she jumped when she saw Billie.
"You ok?" She said when she saw him shaking. "What... Yeah I'm great, Why are you up? He asked and she rested against the wall.
"Couldn't sleep."
"Me neither."
The two of them stood in silence for another few minutes until Billie Joe spoke.
"About last night... I'm sorry if you didn't want it but I thought it was great" He said still slightly shaking.
Claire let out a little smile and looked at her feet. "We shouldnt have don't it but yeah it was great" She said and Billie Joe smiled once again.
"I think we can make it better" He said and walked over to where Claire was standing. "Billie we cant" She started but he put his finger against her lips.
He put one hand around the back of her neck and one resting on the back of her thigh just below her butt.
She couldn't resist those eyes anymore. When he leant down and kissed her she didn't even have the energy to pull away. When he kissed her it was as if her brain shut down and all she could do was kiss her back.
Billie Joe loved the feeling of kissing someone again. It had been so long since he had and these days he loved to be in control.
He moaned against Claires lips and she moved her hands down to rest on Billie Joe'sbutt. "I want you so bad" Billie Joe whispered into her ear and she smiled and bit down on his neck.
Billie Joe pulled off her top and kissed the top of her breast. He then proceeded to take of her pants until she was naked. Soon Billie Joe was naked also and they were still making out in the hall.
"I... Gotta... Go... Get... Something" He said through the kisses. He disappeared into his room.
And what he brought out made Claire smile even more...
