Would You Be Mine?, chapter 11
Recap
Then Mike said: "Sarah, look!" and pointed to two figures in the distance, running in our direction: Billie and Tré. I was so happy to see Billie. But I was scared of his reaction. Would he understand?
End recap
Tré instantly hugged me and said how happy he was that I'm okay. Billie just sat next to me without saying a word. Fuck. He was pissed. Mel, Mika and Tré said bye and left Billie and me alone.
"Billie, I'm sorry." I said almost whispering.
"You scared the shit outta me." Billie said. He was angry.
I didn't reply. I couldn't say anything. I felt so ashamed.
"What did I do that made you run away?" Billie asked accusingly.
"You didn't do anything."
"But then why the hell did you run away from me?" he asked looking me deep into the eyes. I looked down at my shoes trying to avoid his sight.
"I don't know... Are you mad at me?" I asked hoping he wasn't
"Well you scared me. And I'm disappointed."
"Why disappointed?" I asked concerned
He looked at me again. Before I could even look away from him he lifted my chin with his hand and looked me deep into the eyes. "Because you don't trust me. You know you can tell me anything." he said in a warm voice.
"I know" I said hugging him. It felt so great. I lightly cried on his shoulder.
"Tell me what happened" he asked after some minutes.
I told him everything about the phone call and my feelings and why I ran away.
"Hun, you don't need to hide anything from me. Please always remember that you can tell me anything and I won't laugh at you or something. I never would. I love you." he said kissing my forehead and hugging me.
"Thank you so much Billie. I love you too."
I felt so safe in his arms. We sat there some minutes just hugging and watching the ocean. Then I started freezing.
"You wanna ago home?" Billie asked.
"Yeah I'm cold."
"OK" Billie said giving me his jacket.
On our way home Billie described me where we were and where to go so that I wouldn't get lost again.
"Home, sweet home" Billie said opening the door for me. I giggled. "You haven't been away that long" I said. "Yeah, but it feels so good being back - with you." Billie said kissing me.
"You want something to eat?" Billie asked.
"Yeah, I'm starving"
"Let me see what we have" Billie said going into the kitchen.
"How about some pizza?" he screamed out of the kitchen.
"Fine by me. I love pizza" I screamed.
"OK"
Billie made some pizza while I sat down and watched TV. Then he sat next to me and we were eating our pizza. "Hmmm... Yami, yami." I said laughing.
"Yami, yami?" he laughed
"Yeah, yami, yami." I giggled. Billie then started to tickle me. "Stop Billie, Stop! Not fair." I screamed. I grabbed a piece of pizza and threw it into his face. "Hey, wait, wait, sweet revenge" he said running after me. I ran outside into the garden. Unfortunately Billie was way faster than me so he caught me. "Ha, got you" he said proud putting his arms around my waist and turning me to face him.
"Yeah, you got me. I surrender. And now?" I giggled.
"Why you giggling?"
"Because you still have pizza on your face."
"I know I do and I really need to clean it I guess... " he said with an evil grin. "... And I will" With that he pushed me into the pool with him. Splash! I laughed so hard I couldn't even breathe. I tried to swim away from him but he followed. He again put his arms around me this time kissing my neck. I turned around to face him. He put away my hair and leaned in to kiss me. I replied his kiss making in more passionate. He bit my bottom lip asking me to let his tongue enter my mouth. I did so. Our tongues touched. We started to make out in the pool. 'God he is such a great kisser' I thought to myself. I couldn't believe life seemed so good. Everything was perfect.
We didn't get more intimate, because I wanted to slow things down a little bit. I still was scared and flinched when Billie touched my breasts or my thighs. "It's OK, we'll take it slow" he said kissing me. I still wasn't getting over the pain I felt when Tom tired to rape me. "We'll work on that" Billie said smiling.
We walked back into the house and dried ourselves. Then both of us went to bed. Billie followed me to my room, kissed me goodnight and then went to his room to sleep. I fell asleep pretty fast. But I woke up having a bad dream. I dreamed I was getting raped by Tom. I screamed and screamed but no one was there. Then I woke up. I was sweating and crying. I tried to fall asleep again but I couldn't. I started to sing:
Scare me every night
Against you I will fight
Till the sun will rise
I'm living this hell
Violent dreams.
And when it's light
The demons taking flight
Out of mind and sight
I'm rid of this spell
Violent dreams.
"It'll get better. It's just a dream" I thought to myself trying to sleep again. I fell back to sleep again but woke up again having the same bad dream. I stood up and walked into Billie's room. He was sleeping. I decided not to wake him up. I laid in his bed cuddling up to him. Suddenly he tuned around and faced me.
"I thought you were asleep" I said.
"No I wasn't I heard you coming in". He said.
"What's wrong?" Billie asked.
"I had a bad dream" I answered.
"Stay with me. I'll protect you. Nothing will happen" he said putting his arm around me.
