What You Remind Me Of, chapter 5
Billie's POV
More. I thought silently to myself. You. Melody. Everything. Nothing. So many things all at once, that was what I wanted. But now, at this very moment, I wanted to taste her lips, to feel them on mine. I was leaning in, when I felt a buzz in my pocket. Shit, she does have an amazing affect on me doesn't she, I thought, before I realized it was my phone. "Hold on," I said, with a hint of frustration. I looked at the I. D. HOME, it flashed. "I'm sorry, I have to take this... Hello? Hey. Nothin', just taking a much-needed brake from the studio. Huh? What? Now? Ummm, I don't think so. No. Wha- don't be ridiculous. Because... I don't wanna. Why can't you? Fine, fine, fine. Ok YES. Sorry, I'm just tired. Ok. You to. Ok bye."
"Your wife," she said with a slight smile on her face
"Yes, and, apparently, she needs milk now, or the world will come to and end. But, I am not going to drive half an hour for milk, when she can drive two minutes."
"Stubborn."
"Pot calling the kettle black."
"Well, you're the one who wanted to marry me. Remember?"
"Yeah, well, I bet you I could pay all your bills and then some now."
"Huh! You actually remember that fight?"
"Duh," I said rolling my eyes, "that was the first time you even acknowledged the 'L' word. I'm still not even sure how we managed to make it as long as we did with the money we had."
"You know, I swore to myself that I would never, as long as I lived, tell you this. But, after that fight... And that really great sex, and after you said you were gonna leave Green Day, I called my daddy, and he sent me two hundred dollars a week. Sometimes, he still does, just to remind me of when I was.... Happy."
"Ahhh, the princess isn't happy now?"
Melody's POV.
In this moment, I am, I thought to myself, but other than that... "Yes, the princess is happy," I said in a mocking voice, crunching my nose up, "he just doesn't seem to think I am..
"Well, I'm happy for you. But geez, Mel you take the money from your dad?"
"HEY! I always send it all back. Gosh."
"I bet."
"Billie."
"Mel."
I smiled at him, and he smiled back. Oh GOD! His knee was touching mine, and I could feel my face getting hot... My whole body was hot.
"What's the matter," he said with a sly grin, "can't handle me being this close?"
"Billie Joe Armstrong!"
"What? I was only kiddin'. Do you want me to stop?"
"No." FREAKIN' HOLY SHIT FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK! Damn it to hell, Melody, why can't you just think before you speak? WHY?!?!
"Then I won't." and with that he leaned in to kiss me...
Billie's POV
What the FUCK am I doing? Omigod, omigod, omigod. Not now... You're married, Billie, just stop kissing her. All of these thoughts were running through my mind, but they would have to be put to rest and wait for now, because, I was on my way back. Back to whatever it was I had left behind on a cold, rainy day, fifteen years ago...
OH GOD, MEL. Don't make me do this, not now. Billie, all you have to do is pull back. Just. Pull. Back. And yet, I couldn't. I know that things hadn't been going so hot with Adi at the moment, but Jesus, Billie do you have to freakin' kiss someone else. I felt her mouth pull away from mine. I looked at her. She looked at me.
Melody's POV
I kissed him. He's married. I... "Billie, I'm so sorry," I was almost crying.
"No, no, it was my fault. I shouldn't have... " no more almost crying. My eyes were dry now, thank you God.
"I should go."
"No, wait, I really would like to see you again. Maybe you could come over to the house sometime, have dinner. Or, maybe we could go out Mel... Ya know, like two grown up, civilized friends." Look at those eyes Mel, how can anyone say no to those eyes.
"Yeah, yeah ok, sure I'd... I'd like that."
"Me too. Hey, listen, are you gonna go back home, or are you running away forever?" I couldn't help but smile. He can say the wrong thing at the wrong time, and still make you fall in love with him.
"I umm, I don't know."
"Well, if you need a place to spend a night, or two, I still have that old apart- wait, let me give you the key, that way, you can have it just incase," he said pulling the keys out of his coat pocket, "anyways, if you need to get away for a while. I know that's what I would do after I turned down the second person who asked me to marry them." He winked at me. GOD, please, don't let me wake up if it's a dream.
