Redundant, chapter 28
During two weeks, I never felt so happy. My most desired woman in the entire universe wouldn't leave me for a split second. That included the bathroom. She took showers with me and watched me piss in the toilet bowl. Whoever thought that I could have fun when pissing?
But the bad news is, only one more day to do stuff together.
Fuck.
***
"Dear god," I whispered to Adrienne as she rested her head on my chest "these past two weeks have gone so fast."
"I know," she murmured "what a shame."
The both of us were resting on mom's bed since she was gone for the night. What did my lover and I do this evening? Nothing. We just laid there and talked.
"Tomorrow you're finally leaving." I continued to whisper.
"That's right," she replied "at 6pm I have to go back home, pack up the rest of my stuff and leave, I guess."
There was silence for a moment. I had a think about what it would be like having her gone. It wasn't pretty. I felt a sudden rush of anger through me as I just slipped off the bed and yelled:
"I'm sorry, I can't do this!"
"Can't do what?" Adrienne asked in confusion.
"I don't even know!" I continued yelling "I just can't stand the tension. I'm going to lose you! I can't take it!"
"Live strong, damnit!" she yelled at me "You will survive without me. Trust me!"
"See?!" I said "you do want to split up with me!"
"No I don't!" she objected "I am just trying to say that we'll be, I don't know. World's apart maybe, however we will still be together. You just don't seem to understand."
"I do understand" I growled "I just don't want to go through with this! I never want to leave you. Never ever! I love you more than anything and watching you pretty much slip away from me is too much for me to handle."
"You're going to have to put up with it," she said in a low voice "I am sorry. Does my last day here have to turn out like shit?"
"I guess not," I sighed "sorry I growled at you. I just can't do this even though I have to."
"That's all I asked."
We got back into our lazy position on the bed and technically fell asleep and slept until morning came.
***
[The Doom Bringer.]
***
It was here. The day finally arrived.
"Fuck." I murmured to myself.
"What's wrong, baby?" Adrienne asked as she woke up from the murmur of my voice.
"Today," I whimpered "it's here."
"Oh BJ," she said "I know this is hard to put up with, but I'm sorry."
"No need to apologize anymore," I said, getting irritated by her millions of apologies "I've heard them enough. Let's just spend these last few hours together wisely. Okay?"
She nodded.
Time flew by. 6:00 pm arrived so fast.
Fuck.
That was the only adjective I could come up with at this very moment.
We stood at the front door for our final good bye. Neither of us wanted this moment to occur, but it had to. For the final time, we stared in each other's eyes, thinking about everything we would miss.
"Well," I sighed "I guess this is it."
"True," she whispered as she looked down at her feet "Live long and live strong."
We smiled at each other before coming in for our final embrace and make out. It didn't feel the same. It was weird in some ways.
The embrace broke as we looked into each others eyes one more time.
"I will always love you," she whispered "Billie Joe Armstrong."
"I will always be there for you," I whispered back "Adrienne Nesser."
We had one more pash before she broke away and started walking down my front yard. Before she reached the corner and disappeared, we took one more glance at each other. She turned away and it all ended there.
She was gone.
The pain and the tension grew up inside as I rushed upstairs to my bedroom and slammed my door. I had to release it all. I jumped on my bed, buried my face in my pillow and cried as loud as I could. I cried, screamed and fought away all my anger.
However, it was still there. The pain remained in me. The pain and the words she spoke.
"Live long and live strong." Those words echoed through my mind.
Those were the only things that could keep me happy from now. I smiled at the thoughts of her speaking those words and thought that maybe there was hope in this world for me...
But the bad news is, only one more day to do stuff together.
Fuck.
***
"Dear god," I whispered to Adrienne as she rested her head on my chest "these past two weeks have gone so fast."
"I know," she murmured "what a shame."
The both of us were resting on mom's bed since she was gone for the night. What did my lover and I do this evening? Nothing. We just laid there and talked.
"Tomorrow you're finally leaving." I continued to whisper.
"That's right," she replied "at 6pm I have to go back home, pack up the rest of my stuff and leave, I guess."
There was silence for a moment. I had a think about what it would be like having her gone. It wasn't pretty. I felt a sudden rush of anger through me as I just slipped off the bed and yelled:
"I'm sorry, I can't do this!"
"Can't do what?" Adrienne asked in confusion.
"I don't even know!" I continued yelling "I just can't stand the tension. I'm going to lose you! I can't take it!"
"Live strong, damnit!" she yelled at me "You will survive without me. Trust me!"
"See?!" I said "you do want to split up with me!"
"No I don't!" she objected "I am just trying to say that we'll be, I don't know. World's apart maybe, however we will still be together. You just don't seem to understand."
"I do understand" I growled "I just don't want to go through with this! I never want to leave you. Never ever! I love you more than anything and watching you pretty much slip away from me is too much for me to handle."
"You're going to have to put up with it," she said in a low voice "I am sorry. Does my last day here have to turn out like shit?"
"I guess not," I sighed "sorry I growled at you. I just can't do this even though I have to."
"That's all I asked."
We got back into our lazy position on the bed and technically fell asleep and slept until morning came.
***
[The Doom Bringer.]
***
It was here. The day finally arrived.
"Fuck." I murmured to myself.
"What's wrong, baby?" Adrienne asked as she woke up from the murmur of my voice.
"Today," I whimpered "it's here."
"Oh BJ," she said "I know this is hard to put up with, but I'm sorry."
"No need to apologize anymore," I said, getting irritated by her millions of apologies "I've heard them enough. Let's just spend these last few hours together wisely. Okay?"
She nodded.
Time flew by. 6:00 pm arrived so fast.
Fuck.
That was the only adjective I could come up with at this very moment.
We stood at the front door for our final good bye. Neither of us wanted this moment to occur, but it had to. For the final time, we stared in each other's eyes, thinking about everything we would miss.
"Well," I sighed "I guess this is it."
"True," she whispered as she looked down at her feet "Live long and live strong."
We smiled at each other before coming in for our final embrace and make out. It didn't feel the same. It was weird in some ways.
The embrace broke as we looked into each others eyes one more time.
"I will always love you," she whispered "Billie Joe Armstrong."
"I will always be there for you," I whispered back "Adrienne Nesser."
We had one more pash before she broke away and started walking down my front yard. Before she reached the corner and disappeared, we took one more glance at each other. She turned away and it all ended there.
She was gone.
The pain and the tension grew up inside as I rushed upstairs to my bedroom and slammed my door. I had to release it all. I jumped on my bed, buried my face in my pillow and cried as loud as I could. I cried, screamed and fought away all my anger.
However, it was still there. The pain remained in me. The pain and the words she spoke.
"Live long and live strong." Those words echoed through my mind.
Those were the only things that could keep me happy from now. I smiled at the thoughts of her speaking those words and thought that maybe there was hope in this world for me...
