Rock 'n' Roll Can Be Dangerous And Fun At The Same Time, chapter 15

Time went by and the only contact were rare calls of the guys. Their new tour had started in America and they were really busy. Me, too, because I had to pass my exams. It was a stressing time and the first doubts of a relationship with Billie grew within me. It was such a long distance and we had less contact. Maybe we should break up...

But one day he wrote me a letter that changed my mind completely. He wrote how much he missed me and that he felt a huge hole inside of himself. And at the end of the letter there was a poem. He added that he sang the poem a different times on concerts:


I sit alone in my bedroom
Staring at the walls
I've been up all damn night long
My pulse is speeding
My love is yearning

I hold my breath and close my eyes and...
Dream about her
Cause she's 2000 light years away
She holds my malakite so tight so...
Never let go

Cause she's 2000 light years away
Years Away!

I sit outside and watch the sunrise
Lookout as far as I can
I can't see her, but in the distance
I hear some laughter,
We laugh together

I hold my breath and close my eyes and...
Dream about her
Cause she's 2000 light years away
She holds my malakite so tight so...
Never let go
Cause she's 2000 light years away
Years Away!


Tears began to roll down as I read the letter. It was so romantic writing a song about me. I decided to give us the time we needed. I wanted to invest everything in this relationship.
During the examinations I became sick. I puked every morning and I felt really bad. But I had to pass the exams. Some days later all exams were done but I still felt horrible. I began to eat more. I was hungry all the time. I decided to call my best friend because I became worried about my state. The phone rang.
"Hello?" a female voice asked.
"Hi Manuela! This is Surena!" I answered.
"Hi sweetheart! How are you?" she asked surprised.
"Yeah... that's why I call you. I still don't feel good. I have to puke all the time. Can you come to me?" I asked. I really needed someone who speak with me. I was frightened.
"Ok... wait some minutes. I'll be there in some minutes. Bye." She said.
"Bye!" I answered and hung up.

After about 8 minutes the doorbell rang. It was Manuela. I opened the door and let her in. She took a seat on the sofa in the living room.
"Do you want something to eat or drink?" I asked her friendly.
"No, thanks. I haven't much time. My mom forced me to tidy up my room. Sorry. So what's your problem?" she asked while leaning forward me.
"I think I'm pregnant, Manuela. I puke all the time and eat and eat and eat. Like I would eat for two. The facts are clear. You remember Billie Joe?" I asked quickly.
"Yes, I think so. The guy you met at the hotel, right?... um... you mean... you have-" I interrupted her.
"slept with him? Yes. The last night before I came back." I looked sad because I remembered the wonderful time. Manuela was shocked. Her mouth dropped open and she looked directly into my eyes.
"You mean, you're pregnant of Billie Joe Armstrong? The lead singer of Green Day?" she asked still shocked.
"Yes, I believe."
"You're such a lucky chick. Congratulations!" she yelled.
Suddenly the door swung open. My mom came in.
"Hi! Who has won something?" she joked.
"No one. Hi mom!" I said trying to change the subject.
"Hi Mrs. Andrews!" Manuela said with a suspicious voice.
"What's wrong with you? You look kind of shocked." My mom mentioned.
"No, it's nothing. I only talk to Manuela."
"Fine, bye." She said.
"Bye" Manuela and I said in unision. I let out a sigh of relief. I couldn't tell my mom about it. It was too early to tell her and too early to get a baby. FUCK!!! What should I do?
"I have to be sure. I'll go to a doctor." I said quickly after my mom has left the room.
"Good idea. Now?" Manuela asked.
"Yes, I need to know!" I yelled and grabbed her hand.