"Billie, thank you, but I -"
"Will take this key. And you will also give me your numbers, that way I can make sure you're ok," he said cutting me off before I could refuse.
Billie's POV
We said goodbye, and after she said 'NO! ' thirty-eleven time, I still offer her a ride home. I knew that she would go to the apartment tonight, go collect some, hell maybe even all of her things, tomorrow, when she knew that "Travis" wouldn't be home, leave him a note and move in. I would give her time to reflect on her actions, and I would call her. Tomorrow. But now, I had to go back to the studio, record, go home. To my wife, to my family.
I was still amazed at how we handled the kissing scene. We had simply acted like it had never happened... But even more amazed at the fact that I had enough balls to even invite her to my house...
"Goodnight, Adi," I said as I kissed my wife on the cheek.
"'Night Bill." She rolled over, and I soon fell asleep to the sound of her breathing.
I woke up and my heart was racing, I was drenched in sweat. I looked at the clock. 2:02 AM. I threw the covers back, and walked out of the bedroom, down the hall fourth door on the right, my writing room. I picked up Blue and began to play, stopping now and again to write down the words as they popped into my head on a yellow tablet...
I was already up, so I didn't see any point in waking Adi up. So, I wake my son Joey up, help him get ready for school, drive him there, and come back... To find her still asleep. I look at her. She's beautiful, but hell, she can make up hate yourself. She knows what to say, when you're fighting, to push you over the edge. Fuck guilt trips, she can send you on guilt vacations. So, I had to make sure, for the sake of my sanity and for my kids, that she never found out about... "Billie, what are you doing?" she interrupted.
"Nothing," I said with a smile on my face, "what are you doing?"
"Thinking about trading in my husband for a new one. One that doesn't just stand over you while you're sleep- SHIT, Joey's gonna be-"
"No, I took care of that already."
"Mmmm," she pulled me down on the bed, "Jake's gonna sleep at least another two, maybe three hours, so you wanna fool around with a married woman?"
"You sure? I mean, what if your husband finds out? I heard he was a pretty tough guy," I said laughing.
"Well, he is pretty, but no, he's far from tough. He wears 'guy liner' for God's sake. I think you could take him."
"What if I can't," I asked as she pulled me into a kiss.
"You'll just have to miss out," she said when the kiss ended.
"I'll take my chances with your husband."
"Hello?" I could tell by her voice that she had gotten little sleep last night. I was on my way to the studio, and decided to call her now, and know for sure that she was ok.
"Hey, Mel, how ya holdin' up?"
"Billie, I think I finally fell asleep at ten o'clock this morning. Two hours of sleep, and I wake up to you asking me who I'm holdin up? How the hell do you think?"
"Soorrrrry, princess," I said mockingly, "I'll just call back later."
"No, Billie, I'm sorry, it's just that I'm a little stressed out now. I think I'm gonna stay here a while. Is that ok?"
"Yeah... Yes, of course it's ok. I'll drop by later to check up on you. Will you be there?"
"Yeah, actually, I was gonna go back to Trav's and pick up a few things, maybe leave him a note, you know, the usual."
This made me laugh. I knew her so well, even after all these years. "Yeah, sure do."
"Billie?"
"Yes?"
"Thank you."
"Yeah, of course. What kind of gentleman would I be if I didn't help you out a little? It's the least I can do."
"Ok, charmer, I'll see you later then?"
"Yeah. And, hey Mel?"
"Yeeeees Billie?"
"Try to get some more sleep. You know you're not a good fuck when you're tired."
I heard her sigh. "Billie, shut up. Goodbye."
"'Bye"
I know, I know. You're thinking, "if you're so fucking happy with your wife, why are you flirting with Melody?"
Well, ladies and gentlemen, it's just harmless flirting. And come on guys, its not like Adi doesn't flirt with other guys. And, it's not gonna go beyond flirting...
"Ok Mike, Tre," I said looking at them seriously, "just listen to this song and tell me what you think."
