Give Me Novacaine, chapter 6
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"Don't worry it's gonna be o.k. Trust me."
"Sure your one to trust." I rolled my eyes and brushed his hand from my shoulder my arm. He followed me into the court room. We sat there waiting for Sandra, when she finally got there she started making up all these excuses on why Billie Joe would make an unfit father.
"He's a rockstar. How do we know that he won't get her into drugs or alcohol or into doing something self destructive." Billie Joe was pissed he looked like he was ready to strangle her to death but when he was about to say something Sandra cut him off by saying.
"Dragging her from concert to concert is not a good life for her. Her mind is still impressionable andvulnerable she needs love and care. Not hate and carelessness." How orginal I thought to myself. She sure didn't have a very big vocabulary.
"Look! I have my own children I know how to raise them and half of the things that are coming out of your mouth is bullshit!!" Billie Joe screamed at her. I was smiling laughing to myself glad that someone had finally put her in her place. I was just sad because it wasn't me. The hearing went on for what seemed like days. Until the judge came to his decision.
"I give full custody to Billie Joe Armstrong of the child in question Natalie Ponce."
"This is an outrage!" Screamed Sandra
"Look I won get over it and shut the hell up." Billie Joe smiled and got up to leave. I followed him laughing because I could still hear Sandra fighting over the decision made. Before we left we heard a voice from behind us.
"Billie Joe." He stopped and turned around I kept walking I was sick and tired of looking at Sandra and sick of her fake ass happy attitude toward me.
"Natalie this concerns you maybe you should stay."
"How about no I am sick of this he won he's my dad now will you please leave me alone." I said giving her the same insincere smile she gave so many times before and walked out of the city hall and to the car.
"That's my girl!" I heard Billie Joe say full of pride. I got into the car and looked over to see Billie Joe just listening to what Sandra was saying laughing at her. I turned down and looked at my arm. It was stil bleeding *Shit wen the fuck is this going to stop bleeding?* I thought it would have stopped by now but the blood was still flowing. But it didn't I felt sick I hadn't gotten any rest in the past few days I pulled my sleeves down when I heard a knock on the window.
"Are you planning on letting me in anytime soon?" I leaned ove and unlocked the door.
"Look. I was thinking maybe I could stay with Andie for another week or two. Just so you can have sometime to talk about it with Adrienne." I said he looked over to me and said
"Sure but if you want to leave before that ust cal me ok?" He said looking at me with genuine concern for my well being. I looked away and said
"Alright then." We drove in silence for a little bit but I couldn't stand it I had to find someway to break our silence,
"Where are your CD's?" I asked wanting to listen to some music.
"Right there." He pointed back to a case on the seat.
"cool." I got it and flipped through them until I found thier International Superhits CD and put it in. I started singing Maria I had learned every song on that CD in less then an hour mostly because I had heard every song like five million times before. He looked at me smiled and said.
"You know how to sing really good." He looked shocked at how my voice sounded I never believed anyone who said my voice was good I always thought it sucked.
"Sure. Ok if you say so." I told him and kept singing, just because I couldn't sing didn't mean I was going to stop.
"I'm not joking your really good."
"I didn't say anything."
"You should like start a band."
"How about not my voice is super crappy and don't anyone who could play instruments." I said we pulled off the freeway and were heading towards Andie's house.
"Well Icould help you better your voice and we'll find people to play for you." He was serious about it I just said
"I'll think about it." With that he shut up and we pulled to Andie's house before I got up he grabbed my arm I winced in pain he grabbed the cut. I saw the blood smear on his fingers hopefully he woudn't notice.
"What is it?" I asked confused.
"This." He said and pulled me in and kissed me When we pulled back I was confused.
"Why did you do that?"
"I've been wanting to do that for a while." He smiled I did to and got out of the car.I walked inside and heard Billie Joe drive off. Billie was on the freeway halfway to his house before he even noticed the blood on his hand.
"What the fuck?!" He was shocked he didn't know where he got the blood from.
"It couldn't have been Natalie." he said trying to convince himself that I would never do that.
"No she's to smart and talented to be doing something this stupid." But there was no denying it. He had noticeda red spot on her shirt in the courtroom. then when she was looking at her arm in the car, and when he grabbed her arm he saw how she winced. Now this he couldn't believe it.
