My Life Got Better.. After I Died, chapter 6
I floated above all of my friends. Travis was wandering around the back of the mosh pit. Kelsey, CJ and Kayla were there too.Travis saw them and just stood there.
"Hi." Cj said quietly.
"Hey." Travis said so quietly it was almost inaudible. I was so happy to be hearing Travis's voice once more. I remember about two weeks ago. Before I killed myself. Travis and I were sitting on my back porch. He knew something was wrong. I told him I couldnt be with him anymore. He was kind of shocked. I was too. I never thought I would break up with him. I was only 17 but I knew I loved Travis. I had decided to kill myself and I wanted to end all of the relationships in my life. I had stayed alive longer than I thought because of Travis, but everyone else was so mean to me. My dad wasnt around anymore and my mom barely even noticed me. She would buy me things all of the time, and expected me to still love her the same. She thought she could buy my love, and for a while she did. My mom would come into my room every night at around 10:00 and say good night to me. That was about it.
Anyways Travis was so important to me and now I would do anything to be standing right next to him jumping up and down to 'Brain Stew' I wanted to cry. I couldnt though. I guess ghosts cant cry.
"Maybe I shouldnt have told her she was obsessed with Green Day." Travis said. I was shocked. I wanted to shake Travis and yell at him, for even thinking he was the reason I killed myself.
"I dont think thats why." Cj said. All of these people thought it was there fault. Really it was everyone at school and all of the preppy people who told me daily how weird I was for listening to people like Green Day and dating Travis. It was also my mom and dads fault. If only they showed me how much they cared, while I was living. I looked back down at all of the people I missed.
"I wish I could just get the chance to say I'm sorry and how much I miss her." Travis said.
"Me too." Kelsey said
"Ditto." Kayla replied.
"I do too, I would be happy if that would happened."Cj said.
These comments made me feel better. It was then that I realized that they actually did care about me. Why couldnt they say things like that when I was alive? I asked myself.
"She used to say that, if she died she would go to a Green Day concert, so maybe she is here." Kelsey said. I forgot that I had even said that. I wanted to show them that I was there, standing right next to them. I floated down and sort of stood next to them (I wasnt really standing though, sort of hovering) I reached my hand out to touch Travis's face. My hand went right through. I went down and touched his watch. I could feel the leather on the watch. I couldnt touch people, only objects. I was so sad. I let a loud yell out. No one could hear me though. I decided to go back up to the stage where Seth was.
"Are you okay?" He asked me.
"I just saw my friends and my ex-boyfriend." I tell Seth not looking at him.
"Oh." he said. I thought for a long time about how I could make my friend realize that I was there. Maybe Green Day could help. I thought for a while more but didnt think of anything. Green Day kept on playing. They were putting on a kick ass show. I didnt know what to do. I decided to go back and see my friends once more. I floated around and eventually saw them.
"Too bad she isnt here." Kayla said.
"Yeah, she might be dissapointed though, none of the guys are wearing ties." Travis said.
"And we all know how much she loved men in ties." Cj said finishing Travis's thought. All 4 of them laughed, but very quietly. Thats when it came to me. They said none of them were wearing a tie, but Billie Joe was wearing one earlier. I went by the stage.
"Where are you going?" Seth asked me.
"I'll be right back." I said floating backstage. I eventually found the red tie Billie Joe had been wearing earlier. I didnt know how I was going to get the tie to Travis, without anyone seeing a floating tie. I still wasnt sure how the ghost thing worked. I didnt know if I made it obvious, like things floating around the room, if I would dissapear, or something. I stayed along the wall and in the shadows, then when I made it to the mosh pit I just blended the tie in with other people. I saw my friends once more. They were even farther away from the pit now. I went to them and dropped the tie in front of Travis. He looked around and looked utterly confused.
"We were just talking...." Cj said trailing off in confusion.
"I told you she was here." Kelsey said. Travis looked around and I think he really did believe I was there because I saw him grip the tie tightly and smile slightly. After that I went bcak to the front of the pit, and floated next to Seth. I rocked out to Green Day, even though no one could see except for Seth.
