Take My Hand And Never Be Afraid Again, chapter 8
+~+GERARD'S 26 B-DAY+~+
It was Gerard's birthday, but it wasn't spent with a party. It was spent in a church. And no one was getting married. Gerard stepped up to the coffin. His last time to look at Mary. He looked at her face, she looked so peaceful. So at rest. Maybe this was for the better. Gerard stepped up to the alter and started his speech.
"You are never coming home, Mary. But I count the days I come to you."
That was all Gerard said. All he needed to say. All he wanted to say. As a singled tear rolled down his face. A single tear. A single tear to show all the huilt, hurt, anger and helplessness Gerard felt. Gerard stepped down.
"You are never coming home, never coming home." Gerard whispered to himself as he took his seat.
Later on in the month, My Chemical Romance was on tour again.
"This song is for the best friend I had. I hope that whereever she is, she can hear me" Gerard took a deep breath and started"
"I never said I'd lie and wait forever" All the pain started rushing back to Gerard.
"If I did, we'd be together" Gerard felt guilty and hurt. Nothing he could to about what he did.
"I can't always just forget her, but she could try" Gerard Felt his eyes sting
"At the end of the world, or the last thing I see, you are never coming home, never coming home. Never coming home, never coming home. Could I? Should I?" Gerard felt a knife in his heart. And he would never be able to pull it out.
"And all the thing that you never ever told me. And all the smiles that are ever. Ever." Gerard felt like he was going to rip his own heart apart.
"Ever, get the feeling that you're never all alone and I remember, at the top of my lungs in my arms she dies. She dies" Gerard was absolutly broken. And there was nothing he could do. He felt like leaving the stage. But he wanted to pay his respects to Mary. He had to. It was all he could do now. All he could do for Mary. The last thing he could do for Mary.
When Gerard came back, He went to the cemetary, with a dozen of black roses. It was midnight, and he found Mary's grave. He gently set down the roses and sat down.
"Mary... Why did you have to leave... I'm so sorry." Gerard said, tears silently rolling down his face.
[i]It wasn't your fault Gerard, It was my choice[i]
Gerard looked at the gravemarker. That voice sounded too much like Mary's.
"But, I didn't try hard enough to stop you."
[i]I was going to do it anyway, and if you wouldn't let me then, then I would have done it when you left[i]
"But you don'tunderstand! It's not you that pays, it me!" Gerard screamed through his tears.
[i]just wait. When it will be yoyr time, I'll be here, and welcome you with open arms[i]
Mary's voice was getting fainter.
"I'll wait... I promise, I'll wait. Just for you. Only for you" Gerard whispered, Getting up, and leaving.
And Gerard waited, to the end.
It was Gerard's birthday, but it wasn't spent with a party. It was spent in a church. And no one was getting married. Gerard stepped up to the coffin. His last time to look at Mary. He looked at her face, she looked so peaceful. So at rest. Maybe this was for the better. Gerard stepped up to the alter and started his speech.
"You are never coming home, Mary. But I count the days I come to you."
That was all Gerard said. All he needed to say. All he wanted to say. As a singled tear rolled down his face. A single tear. A single tear to show all the huilt, hurt, anger and helplessness Gerard felt. Gerard stepped down.
"You are never coming home, never coming home." Gerard whispered to himself as he took his seat.
Later on in the month, My Chemical Romance was on tour again.
"This song is for the best friend I had. I hope that whereever she is, she can hear me" Gerard took a deep breath and started"
"I never said I'd lie and wait forever" All the pain started rushing back to Gerard.
"If I did, we'd be together" Gerard felt guilty and hurt. Nothing he could to about what he did.
"I can't always just forget her, but she could try" Gerard Felt his eyes sting
"At the end of the world, or the last thing I see, you are never coming home, never coming home. Never coming home, never coming home. Could I? Should I?" Gerard felt a knife in his heart. And he would never be able to pull it out.
"And all the thing that you never ever told me. And all the smiles that are ever. Ever." Gerard felt like he was going to rip his own heart apart.
"Ever, get the feeling that you're never all alone and I remember, at the top of my lungs in my arms she dies. She dies" Gerard was absolutly broken. And there was nothing he could do. He felt like leaving the stage. But he wanted to pay his respects to Mary. He had to. It was all he could do now. All he could do for Mary. The last thing he could do for Mary.
When Gerard came back, He went to the cemetary, with a dozen of black roses. It was midnight, and he found Mary's grave. He gently set down the roses and sat down.
"Mary... Why did you have to leave... I'm so sorry." Gerard said, tears silently rolling down his face.
[i]It wasn't your fault Gerard, It was my choice[i]
Gerard looked at the gravemarker. That voice sounded too much like Mary's.
"But, I didn't try hard enough to stop you."
[i]I was going to do it anyway, and if you wouldn't let me then, then I would have done it when you left[i]
"But you don'tunderstand! It's not you that pays, it me!" Gerard screamed through his tears.
[i]just wait. When it will be yoyr time, I'll be here, and welcome you with open arms[i]
Mary's voice was getting fainter.
"I'll wait... I promise, I'll wait. Just for you. Only for you" Gerard whispered, Getting up, and leaving.
And Gerard waited, to the end.
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