Give Me Novacaine, chapter 4
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I woke up with Billie Joe wiping a cold rag around my face. He looked worried about me, when he noticed I woke up he said.
"You should stop fainting everytime I ask you a question if you don't want to answer just do what Adrienne does.. walk away." I couldn't help but laugh he had been worried about me. He said he told the woman that he was going to adopt me she didn't realy like the idea but she said we would all discuss it in the court room. I told him what me and Phillip decided to do. He wanted to know why we were taking a break so I told him
"He needs to be by himself for a while and I need to go do my own thing. But we are going to get back because well we love each other." Billie Joe just looked at me with this expression on his face that said Yea Sure whatever. I walked over to the couch tripping over the box he got me then I remembered about the keys.
"hey Billie Joe what are these keys for?" he looked at them and said
"Oh. those are the keys to a car I got for you." I was in shock no one ever got me a stereo let alone a car. Iwas confused because I hadn't seen a car when I was outside then again I wasn't paying attention.
"Where is it?"
"you need to pay a lot more attention to whats around you. It's right there in front of the house." I went outside to see my car. I loved it right then and there it was a black jeep 4x4 with a silver lightning bolt on top of the hood and along the sides.
"HOLY SHIT this is for me!? Oh my fucking god DUDE I never got something this great before thank you soo much." I told Billie Joe giving him a hug and a kiss on the cheek he tried to kiss me but I pulled away before he could.
"Your welcome. I got you it so that when we go on tours you can take your car and if you need to go out to be by yourself you don't need to ask but you do need to tell us your leaving alright?" I nodded and went back inside because it was cold and my shirt just wasn't good to be outside when your cold.
"Are you hungry?" He asked me I realized I hadn't eaten all day but for some reason I just wasn't hungry.
"No I'm fine but if you are you can go eat." I said thinking he would get the hint that I wanted to be alone for awhile.
"Yea actualy I am let me call Tre` and Mike and tell them to bring some food and beer." I rolled my eyes *great now I have to deal with three drink guys. I think I'll leave after they get wasted.*
"alright I'm going to the room to be alone for awhile." I told him I grabbed my poetry journal that was full of pictures of Green Day, Metallica, Guns And Roses, Operation Ivy and Phillip My eyes got watery and I walked out before Billie Joe could notice. I cried for a few hours when I finally stopped I wrote one poem and decided I need to go somewhere. I went ouside to find the guys all passed out. I snuck out the door got in my car and drove. I went to all the places me and Phillip used to go. It was sunrise when I got back home and Tre` was already awake. He didn't look hungover just sleepy.
"where were you all night?" he asked me. I thought he was drunk like Billie Joe and Mike.
" I thought you were sleeping."
"Well I didn't drink usually one of us doesn't drink so that when the other two pass out we take them home." he explained to me then he said
"That doesn't matter . what matters is where were you. you left and I expected you back late but not the next day." He said All I thought was he barely met me and now he's trying to act like my father. What a weirdro.
"I needed to clear my head out for a while is that ok?" I said sorta pissed that he was acting like my dad. I walked away and went to go eat something. He just stared and ended up falling back asleep. I went to Andie's room made sure to lock the door so as to not have another "accident" happen again and I woke up because I heard Andie talking
"Natalie are you up yet?"
"Yeah give me a minute." I got up and opened the door Tre` and Mike had left But Billie Joe was still sleeping. DAMN he could sleep.
"Hi. When did you get here?" I asked her
" Um around 8 Tre` and mike were leaving." I told her about Phillip and Billie Joe she told me it would all work out in the end.
"I hope" I said not beleiving it could. Andie fell asleep so I went to the living room Billie Joe was up already so we watched t.v then he said.
"So have you given anymore thought to me adopting you?" I had forgotten about it completely but acted like I gave it any thought.
"Yea. sure why not I don't think anyone would want to adopt a teen right now." He smiled because he knew Phillip wasn't there for me to use as an excuse anymore I got nervous but didn't show it.
*One week later*
"Natalie Get up your mom's funeral is in a few hours." Andie said shaking me from my sleep. I couldn't believe it was happening my mom was going to be buried at 11 am today I didn't want too wake up but I knew I had to. I dragged my self out of bed and took ashower. I got dressed and went to the kitchen and ate breakfast with Andie. We were both quiet until there was aknock at the door.
"I'll get it." she said. I didn't argue Iw asn't in the mood to see anyone and the person at the door was the last one I wanted to see.
"hello Natalie."
"hello Sandra." I said not even glancing at herbeacuse she represented everything going wrong in my life.
"How are you doing?" She couldn't have asked a stupider question. How did she think I was doing I have to bury my mother today I lost the love ofmy life and now I was going to be given away.
"Fine." I said in a very sarcastic tone she noticed but smiled and decided to give me hug and sit down next tome. I got up even though I wasn't done eating and sat in the recliner on the far end of the living room she turned and started talking about Billie Joe not being a fit father and how I should make a better decision then him so I tuned her out. We told her we had to leabve she said she would take us but I told herwe would drive on our own.
