A New Beginning, An Old Life, chapter 3
Crack.
Crack.
I groan as I get out of bed again. What the hell do they want?!?
"What is it?" I ask when the window's open.
Billie is the only one there.
"I need someone to talk to, and... Tre and Mike... I can't really talk to them about this."
"And it can't wait?" I mutter, but I'm already climbing out the window.
"So, what's up?" I ask when I'm in the garden with him.
"I... " he took a deep breath. "I think I'm in love with Mike!"
"What?"
"I think I'm in love with Mike!" he said, with a look of despair.
"And what's the problem with that?"
"Well, he's straight. And he likes you."
"Oh?" I say, momentarily stunned by this, more so than Billie's confession.
"Yeah. So you can see why this is messed up."
"Yeah... What about Tre?"
"What about him?"
"Who does he fancy?"
"Er... A different girl each week," Billie laughed, not managing to mask the anxiety in his face.
"So are you going to tell him?" I ask.
"Who?"
"Mike! Are you going to tell him?"
"I can't! He'd freak out!"
"He might not."
"He would. Besides, he likes you."
"Why?"
"I don't know but I have to admit the two of you suit. If - if he asks you out, please don't say no because of me," Billie says, and I can see how hard it is for him to say it.
"But that's not fair to you."
"I know, but I want him to be happy."
"That's sweet. Well, I'm sure something will work itself out. Don't worry too much about it. But I'm tired," I yawn. "So I'm gonna go back to bed. See you tomorrow."
Well, this is... Weird. It's like some kind of bizarre soap opera, or maybe something that should appear on a chat show. I can see it now: "I have a gay crush on my best friend who fancies my other friend."
I wonder what will happen at school tomorrow. Because I'll end up acting really awkwardly around Mike, because he apparently fancies me.
And how do I feel about that? I mean, he's a good friend, and thinking about he is hot - he has the most amazing bright blue eyes - but I don't know. If anything did happen between us, I'd feel too guilty about Billie.
When I got on the bus that morning I tried not to think about it. I sat next to Tre, so I didn't have to talk to Billie or Mike then. I tried to listen to what they were talking about, but they were practically whispering. But I don't think Billie told him that he loves him. I think he should.
But anyway, Mike was acting just how he had all week with me, which made me wonder if it was just Billie guessing.
It was all too confusing, so I actually focussed on my work for once so I didn't have to think about it. But even that didn't really work.
At break I was way quieter than normal, thinking about it all. I'm glad Billie likes me enough to confide in me, but I think I'd rather he didn't, because I don't really know how to deal with this all.
Mike and Tre both think something's upsetting me. They're trying to find out what's wrong.
"There's something wrong," Tre insists. "You're weirdly quiet."
"It's nothing... Just... " a sudden thought comes to me. "It's just PMS," I tell them, watching them all wince slightly.
That's always the best excuse with guys.
At the end of the day me and Mike were walking out of math's.
"Hey, are you doing anything later?" he asked suddenly.
"Not that I know of... Why?"
"Well, I was wondering... Do you wanna meet up or something?"
"Er... Sure," I say, feeling more than anxious.
What the hell was I going to say to him if he Billie's right? How am I not going to be able to tell him what I know?
I sighed as we all got on the bus. I don't think I've been so confused in... Well, ever actually.
Mike came round to my house - using the front door this time.
"Hello there," my Mum said. "You must be here for Alex?"
"Yeah," I hear Mike say.
"Did you meet her at school then? I'm glad she's making friends... I was worried she was a little anti social!"
"Mum!" I cry as I come down the stairs. "You can stop confiding all your worries and theories about me now! Mike, lets go."
We ended up sitting in this little park thing.
"So, where's Billie and Tre?" I ask to break the awkward silence.
"I think they're sorting out something for our band."
"Cool, you have a band?"
"Yeah, I play bass, Billie plays guitar and sings and Tre plays drums. This guy called John used to play drums for us, but... He left."
"Why?"
"He had to move."
"Oh. Well, at least you have Tre now."
"Yeah."
Another awkward silence. Then -
"Alex, I need to talk to you about something."