More. I thought silently to myself. You. Melody. Everything. Nothing. So many things all at once, that was what I wanted. But now, at this very moment, I wanted to taste her lips, to feel them on mine. I was leaning in, when I felt a buzz in my pocket. Shit, she does have an amazing affect on me doesn't she, I thought, before I realized it was my phone. "Hold on," I said, with a hint of frustration. I looked at the I. D. HOME, it flashed. "I'm sorry, I have to take this... Hello? Hey. Nothin', just taking a much-needed brake from the studio. Huh? What? Now? Ummm, I don't think so. No. Wha- don't be ridiculous. Because... I don't wanna. Why can't you? Fine, fine, fine. Ok YES. Sorry, I'm just tired. Ok. You to. Ok bye."
"Your wife," she said with a slight smile on her face
"Yes, and, apparently, she needs milk now, or the world will come to and end. But, I am not going to drive half an hour for milk, when she can drive two minutes."
"Stubborn."
"Pot calling the kettle black."
"Well, you're the one who wanted to marry me. Remember?"
"Yeah, well, I bet you I could pay all your bills and then some now."
"Huh! You actually remember that fight?"
"Duh," I said rolling my eyes, "that was the first time you even acknowledged the 'L' word. I'm still not even sure how we managed to make it as long as we did with the money we had."
"You know, I swore to myself that I would never, as long as I lived, tell you this. But, after that fight... And that really great sex, and after you said you were gonna leave Green Day, I called my daddy, and he sent me two hundred dollars a week. Sometimes, he still does, just to remind me of when I was.... Happy."
"Ahhh, the princess isn't happy now?"
Melody's POV.
In this moment, I am, I thought to myself, but other than that... "Yes, the princess is happy," I said in a mocking voice, crunching my nose up, "he just doesn't seem to think I am..
"Well, I'm happy for you. But geez, Mel you take the money from your dad?"
"HEY! I always send it all back. Gosh."
"I bet."
"Billie."
"Mel."
I smiled at him, and he smiled back. Oh GOD! His knee was touching mine, and I could feel my face getting hot... My whole body was hot.
"What's the matter," he said with a sly grin, "can't handle me being this close?"
"Billie Joe Armstrong!"
"What? I was only kiddin'. Do you want me to stop?"
"No." FREAKIN' HOLY SHIT FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK! Damn it to hell, Melody, why can't you just think before you speak? WHY?!?!
"Then I won't." and with that he leaned in to kiss me...
Billie's POV
What the FUCK am I doing? Omigod, omigod, omigod. Not now... You're married, Billie, just stop kissing her. All of these thoughts were running through my mind, but they would have to be put to rest and wait for now, because, I was on my way back. Back to whatever it was I had left behind on a cold, rainy day, fifteen years ago...
OH GOD, MEL. Don't make me do this, not now. Billie, all you have to do is pull back. Just. Pull. Back. And yet, I couldn't. I know that things hadn't been going so hot with Adi at the moment, but Jesus, Billie do you have to freakin' kiss someone else. I felt her mouth pull away from mine. I looked at her. She looked at me.
Melody's POV
I kissed him. He's married. I... "Billie, I'm so sorry," I was almost crying.
"No, no, it was my fault. I shouldn't have... " no more almost crying. My eyes were dry now, thank you God.
"I should go."
"No, wait, I really would like to see you again. Maybe you could come over to the house sometime, have dinner. Or, maybe we could go out Mel... Ya know, like two grown up, civilized friends." Look at those eyes Mel, how can anyone say no to those eyes.
"Yeah, yeah ok, sure I'd... I'd like that."
"Me too. Hey, listen, are you gonna go back home, or are you running away forever?" I couldn't help but smile. He can say the wrong thing at the wrong time, and still make you fall in love with him.
"I umm, I don't know."
"Well, if you need a place to spend a night, or two, I still have that old apart- wait, let me give you the key, that way, you can have it just incase," he said pulling the keys out of his coat pocket, "anyways, if you need to get away for a while. I know that's what I would do after I turned down the second person who asked me to marry them." He winked at me. GOD, please, don't let me wake up if it's a dream.