"Very well then I shall see you tomorrow" She tried to sound intelligent but I had neverheard anyone stupider.
"Fine whatever." I said and sped off in the jeep.
*two hours later*
We were at the cemetary when I saw three similar faces in the crowd of peoplewho came to see my mom be buried.
"Hi you guys." I told Billie Joe Tre` and Mike
"Hello" said Tre` who looked like he was somewhere far away
"hi Natalie I hope your o.k." said Mike giving me a hug. I was annoyed that everyone kept telling me the samething over and over. Tre` and Mike had seen Andie and went to go talk with her. I was left alone with Billie Joe again.
"Hi"
"How areyou holding up getting ready to pass out anytime soon?" He laughed he was trying to help me smle but I couldn't. Still I tried to be cheerful.
"Not planning but you know how spontanious I am." I half laughed He knew I was smiling by force He hugged me and I buried my face in his chest fighting back tears. When he pulled me back I saw someone I had been hoping to see for a while. I ran to Phillip and his mom. His mom didn't say anything she just hugged me and went to go talk to my moms friends. Phllip's mom and mine were friends since they were little so when Phillip was born then me they knew we would be together.
"I wanted to pay my respect to your mom." He said looking at the floor he was wearing our neckalce I couldn't help but cry. He knew why. I stopped crying for a little bit and told him thank you for coming.
" I still love and want to be with you but we can't right now." He said I couldn't tell where this was going.
"I'm still here for you no matter what happens in life.....or death." With that said he walked away and I cried I didn't know what he was talking about our bond had been weakened and I was to blame for it. I was crying and I felt a hand on my shoulder it was Billie Joe he hugged me and let me cry on him until the cermony began.
I couldn't stand the ceremony and knowing Phillip was there made it worse so I left before I did I told my mom good-bye and told Andie I would see her at her house later. She said O.K then I left. Billie Joe followed me. I had gone to the one place I hadn't been to since the accident. I turned thecorner and parked the car. I started walking up te steps to my house. I opened the door, Billie Joe went in behind me. I started packingup my stuff before I was done I went to my moms room and I sat on her bed. I remebered all the times she wouldgive me advice or help me when I was having problems with Phillip. I started to cry. Billie Joe walked in and knelt in front of me he wiped away my tears like Phillip did the week before. Before I even knew what was happening Billie Joe and me were in my moms bed having sex. When we finished Billie Joe fell back asleep and all I was thinking was how could I have done that in my moms bed with Billie Joe again. When I never even did it with Phillip once. suddenly I heard the door opening and I heard a voice I hated since the first time I heard it.
"You should stop fainting everytime I ask you a question if you don't want to answer just do what Adrienne does.. walk away." I couldn't help but laugh he had been worried about me. He said he told the woman that he was going to adopt me she didn't realy like the idea but she said we would all discuss it in the court room. I told him what me and Phillip decided to do. He wanted to know why we were taking a break so I told him
"He needs to be by himself for a while and I need to go do my own thing. But we are going to get back because well we love each other." Billie Joe just looked at me with this expression on his face that said Yea Sure whatever. I walked over to the couch tripping over the box he got me then I remembered about the keys.
"hey Billie Joe what are these keys for?" he looked at them and said
"Oh. those are the keys to a car I got for you." I was in shock no one ever got me a stereo let alone a car. Iwas confused because I hadn't seen a car when I was outside then again I wasn't paying attention.
"Where is it?"
"you need to pay a lot more attention to whats around you. It's right there in front of the house." I went outside to see my car. I loved it right then and there it was a black jeep 4x4 with a silver lightning bolt on top of the hood and along the sides.
"HOLY SHIT this is for me!? Oh my fucking god DUDE I never got something this great before thank you soo much." I told Billie Joe giving him a hug and a kiss on the cheek he tried to kiss me but I pulled away before he could.
"Your welcome. I got you it so that when we go on tours you can take your car and if you need to go out to be by yourself you don't need to ask but you do need to tell us your leaving alright?" I nodded and went back inside because it was cold and my shirt just wasn't good to be outside when your cold.
"Are you hungry?" He asked me I realized I hadn't eaten all day but for some reason I just wasn't hungry.
"No I'm fine but if you are you can go eat." I said thinking he would get the hint that I wanted to be alone for awhile.
"Yea actualy I am let me call Tre` and Mike and tell them to bring some food and beer." I rolled my eyes *great now I have to deal with three drink guys. I think I'll leave after they get wasted.*
"alright I'm going to the room to be alone for awhile." I told him I grabbed my poetry journal that was full of pictures of Green Day, Metallica, Guns And Roses, Operation Ivy and Phillip My eyes got watery and I walked out before Billie Joe could notice. I cried for a few hours when I finally stopped I wrote one poem and decided I need to go somewhere. I went ouside to find the guys all passed out. I snuck out the door got in my car and drove. I went to all the places me and Phillip used to go. It was sunrise when I got back home and Tre` was already awake. He didn't look hungover just sleepy.
