Because of You, chapter 7
*Billie Joe's POV*
As we were playing Knowledge I couldn't help but think about Danielle. The way she always looked at me, the way she talked to me. I couldn't believe how much I loved her. We finished up the whole concert, the fans were absolutly crazy, but it was really fun. I went around searching for her but I had to hurry because people were waiting for us backstage. I finally had to give up because it was almost 5 minutes past 12. We went backstage and signed a whole lot of people's autographs, but I have no clue how they like us so much. We were only on the radio a few times. After about an hour of that I went searching for Danielle again. I found her when I heard her scream. So I pretty much ended up running around the whole place. I finally found her lying on a bench. She sat up and she was crying. I was quick to be at her side. She grabbed onto me and cried on my shoulder. I heard two other people hurry around the corner. It was Sarah with someone else. But I couldn't help but notice her friend. Her shirt said Megan on it so I guessed that was her name. I just couldn't take my eyes off of her. I snapped out of it and went back to focussing on Danielle. I couldn't believe I was thinking about how beautiful Megan looked when Danielle was having a major break down.
"Shh, what happened Dani?" I asked her. I kissed her on the head and rubbed her back. As I did this Megan actually looked dissapointed. So for some reason I stopped rubbing her back. It made Megan pretty happy.
"Come on lets go." I picked Danielle up as soon as she didn't answer me after a few minutes. She was pretty calm by now as we all climbed into the van.
She said she would tell me why she screamed later. She put her head on my shoulder for half the car ride. Then she seemed to be better so she started kissing me quite a bit. So of course I kissed her back cause I love her. But I couldn't stand the look in Megan's eyes. Her hazel eyes looked like she was hurt. I tried to stop kissing Danielle, and she noticed. She kinda got a little upset and didn't look at me. She just turned away from me. I was a little upset but at least I could look at Megan. At the next red light Megan unbuckled her seat belt and came and sat beside me. We really started a conversation, I didn't for some reason mind that Megan was flirting with me. I think I actually liked her. I could tell that Danielle really didn't like Megan now. She was disgusted with me.
When we dropped Megan off I walked her to her door. She gave me a hug and handed me a piece of paper with her number on it. We just smiled at each other.
"Night Billie." She just stood there and looked at me.
"Night Megan." I smiled at her.
Then she leaned in and kissed me on the lips. After she pulled away I stood there shocked and couldn't belive that I even let her kiss me when I had a girlfriend that I loved. She walked away and walked into her house. I just hope Danielle didn't see.
*Danielle's POV*
I was looking out the window and rolled my eyes at Megan. She was flirting with Billie alright. But I couldn't belive she kissed him! I was sitting at the edge of my seat against the window bawling my eyes out now. Worse than ever before. I loved Billie and he was falling in love with someone else. Billie came back inside the van with a grin on his face. Just before Billie could come sit beside me, Sarah came and took his spot. She gave him a dirty look. I couldn't even tell if he felt ashamed. I heard him whipsering to Sarah, he asked why he was crying. She gave him the right answer.
"Why do you think?" I watched as he turned around to look at everyone else. They were also disgusted at him. No one talked to him for the rest of the ride. I couldn't believe what I was thinking at this point. But when Billie grabbed my arm to talk to me when I got home, the feeling of love was gone. I knew that we were over. Sarah stayed the night with me and so did everyone else. Billie wanted to, but I made him leave. As the weeks went by, I saw Billie less and less. My love for him, growing less and less. Untill I heard yelling downstairs. It was Sarah, Billie and Mike.
"How the hell could you be with Megan, Billie!? What happened to you loving Danielle!?"
"I don't know Sarah! I feel different with Megan okay!"
I went to the top of the stairs to see them. Tears swelled up in my eyes, as I saw my best friends becoming enemies.
"Well we have a newsflash for yah Billie! Danielle hasn't talked to anyone, she hasn't got out of bed. She has hardly been eating ever since that night you kissed Megan. She's falling apart because you left her Billie!" I watched as Billie just stood there shocked. I walked silently down the stairs, tears streaming down my face now. Everyone turned around and walked me come down the stairs. When I looked at Billie I felt empty, my heart was truly broken.
"Danielle, what happened to you?" Billie's eyes filled with tears.
"You" I replied softly.