"Why would she do something so stupid. FUCK!!!!!" he screamed scaringsome of the people on the highway he knew he would have to wait until he went to pick her up to talk to her about it. He pulled up to his house and went in. Meanwhile Natalie was alone Andie had gone to work again. It seems like all she did lately was work. She decided to call Phillip and invite him over because she really didn't want to be alone.
"Hello Phillip?"
"hey Natalie Whats going on?"
"Nothing I was just calling to ask if you could come to Andie's house but if you can't thats coll to you dn't have to." I said hoping that he didn't feel pushed into coming. I could hear F.O.D playing in the backround I tookit as a sort of signthat he wouldn't come.
"No. I'll be there in a few minutes ok?" I sat up.
"Alright!" I said sounding a bit to happy. He laughed and hung up. I changed shirts and put a band aid to keep blood fromdripping through. A few minutes later I heard knocking on the door.
"Hey." It wasn't Phillip it was Angel. He was 19 and used to like me when he was in highchool with me but I never liked him he was to mean to my friends and he liked Slipknot. I would never go for a guy who liked that crappy ass music.
"Hey I heard you were staying wit Andie for a little bt so I decided to visit." he said pushing his way inside.
"Yeah well Phillip should be coming right now so maybe you should leave. NOW!" I knew they never liked each other and when he found out me and Phillip were going out he and Phillip got in a fight Phillip won but Angel never really got over the fact that I wouldn't go out with him.
"So I don't care." That didn't sound like the Angel I knew
"So would you leave before he gets here." I said pointng to the door.
"I don't think so." Angel was making me uncomfortable. He got up locked the door and looked at me.
"What are you doing?" I was scared he kept walking towards me I ran to my room but before I could shut the door he threw it open and knocked me down.
"Getting what I've wanted for a few years now." He said looking at me
"You better not touch me." He just laughed and pushed me on the bed.
"NO get off of me!!"
"Shut Up!" He slapped me and started ripping off my shirt. He pulled off my pants knocking me down everytime I tried to get up. My body went numb after I realized what he was doing. When he finshed he got up and said.
"If you tell anyone what happened I'll kill you." With that he zipped his pants and blew me a kiss. I took a shower. But no matter how much I scrubbed I felt dirty.
I got out and changed I grabbed a razor and stuck my wrist out
"Fuck this world no good came from my it." I placed the razor on my wrist ready to leave.
"Sure your one to trust." I rolled my eyes and brushed his hand from my shoulder my arm. He followed me into the court room. We sat there waiting for Sandra, when she finally got there she started making up all these excuses on why Billie Joe would make an unfit father.
"He's a rockstar. How do we know that he won't get her into drugs or alcohol or into doing something self destructive." Billie Joe was pissed he looked like he was ready to strangle her to death but when he was about to say something Sandra cut him off by saying.
"Dragging her from concert to concert is not a good life for her. Her mind is still impressionable andvulnerable she needs love and care. Not hate and carelessness." How orginal I thought to myself. She sure didn't have a very big vocabulary.
"Look! I have my own children I know how to raise them and half of the things that are coming out of your mouth is bullshit!!" Billie Joe screamed at her. I was smiling laughing to myself glad that someone had finally put her in her place. I was just sad because it wasn't me. The hearing went on for what seemed like days. Until the judge came to his decision.
"I give full custody to Billie Joe Armstrong of the child in question Natalie Ponce."
"This is an outrage!" Screamed Sandra
"Look I won get over it and shut the hell up." Billie Joe smiled and got up to leave. I followed him laughing because I could still hear Sandra fighting over the decision made. Before we left we heard a voice from behind us.
"Billie Joe." He stopped and turned around I kept walking I was sick and tired of looking at Sandra and sick of her fake ass happy attitude toward me.
"Natalie this concerns you maybe you should stay."
"How about no I am sick of this he won he's my dad now will you please leave me alone." I said giving her the same insincere smile she gave so many times before and walked out of the city hall and to the car.
"That's my girl!" I heard Billie Joe say full of pride. I got into the car and looked over to see Billie Joe just listening to what Sandra was saying laughing at her. I turned down and looked at my arm. It was stil bleeding *Shit wen the fuck is this going to stop bleeding?* I thought it would have stopped by now but the blood was still flowing. But it didn't I felt sick I hadn't gotten any rest in the past few days I pulled my sleeves down when I heard a knock on the window.
"Are you planning on letting me in anytime soon?" I leaned ove and unlocked the door.
