Best Kept Secret, Biggest Mistake, chapter 7
*Billie Joe's POV*
I ran out of the building. I couldn't stand this anymore. I couldn't stand fighting with Mike this way. He'd been my best friend as long as I could remember, and we never fought like this before. And I couldn't help but be in love with Kaitlin. I knew I couldn't leave her now. Not after what we'd gone through together. I couldn't do that to her or myself.
But what were we ever gonna be anyways. Mike would never let us do anything. Not now, not ever. I wanted us to amount to more than I knew we ever could. I don't know why I thought me and her would be able to work out. How could I have been so stupid?
The sun was just setting over the water of the bay. It was really quite beautiful. I hadn't really taken the time to just look at things anymore. It was a shame. I wished that things were a lot simpler than they were now. Rarely did I ever get lost in my thoughts anymore. I never had the time to think alone. And man, did I ever need that time.
"What do I do?" I asked myself, sitting down on a bench that I had come across as I journeyed the to the oceans edge from the motel. I put my head in my hands and closed my eyes. What was the point of this anymore? I felt like I could take my life and nobody would care.
But I wouldn't do that.
I couldn't do that.
Kaitlin needed me. And I knew that I needed her. What more could we do now? Things were falling apart and we were right in the middle of it. The entire world seemed to be falling apart around us, and I was just holding tightly to her, hoping to god that she wouldn't get hurt. But it was a little late for that.
I hated to even think about it at all. I hated myself for it. But I was beginning to wish that none of this had happened. Everything, that none of it had happened. I regretted me and Kaitlin ever being together. I regretted it all. I regretted Ellie. I loved it all so much. I wanted it gone.
*Mikes POV*
I ran out of that room. I couldn't stand what this whole thing was doing to me. I'd never felt like this before. I mean, she was my little sister... that I loved more than anything. She was all that I had left.
I slid down the wall near the staircase and sat on the floor, finally taking a moment to think for the first time in however long. Was it really time for me to let her go? Or should I hold on ever longer? I really wasn't sure... honestly.
Maybe I could let her go. She wouldn't be completely gone now would she? And after all, Billie Joe WAS my best friend. He would take care of her... just like he has been.
I stood up from the ground and realized what exactly I was thinking of. I had been making the worst mistake of my life. I ran down the stairs and into the parking lot. I unlocked the car as fast as I could, kinda fumbling the keys as I did so. Once I got it open I struggled once again, trying to turn the car one.
But once I did, I ripped out of the parking lot and began down the streets, knowing the Billie Joe couldn't have gone far.
I ran out of the building. I couldn't stand this anymore. I couldn't stand fighting with Mike this way. He'd been my best friend as long as I could remember, and we never fought like this before. And I couldn't help but be in love with Kaitlin. I knew I couldn't leave her now. Not after what we'd gone through together. I couldn't do that to her or myself.
But what were we ever gonna be anyways. Mike would never let us do anything. Not now, not ever. I wanted us to amount to more than I knew we ever could. I don't know why I thought me and her would be able to work out. How could I have been so stupid?
The sun was just setting over the water of the bay. It was really quite beautiful. I hadn't really taken the time to just look at things anymore. It was a shame. I wished that things were a lot simpler than they were now. Rarely did I ever get lost in my thoughts anymore. I never had the time to think alone. And man, did I ever need that time.
"What do I do?" I asked myself, sitting down on a bench that I had come across as I journeyed the to the oceans edge from the motel. I put my head in my hands and closed my eyes. What was the point of this anymore? I felt like I could take my life and nobody would care.
But I wouldn't do that.
I couldn't do that.
Kaitlin needed me. And I knew that I needed her. What more could we do now? Things were falling apart and we were right in the middle of it. The entire world seemed to be falling apart around us, and I was just holding tightly to her, hoping to god that she wouldn't get hurt. But it was a little late for that.
I hated to even think about it at all. I hated myself for it. But I was beginning to wish that none of this had happened. Everything, that none of it had happened. I regretted me and Kaitlin ever being together. I regretted it all. I regretted Ellie. I loved it all so much. I wanted it gone.
*Mikes POV*
I ran out of that room. I couldn't stand what this whole thing was doing to me. I'd never felt like this before. I mean, she was my little sister... that I loved more than anything. She was all that I had left.
I slid down the wall near the staircase and sat on the floor, finally taking a moment to think for the first time in however long. Was it really time for me to let her go? Or should I hold on ever longer? I really wasn't sure... honestly.
Maybe I could let her go. She wouldn't be completely gone now would she? And after all, Billie Joe WAS my best friend. He would take care of her... just like he has been.
I stood up from the ground and realized what exactly I was thinking of. I had been making the worst mistake of my life. I ran down the stairs and into the parking lot. I unlocked the car as fast as I could, kinda fumbling the keys as I did so. Once I got it open I struggled once again, trying to turn the car one.
But once I did, I ripped out of the parking lot and began down the streets, knowing the Billie Joe couldn't have gone far.
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