"Hi." Cj said quietly.
"Hey." Travis said so quietly it was almost inaudible. I was so happy to be hearing Travis's voice once more. I remember about two weeks ago. Before I killed myself. Travis and I were sitting on my back porch. He knew something was wrong. I told him I couldnt be with him anymore. He was kind of shocked. I was too. I never thought I would break up with him. I was only 17 but I knew I loved Travis. I had decided to kill myself and I wanted to end all of the relationships in my life. I had stayed alive longer than I thought because of Travis, but everyone else was so mean to me. My dad wasnt around anymore and my mom barely even noticed me. She would buy me things all of the time, and expected me to still love her the same. She thought she could buy my love, and for a while she did. My mom would come into my room every night at around 10:00 and say good night to me. That was about it.
Anyways Travis was so important to me and now I would do anything to be standing right next to him jumping up and down to 'Brain Stew' I wanted to cry. I couldnt though. I guess ghosts cant cry.
"Maybe I shouldnt have told her she was obsessed with Green Day." Travis said. I was shocked. I wanted to shake Travis and yell at him, for even thinking he was the reason I killed myself.
"I dont think thats why." Cj said. All of these people thought it was there fault. Really it was everyone at school and all of the preppy people who told me daily how weird I was for listening to people like Green Day and dating Travis. It was also my mom and dads fault. If only they showed me how much they cared, while I was living. I looked back down at all of the people I missed.
"I wish I could just get the chance to say I'm sorry and how much I miss her." Travis said.
"Me too." Kelsey said
"Ditto." Kayla replied.
"I do too, I would be happy if that would happened."Cj said.
These comments made me feel better. It was then that I realized that they actually did care about me. Why couldnt they say things like that when I was alive? I asked myself.
"She used to say that, if she died she would go to a Green Day concert, so maybe she is here." Kelsey said. I forgot that I had even said that. I wanted to show them that I was there, standing right next to them. I floated down and sort of stood next to them (I wasnt really standing though, sort of hovering) I reached my hand out to touch Travis's face. My hand went right through. I went down and touched his watch. I could feel the leather on the watch. I couldnt touch people, only objects. I was so sad. I let a loud yell out. No one could hear me though. I decided to go back up to the stage where Seth was.
"Are you okay?" He asked me.
"I just saw my friends and my ex-boyfriend." I tell Seth not looking at him.
"Oh." he said. I thought for a long time about how I could make my friend realize that I was there. Maybe Green Day could help. I thought for a while more but didnt think of anything. Green Day kept on playing. They were putting on a kick ass show. I didnt know what to do. I decided to go back and see my friends once more. I floated around and eventually saw them.
"Too bad she isnt here." Kayla said.
"Yeah, she might be dissapointed though, none of the guys are wearing ties." Travis said.
"And we all know how much she loved men in ties." Cj said finishing Travis's thought. All 4 of them laughed, but very quietly. Thats when it came to me. They said none of them were wearing a tie, but Billie Joe was wearing one earlier. I went by the stage.
"Where are you going?" Seth asked me.
"I'll be right back." I said floating backstage. I eventually found the red tie Billie Joe had been wearing earlier. I didnt know how I was going to get the tie to Travis, without anyone seeing a floating tie. I still wasnt sure how the ghost thing worked. I didnt know if I made it obvious, like things floating around the room, if I would dissapear, or something. I stayed along the wall and in the shadows, then when I made it to the mosh pit I just blended the tie in with other people. I saw my friends once more. They were even farther away from the pit now. I went to them and dropped the tie in front of Travis. He looked around and looked utterly confused.
"We were just talking...." Cj said trailing off in confusion.
"I told you she was here." Kelsey said. Travis looked around and I think he really did believe I was there because I saw him grip the tie tightly and smile slightly. After that I went bcak to the front of the pit, and floated next to Seth. I rocked out to Green Day, even though no one could see except for Seth.