"Look. I was thinking maybe I could stay with Andie for another week or two. Just so you can have sometime to talk about it with Adrienne." I said he looked over to me and said
"Sure but if you want to leave before that ust cal me ok?" He said looking at me with genuine concern for my well being. I looked away and said
"Alright then." We drove in silence for a little bit but I couldn't stand it I had to find someway to break our silence,
"Where are your CD's?" I asked wanting to listen to some music.
"Right there." He pointed back to a case on the seat.
"cool." I got it and flipped through them until I found thier International Superhits CD and put it in. I started singing Maria I had learned every song on that CD in less then an hour mostly because I had heard every song like five million times before. He looked at me smiled and said.
"You know how to sing really good." He looked shocked at how my voice sounded I never believed anyone who said my voice was good I always thought it sucked.
"Sure. Ok if you say so." I told him and kept singing, just because I couldn't sing didn't mean I was going to stop.
"I'm not joking your really good."
"I didn't say anything."
"You should like start a band."
"How about not my voice is super crappy and don't anyone who could play instruments." I said we pulled off the freeway and were heading towards Andie's house.
"Well Icould help you better your voice and we'll find people to play for you." He was serious about it I just said
"I'll think about it." With that he shut up and we pulled to Andie's house before I got up he grabbed my arm I winced in pain he grabbed the cut. I saw the blood smear on his fingers hopefully he woudn't notice.
"What is it?" I asked confused.
"This." He said and pulled me in and kissed me When we pulled back I was confused.
"Why did you do that?"
"I've been wanting to do that for a while." He smiled I did to and got out of the car.I walked inside and heard Billie Joe drive off. Billie was on the freeway halfway to his house before he even noticed the blood on his hand.
"What the fuck?!" He was shocked he didn't know where he got the blood from.
"It couldn't have been Natalie." he said trying to convince himself that I would never do that.
"No she's to smart and talented to be doing something this stupid." But there was no denying it. He had noticeda red spot on her shirt in the courtroom. then when she was looking at her arm in the car, and when he grabbed her arm he saw how she winced. Now this he couldn't believe it.
"Why would she do something so stupid. FUCK!!!!!" he screamed scaringsome of the people on the highway he knew he would have to wait until he went to pick her up to talk to her about it. He pulled up to his house and went in. Meanwhile Natalie was alone Andie had gone to work again. It seems like all she did lately was work. She decided to call Phillip and invite him over because she really didn't want to be alone.
"Hello Phillip?"
"hey Natalie Whats going on?"
"Nothing I was just calling to ask if you could come to Andie's house but if you can't thats coll to you dn't have to." I said hoping that he didn't feel pushed into coming. I could hear F.O.D playing in the backround I tookit as a sort of signthat he wouldn't come.
"No. I'll be there in a few minutes ok?" I sat up.
"Alright!" I said sounding a bit to happy. He laughed and hung up. I changed shirts and put a band aid to keep blood fromdripping through. A few minutes later I heard knocking on the door.
"Hey." It wasn't Phillip it was Angel. He was 19 and used to like me when he was in highchool with me but I never liked him he was to mean to my friends and he liked Slipknot. I would never go for a guy who liked that crappy ass music.
"Hey I heard you were staying wit Andie for a little bt so I decided to visit." he said pushing his way inside.
"Yeah well Phillip should be coming right now so maybe you should leave. NOW!" I knew they never liked each other and when he found out me and Phillip were going out he and Phillip got in a fight Phillip won but Angel never really got over the fact that I wouldn't go out with him.
"So I don't care." That didn't sound like the Angel I knew
"So would you leave before he gets here." I said pointng to the door.
"I don't think so." Angel was making me uncomfortable. He got up locked the door and looked at me.
"What are you doing?" I was scared he kept walking towards me I ran to my room but before I could shut the door he threw it open and knocked me down.
"Getting what I've wanted for a few years now." He said looking at me
"You better not touch me." He just laughed and pushed me on the bed.
"NO get off of me!!"
"Shut Up!" He slapped me and started ripping off my shirt. He pulled off my pants knocking me down everytime I tried to get up. My body went numb after I realized what he was doing. When he finshed he got up and said.
"If you tell anyone what happened I'll kill you." With that he zipped his pants and blew me a kiss. I took a shower. But no matter how much I scrubbed I felt dirty.
I got out and changed I grabbed a razor and stuck my wrist out
"Fuck this world no good came from my it." I placed the razor on my wrist ready to leave.
