Paper Lanterns, chapter 8
*Sadie's point of view*
We arrived at the beach. And of course; It was deseted because it had been raining and infact, It still was.
Anyways. I took off my clothes and I could sense that someone was looking at me. So I turn around and I could see Billie Joe just staring at me.
He wasnt fully undressed yet. He still had his boxers on.
"Why do you still have your boxers on.. When Im like butt naked?" I asked Billie Joe, chuckling and looking at him for an answer to my question.
"Do I have to take my boxers off?" He asked whining like a little kid.
"And here. I thought you'd be the one to just take your clothes off and run in the water. Not the other way around" I said giggling.
"Fine" Was his response. All of a sudden he just takes his boxers off and runs in the water freely.
"Come on it. The water's so warm!" He said swimming around.
"Oh yeah.. Are you sure you didnt just piss in it?" I asked smirking.
"I'm sure. Just come in or I'll have to come and get you"Billie Joe said with a cheeky smile splastered across his face
"Fine, fine. But it better be warm like you said or I'll have to beat you up"I ran upto the water and jumped in. FUCK! It actually was warm!
"Oh my fucking god dammit. You were right! Damn." I said as I pretended to do a mad face.
"See. I would never lie to you." He said coming up behind me and putting his arms around my waist
"Yeah. I'm so sure" I said laughing
Over the days I started writing some songs. For some reason they were all emo and suicidal.
Could I really be turning suicidal or was this just a phase?
Could it be all the pain my parents had put me through?All the suffering I had done over the years.
Well, if I turn emo.. Im most likely to turn suicidal, and being suicidal will just get me to kill myself by cutting..
But wait; I dont even want to die, let alone cut.
One night. I had a dream. Everything was going perfectly fine. And nothing was going wrong until I took out a knife and started cutting myself then I stabbed myself in the heart.
"Ahhhhhh" I screamed. I had woken up thank god.
"Hun, whats the matter?" Billie Joe said sleepily, but he hugged me.
"Dont let me kill myself. I dont want to die. Stay with me. Dont leave me" I said in a panic. I think I was close to having a panic attack at any moment.
" I was never going to let you leave me and why would you want to kill yourself?" He asked trying to come me down.
I pushed his question aside and just told him to keep his promiss.
And it worked. He said he'd keep his promis about not leaving me and not letting me kill myself.
Slowly I started to drift off to sleep with Billie Joe singing to me softly.
We arrived at the beach. And of course; It was deseted because it had been raining and infact, It still was.
Anyways. I took off my clothes and I could sense that someone was looking at me. So I turn around and I could see Billie Joe just staring at me.
He wasnt fully undressed yet. He still had his boxers on.
"Why do you still have your boxers on.. When Im like butt naked?" I asked Billie Joe, chuckling and looking at him for an answer to my question.
"Do I have to take my boxers off?" He asked whining like a little kid.
"And here. I thought you'd be the one to just take your clothes off and run in the water. Not the other way around" I said giggling.
"Fine" Was his response. All of a sudden he just takes his boxers off and runs in the water freely.
"Come on it. The water's so warm!" He said swimming around.
"Oh yeah.. Are you sure you didnt just piss in it?" I asked smirking.
"I'm sure. Just come in or I'll have to come and get you"Billie Joe said with a cheeky smile splastered across his face
"Fine, fine. But it better be warm like you said or I'll have to beat you up"I ran upto the water and jumped in. FUCK! It actually was warm!
"Oh my fucking god dammit. You were right! Damn." I said as I pretended to do a mad face.
"See. I would never lie to you." He said coming up behind me and putting his arms around my waist
"Yeah. I'm so sure" I said laughing
Over the days I started writing some songs. For some reason they were all emo and suicidal.
Could I really be turning suicidal or was this just a phase?
Could it be all the pain my parents had put me through?All the suffering I had done over the years.
Well, if I turn emo.. Im most likely to turn suicidal, and being suicidal will just get me to kill myself by cutting..
But wait; I dont even want to die, let alone cut.
One night. I had a dream. Everything was going perfectly fine. And nothing was going wrong until I took out a knife and started cutting myself then I stabbed myself in the heart.
"Ahhhhhh" I screamed. I had woken up thank god.
"Hun, whats the matter?" Billie Joe said sleepily, but he hugged me.
"Dont let me kill myself. I dont want to die. Stay with me. Dont leave me" I said in a panic. I think I was close to having a panic attack at any moment.
" I was never going to let you leave me and why would you want to kill yourself?" He asked trying to come me down.
I pushed his question aside and just told him to keep his promiss.
And it worked. He said he'd keep his promis about not leaving me and not letting me kill myself.
Slowly I started to drift off to sleep with Billie Joe singing to me softly.
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