Crack.
I groan as I get out of bed again. What the hell do they want?!?
"What is it?" I ask when the window's open.
Billie is the only one there.
"I need someone to talk to, and... Tre and Mike... I can't really talk to them about this."
"And it can't wait?" I mutter, but I'm already climbing out the window.
"So, what's up?" I ask when I'm in the garden with him.
"I... " he took a deep breath. "I think I'm in love with Mike!"
"What?"
"I think I'm in love with Mike!" he said, with a look of despair.
"And what's the problem with that?"
"Well, he's straight. And he likes you."
"Oh?" I say, momentarily stunned by this, more so than Billie's confession.
"Yeah. So you can see why this is messed up."
"Yeah... What about Tre?"
"What about him?"
"Who does he fancy?"
"Er... A different girl each week," Billie laughed, not managing to mask the anxiety in his face.
"So are you going to tell him?" I ask.
"Who?"
"Mike! Are you going to tell him?"
"I can't! He'd freak out!"
"He might not."
"He would. Besides, he likes you."
"Why?"
"I don't know but I have to admit the two of you suit. If - if he asks you out, please don't say no because of me," Billie says, and I can see how hard it is for him to say it.
"But that's not fair to you."
"I know, but I want him to be happy."
"That's sweet. Well, I'm sure something will work itself out. Don't worry too much about it. But I'm tired," I yawn. "So I'm gonna go back to bed. See you tomorrow."
Well, this is... Weird. It's like some kind of bizarre soap opera, or maybe something that should appear on a chat show. I can see it now: "I have a gay crush on my best friend who fancies my other friend."
I wonder what will happen at school tomorrow. Because I'll end up acting really awkwardly around Mike, because he apparently fancies me.
And how do I feel about that? I mean, he's a good friend, and thinking about he is hot - he has the most amazing bright blue eyes - but I don't know. If anything did happen between us, I'd feel too guilty about Billie.
When I got on the bus that morning I tried not to think about it. I sat next to Tre, so I didn't have to talk to Billie or Mike then. I tried to listen to what they were talking about, but they were practically whispering. But I don't think Billie told him that he loves him. I think he should.
But anyway, Mike was acting just how he had all week with me, which made me wonder if it was just Billie guessing.
It was all too confusing, so I actually focussed on my work for once so I didn't have to think about it. But even that didn't really work.
At break I was way quieter than normal, thinking about it all. I'm glad Billie likes me enough to confide in me, but I think I'd rather he didn't, because I don't really know how to deal with this all.
Mike and Tre both think something's upsetting me. They're trying to find out what's wrong.
"There's something wrong," Tre insists. "You're weirdly quiet."
"It's nothing... Just... " a sudden thought comes to me. "It's just PMS," I tell them, watching them all wince slightly.
That's always the best excuse with guys.
At the end of the day me and Mike were walking out of math's.
"Hey, are you doing anything later?" he asked suddenly.
"Not that I know of... Why?"
"Well, I was wondering... Do you wanna meet up or something?"
"Er... Sure," I say, feeling more than anxious.
What the hell was I going to say to him if he Billie's right? How am I not going to be able to tell him what I know?
I sighed as we all got on the bus. I don't think I've been so confused in... Well, ever actually.
Mike came round to my house - using the front door this time.
"Hello there," my Mum said. "You must be here for Alex?"
"Yeah," I hear Mike say.
"Did you meet her at school then? I'm glad she's making friends... I was worried she was a little anti social!"
"Mum!" I cry as I come down the stairs. "You can stop confiding all your worries and theories about me now! Mike, lets go."
We ended up sitting in this little park thing.
"So, where's Billie and Tre?" I ask to break the awkward silence.
"I think they're sorting out something for our band."
"Cool, you have a band?"
"Yeah, I play bass, Billie plays guitar and sings and Tre plays drums. This guy called John used to play drums for us, but... He left."
"Why?"
"He had to move."
"Oh. Well, at least you have Tre now."
"Yeah."
Another awkward silence. Then -
"Alex, I need to talk to you about something."
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