Then Mike said: "Sarah, look!" and pointed to two figures in the distance, running in our direction: Billie and Tré. I was so happy to see Billie. But I was scared of his reaction. Would he understand?
End recap
Tré instantly hugged me and said how happy he was that I'm okay. Billie just sat next to me without saying a word. Fuck. He was pissed. Mel, Mika and Tré said bye and left Billie and me alone.
"Billie, I'm sorry." I said almost whispering.
"You scared the shit outta me." Billie said. He was angry.
I didn't reply. I couldn't say anything. I felt so ashamed.
"What did I do that made you run away?" Billie asked accusingly.
"You didn't do anything."
"But then why the hell did you run away from me?" he asked looking me deep into the eyes. I looked down at my shoes trying to avoid his sight.
"I don't know... Are you mad at me?" I asked hoping he wasn't
"Well you scared me. And I'm disappointed."
"Why disappointed?" I asked concerned
He looked at me again. Before I could even look away from him he lifted my chin with his hand and looked me deep into the eyes. "Because you don't trust me. You know you can tell me anything." he said in a warm voice.
"I know" I said hugging him. It felt so great. I lightly cried on his shoulder.
"Tell me what happened" he asked after some minutes.
I told him everything about the phone call and my feelings and why I ran away.
"Hun, you don't need to hide anything from me. Please always remember that you can tell me anything and I won't laugh at you or something. I never would. I love you." he said kissing my forehead and hugging me.
"Thank you so much Billie. I love you too."
I felt so safe in his arms. We sat there some minutes just hugging and watching the ocean. Then I started freezing.
"You wanna ago home?" Billie asked.
"Yeah I'm cold."
"OK" Billie said giving me his jacket.
On our way home Billie described me where we were and where to go so that I wouldn't get lost again.
"Home, sweet home" Billie said opening the door for me. I giggled. "You haven't been away that long" I said. "Yeah, but it feels so good being back - with you." Billie said kissing me.
"You want something to eat?" Billie asked.
"Yeah, I'm starving"
"Let me see what we have" Billie said going into the kitchen.
"How about some pizza?" he screamed out of the kitchen.
"Fine by me. I love pizza" I screamed.
"OK"
Billie made some pizza while I sat down and watched TV. Then he sat next to me and we were eating our pizza. "Hmmm... Yami, yami." I said laughing.
"Yami, yami?" he laughed
"Yeah, yami, yami." I giggled. Billie then started to tickle me. "Stop Billie, Stop! Not fair." I screamed. I grabbed a piece of pizza and threw it into his face. "Hey, wait, wait, sweet revenge" he said running after me. I ran outside into the garden. Unfortunately Billie was way faster than me so he caught me. "Ha, got you" he said proud putting his arms around my waist and turning me to face him.
"Yeah, you got me. I surrender. And now?" I giggled.
"Why you giggling?"
"Because you still have pizza on your face."
"I know I do and I really need to clean it I guess... " he said with an evil grin. "... And I will" With that he pushed me into the pool with him. Splash! I laughed so hard I couldn't even breathe. I tried to swim away from him but he followed. He again put his arms around me this time kissing my neck. I turned around to face him. He put away my hair and leaned in to kiss me. I replied his kiss making in more passionate. He bit my bottom lip asking me to let his tongue enter my mouth. I did so. Our tongues touched. We started to make out in the pool. 'God he is such a great kisser' I thought to myself. I couldn't believe life seemed so good. Everything was perfect.
We didn't get more intimate, because I wanted to slow things down a little bit. I still was scared and flinched when Billie touched my breasts or my thighs. "It's OK, we'll take it slow" he said kissing me. I still wasn't getting over the pain I felt when Tom tired to rape me. "We'll work on that" Billie said smiling.
We walked back into the house and dried ourselves. Then both of us went to bed. Billie followed me to my room, kissed me goodnight and then went to his room to sleep. I fell asleep pretty fast. But I woke up having a bad dream. I dreamed I was getting raped by Tom. I screamed and screamed but no one was there. Then I woke up. I was sweating and crying. I tried to fall asleep again but I couldn't. I started to sing:
Scare me every night
Against you I will fight
Till the sun will rise
I'm living this hell
Violent dreams.
And when it's light
The demons taking flight
Out of mind and sight
I'm rid of this spell
Violent dreams.
"It'll get better. It's just a dream" I thought to myself trying to sleep again. I fell back to sleep again but woke up again having the same bad dream. I stood up and walked into Billie's room. He was sleeping. I decided not to wake him up. I laid in his bed cuddling up to him. Suddenly he tuned around and faced me.
"I thought you were asleep" I said.
"No I wasn't I heard you coming in". He said.
"What's wrong?" Billie asked.
"I had a bad dream" I answered.
"Stay with me. I'll protect you. Nothing will happen" he said putting his arm around me.