"Billie, listen to me. I want you to leave this house now. I don't want to see you while you still love Megan. You understand me?"
Billie Joe was crying into his hands now. It hurt me to see him suffer like this, but he hurt me much worse. I stood there for five minutes and watched him cry. I couldn't take it anymore. I ran up to Billie and lifted his head. His eyeliner turned his face black, and his hands were full of tears. His eyes widened as he saw my hands. They had cuts on them. He pulled down my shirt sleeve and there, he saw more and more cuts. I tried to pull my hands away. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Mike and Sarah sit down, they looked sick. Billie let go and put his hands to his face. Just then Billie reached into my house coat pocket and held out a razor, blood stained. From all the times I tried to cut myself, trying to end it all, because of the pain he caused me.
"I-I didn't know." That was all he could say to me. I lifted up his head again and wiped away his tears. I leaned in and kissed him. After a short time I let go of him. But he didn't. I saw out of the corner of my eye, Sarah and Mike walk upstairs like they were going to puke because of what they just witnessed.
I got more into Billie kissing me, I finally kissed him back. We pulled away from each other and looked each other in the eye.
"I-I still love you Billie.." I didn't even know why I did. The feeling of life came back when I kissed him. And the next 5 words that came out of his mouth, made me feel like the happiest girl in the world.
"I love you to Danielle." He searched my eyes. He watched as the colour came back into my face. He pulled out his cell phone and dialed a number.
"Hey Megan its Billie." I rolled my eyes and sat on the couch.
I could still hear Megans voice.
"Hey Billie! Whats up hunny you sound upset?"
"I think we should break up. I love Danielle to much." He looked at me and we both smiled at each other for the first time in along time.
"WHAT!?" I could hear Megan screaming at the other end. I chuckled.
"That's right Megan. You heard me. Now I suggest you throw away my number cause I won't be talking to you for a while. Byebye now." And with that he hung up. He came onto the couch beside me and sat down.
"I'm so sorry hunny, do you forgive me. And do you forgive me about that sounding so corny?" I just laughed and nodded. I could hear Sarah and Mike walk up behind us, and I knew that they were smiling. They were happy to hear me laugh for the first time in 4 months. Mike and Sarah silently went out the front door. Me and Billie were alone now. I leaned against him and started kissing him. He kissed me back, which made me feel good. I took the razor out of my pocket and threw it accross the room without looking because me and Billie were still deeply kissing. Billie lifted me up and carried up to my bedroom while still kissing me. He set me down and we stopped for some air. This time we went at it, he started pulling off my shirt and unhooked my bra. I pulled off his shirt and by now we were on the bed. Looking over I made sure the door was locked. He dragged down my pants while we were still making out. I pulled off his and we were rolling on the bed. He kissed me and kissed me, and I kissed him back. I couldn't believe this, having sex with the hottest best guy I know. And if this is him saying sorry, I like it. After about 3 hours of hardcore sex we settled down a bit and went under my covers. We started smoochin a bit but I got tired so we crawled out of bed and I put on a long shirt and he put on his boxers. We went into the bathroom and brushed our teeth. I ran back into my room and jumped on the bed. He did the same and we just smiled at each other.
"Yah know what, right now I would prefer you with you shirt off." He reached over and pulled it off while I laughed. I stuck out my tongue because I still had on my underwear. I pointed to his boxers.
"Sneeky little thing aren't you. But... No."
"Awh come on! Plleasse!" I begged him. He shook his head no. I pushed him down and sat on top of him, and I put back on my bra. I started tickling him, then started kissing his neck.
"Come on, I'm sitting on you, aren't I heavy!?"
"Haha nope, but I'm liking every second of it." He winked at me. He pulled me down closer to him and we started kissing again. I let go of him and yawned.
"Mabey tomorrow Billie, but I'm tired."
"Okay babe. Night, love you." I kissed him for a few seconds then got off of him and went under the covers. I turned off my lamp and said my good night. Just then I heard the front door close, it was Katie, Tre', Kirstin, Mike and Sarah, they probably came to check on me. I jumped out of bed and locked the door. When I got back in bed I turned and faced Billie. He put his arm around me and I almost fell asleep when I heard them coming up the stairs. Me and Billie looked at each other, smiled and fell straight to sleep. Tonight is a night I will never forget.