"Billie, thank you, but I -"
"Will take this key. And you will also give me your numbers, that way I can make sure you're ok," he said cutting me off before I could refuse.
Billie's POV
We said goodbye, and after she said 'NO! ' thirty-eleven time, I still offer her a ride home. I knew that she would go to the apartment tonight, go collect some, hell maybe even all of her things, tomorrow, when she knew that "Travis" wouldn't be home, leave him a note and move in. I would give her time to reflect on her actions, and I would call her. Tomorrow. But now, I had to go back to the studio, record, go home. To my wife, to my family.
I was still amazed at how we handled the kissing scene. We had simply acted like it had never happened... But even more amazed at the fact that I had enough balls to even invite her to my house...
"Goodnight, Adi," I said as I kissed my wife on the cheek.
"'Night Bill." She rolled over, and I soon fell asleep to the sound of her breathing.
I woke up and my heart was racing, I was drenched in sweat. I looked at the clock. 2:02 AM. I threw the covers back, and walked out of the bedroom, down the hall fourth door on the right, my writing room. I picked up Blue and began to play, stopping now and again to write down the words as they popped into my head on a yellow tablet...
I was already up, so I didn't see any point in waking Adi up. So, I wake my son Joey up, help him get ready for school, drive him there, and come back... To find her still asleep. I look at her. She's beautiful, but hell, she can make up hate yourself. She knows what to say, when you're fighting, to push you over the edge. Fuck guilt trips, she can send you on guilt vacations. So, I had to make sure, for the sake of my sanity and for my kids, that she never found out about... "Billie, what are you doing?" she interrupted.
"Nothing," I said with a smile on my face, "what are you doing?"
"Thinking about trading in my husband for a new one. One that doesn't just stand over you while you're sleep- SHIT, Joey's gonna be-"
"No, I took care of that already."
"Mmmm," she pulled me down on the bed, "Jake's gonna sleep at least another two, maybe three hours, so you wanna fool around with a married woman?"
"You sure? I mean, what if your husband finds out? I heard he was a pretty tough guy," I said laughing.
"Well, he is pretty, but no, he's far from tough. He wears 'guy liner' for God's sake. I think you could take him."
"What if I can't," I asked as she pulled me into a kiss.
"You'll just have to miss out," she said when the kiss ended.
"I'll take my chances with your husband."
"Hello?" I could tell by her voice that she had gotten little sleep last night. I was on my way to the studio, and decided to call her now, and know for sure that she was ok.
"Hey, Mel, how ya holdin' up?"
"Billie, I think I finally fell asleep at ten o'clock this morning. Two hours of sleep, and I wake up to you asking me who I'm holdin up? How the hell do you think?"
"Soorrrrry, princess," I said mockingly, "I'll just call back later."
"No, Billie, I'm sorry, it's just that I'm a little stressed out now. I think I'm gonna stay here a while. Is that ok?"
"Yeah... Yes, of course it's ok. I'll drop by later to check up on you. Will you be there?"
"Yeah, actually, I was gonna go back to Trav's and pick up a few things, maybe leave him a note, you know, the usual."
This made me laugh. I knew her so well, even after all these years. "Yeah, sure do."
"Billie?"
"Yes?"
"Thank you."
"Yeah, of course. What kind of gentleman would I be if I didn't help you out a little? It's the least I can do."
"Ok, charmer, I'll see you later then?"
"Yeah. And, hey Mel?"
"Yeeeees Billie?"
"Try to get some more sleep. You know you're not a good fuck when you're tired."
I heard her sigh. "Billie, shut up. Goodbye."
"'Bye"
I know, I know. You're thinking, "if you're so fucking happy with your wife, why are you flirting with Melody?"
Well, ladies and gentlemen, it's just harmless flirting. And come on guys, its not like Adi doesn't flirt with other guys. And, it's not gonna go beyond flirting...
"Ok Mike, Tre," I said looking at them seriously, "just listen to this song and tell me what you think."