"where were you all night?" he asked me. I thought he was drunk like Billie Joe and Mike.
" I thought you were sleeping."
"Well I didn't drink usually one of us doesn't drink so that when the other two pass out we take them home." he explained to me then he said
"That doesn't matter . what matters is where were you. you left and I expected you back late but not the next day." He said All I thought was he barely met me and now he's trying to act like my father. What a weirdro.
"I needed to clear my head out for a while is that ok?" I said sorta pissed that he was acting like my dad. I walked away and went to go eat something. He just stared and ended up falling back asleep. I went to Andie's room made sure to lock the door so as to not have another "accident" happen again and I woke up because I heard Andie talking
"Natalie are you up yet?"
"Yeah give me a minute." I got up and opened the door Tre` and Mike had left But Billie Joe was still sleeping. DAMN he could sleep.
"Hi. When did you get here?" I asked her
" Um around 8 Tre` and mike were leaving." I told her about Phillip and Billie Joe she told me it would all work out in the end.
"I hope" I said not beleiving it could. Andie fell asleep so I went to the living room Billie Joe was up already so we watched t.v then he said.
"So have you given anymore thought to me adopting you?" I had forgotten about it completely but acted like I gave it any thought.
"Yea. sure why not I don't think anyone would want to adopt a teen right now." He smiled because he knew Phillip wasn't there for me to use as an excuse anymore I got nervous but didn't show it.
*One week later*
"Natalie Get up your mom's funeral is in a few hours." Andie said shaking me from my sleep. I couldn't believe it was happening my mom was going to be buried at 11 am today I didn't want too wake up but I knew I had to. I dragged my self out of bed and took ashower. I got dressed and went to the kitchen and ate breakfast with Andie. We were both quiet until there was aknock at the door.
"I'll get it." she said. I didn't argue Iw asn't in the mood to see anyone and the person at the door was the last one I wanted to see.
"hello Natalie."
"hello Sandra." I said not even glancing at herbeacuse she represented everything going wrong in my life.
"How are you doing?" She couldn't have asked a stupider question. How did she think I was doing I have to bury my mother today I lost the love ofmy life and now I was going to be given away.
"Fine." I said in a very sarcastic tone she noticed but smiled and decided to give me hug and sit down next tome. I got up even though I wasn't done eating and sat in the recliner on the far end of the living room she turned and started talking about Billie Joe not being a fit father and how I should make a better decision then him so I tuned her out. We told her we had to leabve she said she would take us but I told herwe would drive on our own.
"Very well then I shall see you tomorrow" She tried to sound intelligent but I had neverheard anyone stupider.
"Fine whatever." I said and sped off in the jeep.
*two hours later*
We were at the cemetary when I saw three similar faces in the crowd of peoplewho came to see my mom be buried.
"Hi you guys." I told Billie Joe Tre` and Mike
"Hello" said Tre` who looked like he was somewhere far away
"hi Natalie I hope your o.k." said Mike giving me a hug. I was annoyed that everyone kept telling me the samething over and over. Tre` and Mike had seen Andie and went to go talk with her. I was left alone with Billie Joe again.
"Hi"
"How areyou holding up getting ready to pass out anytime soon?" He laughed he was trying to help me smle but I couldn't. Still I tried to be cheerful.
"Not planning but you know how spontanious I am." I half laughed He knew I was smiling by force He hugged me and I buried my face in his chest fighting back tears. When he pulled me back I saw someone I had been hoping to see for a while. I ran to Phillip and his mom. His mom didn't say anything she just hugged me and went to go talk to my moms friends. Phllip's mom and mine were friends since they were little so when Phillip was born then me they knew we would be together.
"I wanted to pay my respect to your mom." He said looking at the floor he was wearing our neckalce I couldn't help but cry. He knew why. I stopped crying for a little bit and told him thank you for coming.
" I still love and want to be with you but we can't right now." He said I couldn't tell where this was going.
"I'm still here for you no matter what happens in life.....or death." With that said he walked away and I cried I didn't know what he was talking about our bond had been weakened and I was to blame for it. I was crying and I felt a hand on my shoulder it was Billie Joe he hugged me and let me cry on him until the cermony began.
I couldn't stand the ceremony and knowing Phillip was there made it worse so I left before I did I told my mom good-bye and told Andie I would see her at her house later. She said O.K then I left. Billie Joe followed me. I had gone to the one place I hadn't been to since the accident. I turned thecorner and parked the car. I started walking up te steps to my house. I opened the door, Billie Joe went in behind me. I started packingup my stuff before I was done I went to my moms room and I sat on her bed. I remebered all the times she wouldgive me advice or help me when I was having problems with Phillip. I started to cry. Billie Joe walked in and knelt in front of me he wiped away my tears like Phillip did the week before. Before I even knew what was happening Billie Joe and me were in my moms bed having sex. When we finished Billie Joe fell back asleep and all I was thinking was how could I have done that in my moms bed with Billie Joe again. When I never even did it with Phillip once. suddenly I heard the door opening and I heard a voice I hated since the first time I heard it.