As we were playing Knowledge I couldn't help but think about Danielle. The way she always looked at me, the way she talked to me. I couldn't believe how much I loved her. We finished up the whole concert, the fans were absolutly crazy, but it was really fun. I went around searching for her but I had to hurry because people were waiting for us backstage. I finally had to give up because it was almost 5 minutes past 12. We went backstage and signed a whole lot of people's autographs, but I have no clue how they like us so much. We were only on the radio a few times. After about an hour of that I went searching for Danielle again. I found her when I heard her scream. So I pretty much ended up running around the whole place. I finally found her lying on a bench. She sat up and she was crying. I was quick to be at her side. She grabbed onto me and cried on my shoulder. I heard two other people hurry around the corner. It was Sarah with someone else. But I couldn't help but notice her friend. Her shirt said Megan on it so I guessed that was her name. I just couldn't take my eyes off of her. I snapped out of it and went back to focussing on Danielle. I couldn't believe I was thinking about how beautiful Megan looked when Danielle was having a major break down.
"Shh, what happened Dani?" I asked her. I kissed her on the head and rubbed her back. As I did this Megan actually looked dissapointed. So for some reason I stopped rubbing her back. It made Megan pretty happy.
"Come on lets go." I picked Danielle up as soon as she didn't answer me after a few minutes. She was pretty calm by now as we all climbed into the van.
She said she would tell me why she screamed later. She put her head on my shoulder for half the car ride. Then she seemed to be better so she started kissing me quite a bit. So of course I kissed her back cause I love her. But I couldn't stand the look in Megan's eyes. Her hazel eyes looked like she was hurt. I tried to stop kissing Danielle, and she noticed. She kinda got a little upset and didn't look at me. She just turned away from me. I was a little upset but at least I could look at Megan. At the next red light Megan unbuckled her seat belt and came and sat beside me. We really started a conversation, I didn't for some reason mind that Megan was flirting with me. I think I actually liked her. I could tell that Danielle really didn't like Megan now. She was disgusted with me.
When we dropped Megan off I walked her to her door. She gave me a hug and handed me a piece of paper with her number on it. We just smiled at each other.
"Night Billie." She just stood there and looked at me.
"Night Megan." I smiled at her.
Then she leaned in and kissed me on the lips. After she pulled away I stood there shocked and couldn't belive that I even let her kiss me when I had a girlfriend that I loved. She walked away and walked into her house. I just hope Danielle didn't see.
*Danielle's POV*
I was looking out the window and rolled my eyes at Megan. She was flirting with Billie alright. But I couldn't belive she kissed him! I was sitting at the edge of my seat against the window bawling my eyes out now. Worse than ever before. I loved Billie and he was falling in love with someone else. Billie came back inside the van with a grin on his face. Just before Billie could come sit beside me, Sarah came and took his spot. She gave him a dirty look. I couldn't even tell if he felt ashamed. I heard him whipsering to Sarah, he asked why he was crying. She gave him the right answer.
"Why do you think?" I watched as he turned around to look at everyone else. They were also disgusted at him. No one talked to him for the rest of the ride. I couldn't believe what I was thinking at this point. But when Billie grabbed my arm to talk to me when I got home, the feeling of love was gone. I knew that we were over. Sarah stayed the night with me and so did everyone else. Billie wanted to, but I made him leave. As the weeks went by, I saw Billie less and less. My love for him, growing less and less. Untill I heard yelling downstairs. It was Sarah, Billie and Mike.
"How the hell could you be with Megan, Billie!? What happened to you loving Danielle!?"
"I don't know Sarah! I feel different with Megan okay!"
I went to the top of the stairs to see them. Tears swelled up in my eyes, as I saw my best friends becoming enemies.
"Well we have a newsflash for yah Billie! Danielle hasn't talked to anyone, she hasn't got out of bed. She has hardly been eating ever since that night you kissed Megan. She's falling apart because you left her Billie!" I watched as Billie just stood there shocked. I walked silently down the stairs, tears streaming down my face now. Everyone turned around and walked me come down the stairs. When I looked at Billie I felt empty, my heart was truly broken.
"Danielle, what happened to you?" Billie's eyes filled with tears.
"You" I replied softly.
"Billie, listen to me. I want you to leave this house now. I don't want to see you while you still love Megan. You understand me?"
Billie Joe was crying into his hands now. It hurt me to see him suffer like this, but he hurt me much worse. I stood there for five minutes and watched him cry. I couldn't take it anymore. I ran up to Billie and lifted his head. His eyeliner turned his face black, and his hands were full of tears. His eyes widened as he saw my hands. They had cuts on them. He pulled down my shirt sleeve and there, he saw more and more cuts. I tried to pull my hands away. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Mike and Sarah sit down, they looked sick. Billie let go and put his hands to his face. Just then Billie reached into my house coat pocket and held out a razor, blood stained. From all the times I tried to cut myself, trying to end it all, because of the pain he caused me.
"I-I didn't know." That was all he could say to me. I lifted up his head again and wiped away his tears. I leaned in and kissed him. After a short time I let go of him. But he didn't. I saw out of the corner of my eye, Sarah and Mike walk upstairs like they were going to puke because of what they just witnessed.
I got more into Billie kissing me, I finally kissed him back. We pulled away from each other and looked each other in the eye.
"I-I still love you Billie.." I didn't even know why I did. The feeling of life came back when I kissed him. And the next 5 words that came out of his mouth, made me feel like the happiest girl in the world.
"I love you to Danielle." He searched my eyes. He watched as the colour came back into my face. He pulled out his cell phone and dialed a number.
"Hey Megan its Billie." I rolled my eyes and sat on the couch.
I could still hear Megans voice.
"Hey Billie! Whats up hunny you sound upset?"
"I think we should break up. I love Danielle to much." He looked at me and we both smiled at each other for the first time in along time.
"WHAT!?" I could hear Megan screaming at the other end. I chuckled.
"That's right Megan. You heard me. Now I suggest you throw away my number cause I won't be talking to you for a while. Byebye now." And with that he hung up. He came onto the couch beside me and sat down.
"I'm so sorry hunny, do you forgive me. And do you forgive me about that sounding so corny?" I just laughed and nodded. I could hear Sarah and Mike walk up behind us, and I knew that they were smiling. They were happy to hear me laugh for the first time in 4 months. Mike and Sarah silently went out the front door. Me and Billie were alone now. I leaned against him and started kissing him. He kissed me back, which made me feel good. I took the razor out of my pocket and threw it accross the room without looking because me and Billie were still deeply kissing. Billie lifted me up and carried up to my bedroom while still kissing me. He set me down and we stopped for some air. This time we went at it, he started pulling off my shirt and unhooked my bra. I pulled off his shirt and by now we were on the bed. Looking over I made sure the door was locked. He dragged down my pants while we were still making out. I pulled off his and we were rolling on the bed. He kissed me and kissed me, and I kissed him back. I couldn't believe this, having sex with the hottest best guy I know. And if this is him saying sorry, I like it. After about 3 hours of hardcore sex we settled down a bit and went under my covers. We started smoochin a bit but I got tired so we crawled out of bed and I put on a long shirt and he put on his boxers. We went into the bathroom and brushed our teeth. I ran back into my room and jumped on the bed. He did the same and we just smiled at each other.
"Yah know what, right now I would prefer you with you shirt off." He reached over and pulled it off while I laughed. I stuck out my tongue because I still had on my underwear. I pointed to his boxers.
"Sneeky little thing aren't you. But... No."
"Awh come on! Plleasse!" I begged him. He shook his head no. I pushed him down and sat on top of him, and I put back on my bra. I started tickling him, then started kissing his neck.
"Come on, I'm sitting on you, aren't I heavy!?"
"Haha nope, but I'm liking every second of it." He winked at me. He pulled me down closer to him and we started kissing again. I let go of him and yawned.
"Mabey tomorrow Billie, but I'm tired."
"Okay babe. Night, love you." I kissed him for a few seconds then got off of him and went under the covers. I turned off my lamp and said my good night. Just then I heard the front door close, it was Katie, Tre', Kirstin, Mike and Sarah, they probably came to check on me. I jumped out of bed and locked the door. When I got back in bed I turned and faced Billie. He put his arm around me and I almost fell asleep when I heard them coming up the stairs. Me and Billie looked at each other, smiled and fell straight to sleep. Tonight is a night I will never forget.
